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23:01 Jul 31 2009
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Dang. She's scheduled to work that night so she probably won't be able to go, she said she's going to try and get someone to switch with her so we'll see. If she can't get it off I'll try again another day.


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14:39 Jul 31 2009
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I had a really weird dream this morning. I can't remember it very well except at the end. At the very end I was dragging some girls jealous ex boyfriend away from a party in a head lock and the cops showed up. They were making sure everything was alright and I told him I was just taking him from the party so he could calm down. At that point he started struggling to get out of the head lock and telling the cops to make me let him go, I tightened my grip to make it more painful and the cops threatened to tazer him. Then I woke up to find that I had a blanket in a head lock.


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04:49 Jul 31 2009
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Tired but not tired... Grrrrrrrrr...


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Lolita
Lolita
05:38 Jul 31 2009

I know the feeling....





DarkLight1984
DarkLight1984
09:19 Jul 31 2009

Dude, I'm so there every night. *yawns deeply





 

22:55 Jul 30 2009
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Well, I was about to log off of everything and go play my rpg for a bit but then I got a random message from someone on another site.


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21:42 Jul 30 2009
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I have been bombarded by mentorship invites... oi. I appreciate the offers but I'm really not looking at this moment.


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13:09 Jul 30 2009
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Awesome! She has to check her work schedule to make sure if she has the night off but she said if she does she'll go with me. I'm excited, I can't wait to know for sure!


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Lolita
Lolita
13:25 Jul 30 2009

YAY!!! I can't wait either :)





placidchaos
placidchaos
13:37 Jul 30 2009

I'll make sure to post when she lets me know. ^_^





 

06:56 Jul 30 2009
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Well I just asked the girl I've been talking to if she was interested in catching the Flyleaf concert with me, now I wait and see what she says.


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DarkLight1984
DarkLight1984
08:59 Jul 30 2009

Flyleaf??? My girl loves Flyleaf, wish I could take her to it. I'm so jealous of you bro. Gona have to lay the smack down on you when I get back...lol just kidding. You do suck though. ;) Good luck with the girl, just remember to take things nice and slow.





Lolita
Lolita
10:40 Jul 30 2009

I'm excited for you!! I can't wait to read what happens next... I hope she says yes.... I will be back for updates lol..





placidchaos
placidchaos
13:10 Jul 30 2009

Don't stress it bro, you'll get your chance I'm sure. lol



Thanks Lolita!





 

18:45 Jul 29 2009
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Well I got myself on Linkedin now, I have a proper and updated resume, and I'm on file with 2 HR outsourcing agencies. I've filed a bunch of applications and I've called some of them back to try for interviews. I'm going to call Best Buy tonight to talk to the person in charge of hiring at the location I applied at to try setting up an interview with her. So I'm still job hunting and waiting for someone to be interested.


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05:40 Jul 29 2009
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It's odd, I've developed the habit of logging on to plentyoffish right as the girl I've been talking to hits send on her replies to my messages. It's like a sixth sense or something.


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Lolita
Lolita
07:27 Jul 29 2009

Kismet :)





 

18:58 Jul 28 2009
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So now I've applied to a couple hotels, a couple banks, a Pizza Hut, and a couple other places. *sigh*


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18:16 Jul 28 2009
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I went and turned in my resume at the Hilton across the street from here. It was a little funny. When I handed it to the front desk manager he had this expression that clearly read "Not another one" but when he flipped to the second page where I list my work experience his voice sounded pleasantly surprised and he said, "Oh, ok. What were you looking for?" After I told him he promised to get it to the GM when they got in at noon since that's who does the hiring. I'll take that as a good sign.


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06:12 Jul 28 2009
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So I've been talking to this cute girl on plentyoffish, she seems interesting and I've enjoyed talking to her so far. She's local and I think it would be cool to meet her and see if we click at all but I'm having a problem with that idea. With my current job status I don't feel comfortable asking a girl out on a date and add to that the fact that I don't know at what point it becomes ok to ask a girl on a date when you're talking online. Grr.


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16:03 Jul 27 2009
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Ok, the fuckin' movie ad popping up on EVERY DAMN PAGE is PISSING me OFF!


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S0RVENA
S0RVENA
16:26 Jul 27 2009

yeah no shit. funny i just posted about that too. it's so irritating! lol





ladySnowStrixx
ladySnowStrixx
17:19 Jul 27 2009

ok , KILL THE ORPHAN all ready!!!!





 

12:33 Jul 27 2009
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feh


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05:19 Jul 27 2009
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In the morning is the start of my new self-imposed morning routine. Get up at 6, eat a decent breakfast, go exercise for a little while, come back in and shower, eat something light with protein (peanut butter or some sort of meat, it helps the muscles recover better/faster), and then get on with what I need to do for the day.


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04:03 Jul 27 2009
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So just for the hell of it I signed up on another site. The problem was that everything I tried to have for my screen name was already taken. So being a smart ass I chose thisnameisunique and it actually went... I guess that means it really is unique.. heh heh heh


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07:11 Jul 26 2009
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Grrr. I hate it when I get like this. I feel tired but I'm not really ready to sleep yet and I know I wouldn't be able to right now because of that. It's annoying. Why on earth can I get tired when my mind and body aren't willing to sleep? Isn't that supposed to be what being tired is?


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04:57 Jul 26 2009
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I finished reading the third book of the Rachel Morgan series and decided I wanted to read the 4th, so I drive down to Borders to buy it. I get there and head back to the science fiction/fantasy section and there's no Kim Harrison... That was a shocker to me because I know Borders carries the series and then I notice there are a a lot of authors missing that I normally would see in that section. So I go to the computer to look it up and they have it under Horror. What... the... fuck? Horror? You've got to be kidding me! ANY book that has vampires was in HORROR?! Even the Dresden Files series was in horror! What the hell?! Was the person deciding where to put shit in that store fucking stoned or something?


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18:20 Jul 25 2009
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So, fucked up dream this morning. I don't remember every thing but I remember a lot. A one point I came home to find some girl in my place (I apparently had my own place) and she was excited and telling me how she moved to a place that was only 13min away. She was really cute and had short hair. Then the dream skipped ahead a bit and I went to visit some lady (she was royalty I think) and I don't know what she was but she wasn't human. I scolded her guards for letting me in so easily because apparently in the past someone had impersonated me to get close to her. Then that girl showed up and things got a little awkward, no clue why. Then the dream moved forward again and there's a huge battle/brawl going on in what I think is an abandoned warehouse. I kept freaking out because my dream self kept letting his head get cut off but everytime that happened it turned out that it was just a clone (so it would seem I could do some sort of clone technique, Naruto style baby!), the girl kept freaking out each time too. Each time it happened I was sure it was the real one I had followed but when they were about to die they just sat there staring into space. Finally I get back to watching the real dream me and he's about to get his head cut off by these strange creatures wielding razor whips. He did this awesome dodge somersault and came up with this thingy in his hands that he threw at precisely the right moment to tangle their whips. Then the fighting goes on for a bit and all that's left are 2 guys. One of them has a baby and is kidnapping it (this seems to have been what the fight was all about) and the other guy has some woman who is apparently a good friend of mine and has a gun to her head. As they're slowly backing out of the room I tell the girl (the one who had been in my place) to shoot him. Everybody looks at me in surprise and I tell them that we can't let them have the baby and that they'll kill her once they get away anyway. Plus what would be the point in shooting her now since that would just leave a room full of their enemies pissed off and with no reason to let them live. The bad guys exchange looks and the one putting the gun to the chic shoves her forward as the girl pulls a huge pistol out of her bag and points it at the one holding the baby and he decides to duck and use the child as a shield. They both run and then I woke up to my alarm clock.


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10:18 Jul 25 2009
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Ok, I'm starting to feel tired. It's bed time.


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21:10 Jul 24 2009
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My interview-ish thing went alright. They're considering me for a data entry position. It would be temporar, 6-8 months is what she said. Something is better than nothing though and it would pay decently and add to my resume. Just doing the testing gave me something to add to my resume, I apparently 10-key at 6994 kpm and I can do alpha-numeric at 9113 kpm. I don't know how impressive that is in the business world but I know it's at least decent, which impresses me.


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Here's hopin'!

18:23 Jul 24 2009
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I'm going in to do some testing with a company called Hemphill, they're going to see what, if any, positions I qualify for. If I do qualify for any I'll be able to get one and make a decent wage hopefully. I'll just have to wait and see how it goes.


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17:47 Jul 24 2009
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It would be nice to be able to afford tailor made clothing, that's almost the only way I can get nice shirts that fit me. I've even gone to men's clothing stores and anything that fits my shoulders has to have the sleeves shortened and the collar is usually too big. If it fits my neck the shoulders are too small. I remember when I still lived with my mother she took me to a clothing store to get some and if they hadn't offered to do the tailoring to make them fit for free I would have passed on them since it was the same old story.


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04:28 Jul 24 2009
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Crap, I need to find my fingernail clippers. My nails are getting a little longer than I like and I have an interview-ish thing tomorrow, I also need to get some scissors to trim my goatee.


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04:06 Jul 24 2009
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Hmm. I messaged a girl on plentyoffish, I've actually messaged more than one but one of them actually replied. That's a first. The fact that I'm actaully messaging anyone on there is a little bit of a shock to me. For some reason I'm being outgoing-ish, no clue why but I'll roll with it.


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23:55 Jul 23 2009
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Why is it so hard to find and connect people with similar interests as me that are local? It would be nice to have people that I can just chill with or rock out together, whatever. It would be especially nice to find a girl to do those kinds of things with. I never seem to date girls who share enough of the same interests as me or with personalities that I can connect with as more than friends. I suppose that's because I can't seem to find them. GRRRRRR.


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05:48 Jul 23 2009
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Wow, something seems different about me. I've started being more outgoingly socail. I like it, I've missed that part of me.


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17:44 Jul 22 2009
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*sigh* Still job hunting. The Nobbies not too far from here is hiring so I think I'm going to pop in there with my resume to apply for a position.


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00:02 Jul 22 2009
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Ha ha hahhhh! I can smile without there being a gap where my tooth should be! I'm so friggin' happy! I'm going to take a pic a.s.a.p. and post it!


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23:12 Jul 20 2009
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Wow. I was on jokes.com reading blonde jokes when I came across this gem, it's an old joke but pay attention when you read it:



A blonde and a both jump off a cliff at the same time. Which one will hit the bottom first?



The brunette, because the blonde has to ask for directions


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DarkLight1984
DarkLight1984
06:41 Jul 21 2009

"A blonde and a both" huh? Wow! That says a lot for the person that posted it there.





 

06:22 Jul 20 2009
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GRRRRRRRRR!


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DarkLight1984
DarkLight1984
07:54 Jul 20 2009

GRRRRRRRRR what?





 

23:18 Jul 19 2009
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Fact: Manga and comic books are expensive hobbies if you indulge the interest. TOTALLY worth it though!


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20:37 Jul 19 2009
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Awesome! I found Next Millenium and I got myself a new hematite ring and a smoky quartz pendant. It has a really nice atmosphere, a little less laid back than Ancient ways but still peaceful. The staff is really friendly as well, I'll definitely go back.



I also went to Wal-Mart to return the wireless adapter that doesn't work and used that money to buy myself 2 new shirts. I'm feelin' good right now.


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17:54 Jul 19 2009
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I've been trying to figure out what to do today and surfing the net. I was on plentyoffish a little bit ago and there is one woman on there that had caught my interest, so I got over myself and found something to break the ice with. I'm getting ready to eat and head to Next Millenium right now, it's a new age store. I want to check it out.


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20:34 Jul 18 2009
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I made it to Omaha. I'm likin' it here so far. I am supposed to go in to a dentist on Tuesday, someone my Aunt knows, so I can get it fixed to where I don't feel self conscious because I'm walkin' around without a front tooth (it will also be nice once I start being social since I'm single again). There are PLENTY of jobs around here but Aunt Trisha said I should wait until I get the tooth fixed so I don't feel self conscious during interviews and such. I'm on my way to get some chow and explore right now. I'm working on getting my computer connected to the net so I'll be on a little more once that's done.


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05:44 Jul 16 2009
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Tonight's my last night working here! Boo-yeaya baby! I leave for Omaha tomorrow sometime. I still have a few things to finish up before I go but that's cool. Mainly I just need to load up my car, after that I need to turn in my keys, file a change of address, and have the power there taken out of my name.


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11:15 Jul 15 2009
Times Read: 880


Pages Viewed Score (Pages: 96,096): 67 x .50 = 33.50

Time Spent Score (Time: 24.84 days): 70 x .50 = 35.00

Base Score: 68.5



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Forum (Posts: 166): 68.5 x 0.0042 = 0.29

Profile (Rating: 9.575): 68.5 x 0.0050 = 0.34

Journal (Read By: 21): 68.5 x 0.0021 = 0.14

Friend (Lists On: 22): 68.5 x -0.0168 = -1.15

Blocked (Lists On: 1): 68.5 x 0.0000 = 0.00

Overblock (Blocks: 2): 68.5 x 0.0000 = 0.00

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Total Bonuses / Penalties: 1.6653345369377E-16





Total Score: 68.50


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11:07 Jul 15 2009
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Wow. We only made $134.47 in banquets today. That won't even cover the entire cost of the labor... Sad.


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06:57 Jul 15 2009
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Hmm, I think I'll check out the Vampire Juuji Kai - Fallen Vampire. It looks like it might be an interesting manga.


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05:30 Jul 15 2009
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You know, there's not much that pisses me off more than people who have not experienced a mental illness running their mouth and acting like they know more about it than those of us who struggle with them everyday.


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FatalAttraction
FatalAttraction
05:34 Jul 15 2009

Some people like to believe they know everything. We just have to ignore them.



Leinth
Leinth
06:47 Jul 15 2009

**nods** They have The Dr Phil Syndrome.....





 

09:28 Jul 14 2009
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I'm nervous and excited, I can't wait to move. I can't wait to be done working here. I wish I could just go now. *sigh*


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MBK
MBK
09:37 Jul 14 2009

How could you want to leave good Ol' Huron?





 

05:17 Jul 14 2009
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Counting tonight there are only 3 nights until I don't work here anymore... I really can't fucking wait!


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05:49 Jul 13 2009
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I'm in a very anti-social mood at the moment. I don't know why. I logged on with the intention of replying to comments and doing other things, elsewhere as well as here, but everytime I try my mind just locks up. Feh, I think I'll spend some time reading and log back on later.


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09:31 Jul 12 2009
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Well, I did added a little bit to my profile. I'm still not really sure what I want to do with it right now though.


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07:47 Jul 12 2009
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This website has soom cool art:



http://darkartgallery.com/gallery.php


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07:42 Jul 12 2009
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At the suggestion of a very good friend of mine I joined plentyoffish.com (am I the only one who reads that plenty offish instead of plenty of fish?), it's a dating site. Yeah, yeah, I know. It made something occur to me just a moment ago. I really don't know how to approach people online, not just on a dating site but even on here. I emailed and became friends with Morphinedream08 (no longer a member of this site), but my initial message was 100% smart ass. I intentionally took something she said as a direct challange to me for me to try being her friend. Coincidentally, she's the friend that suggested I join that site. Since her the only people on this site that I've initiated contact with has been through comments on their journals. I don't actually go and start conversations, most of the time I just don't know what to say so I say nothing. This really sucks since there are those on here that I've been interested in talking to but just couldn't figure out how to start the conversation. I feel that sending an email saying, "How are you?" when you haven't even held a conversation before just doesn't quite cut it. If you can do it and build a conversation off it than go for it but I've never succeeded in going that route. *sigh* So how the hell am I supposed to meet somebody on a dating site? I find the concept fairly laughable.


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10:59 Jul 08 2009
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I just emptied my profile. I'm going to completely re-make it. I couldn't bring myself to completely erase what was there though, so I copied it and printed it. I was originally just going to delete it but I couldn't do it, I don't know the exact reason why but I just got a feeling similar to leaving behind an old friend when I went to do it. Odd. So I have a hard copy of it at least.


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09:18 Jul 08 2009
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I don't know why but for the past few days I've been getting tired right around this time of the night. It's strange.


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05:49 Jul 08 2009
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I ran Tina to the store today and then got home and had 2 slices of cold Tombstone and a can of ravioli for my supper.



This last week I've been spending all my time at home, getting things ready for the move and relaxing in between. During this time Tina has called or stopped over on her way home because she says she wants to spend time with me but everytime she does she wants me to go over to her place and turns down my offer to stick around mine so that I can both spend time with her and continue my cleaning and what not. She claims to want to spend time with me but isn't willing to do more than say it. Yeah.


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09:19 Jul 07 2009
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I'm hungry and feelin' like a nap. *sigh* I have to do my job now though.


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05:16 Jul 07 2009
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It looks like the rumor I heard saying that everybody working here is getting canned might just be true. There are a rumors going around town that this place is closing too. The regional manager has called a big meeting that's mandatory for ALL staff and the owner is supposedly going to be there too. Lovely.


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Sinora
Sinora
08:10 Jul 07 2009

I hope you manage to keep your job.





 

03:25 Jul 07 2009
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Heh, it amused me.



Who's Online (420)


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03:14 Jul 07 2009
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Hmm, I'm suddenly struck with the desire to read Greek mythology, Roman mythology might be good too since theirs is mostly a spin off.


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03:09 Jul 07 2009
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I just watched the movie D.E.B.S. I've never been all that interested in it before because I always thought it would be a little stupid but I was bored so I figured what the hell, not like I've got anything better to watch at the moment. It's actually an alright movie, a little cheesy but still good and decently funny.


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21:29 Jul 06 2009
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I called my Aunt Trish to get her address because I tried to set up to have my services shut off only to realize I didn't know where to have the final bill sent... She gave it to me but she also told me that she sent it in an email not long back. So then we bashed me for being a blonde. Heh, gotta love her.


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20:17 Jul 06 2009
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Oh lord... I was just on another site and I came across somebody talking about how they were a music major and that brought them to talking about Moonlight Sonata. They spelled it Moonlit Sontra... YOU FAIL!


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13:10 Jul 06 2009
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I just got off work and I'm feeling a little tired but I'm not fooled though, even if I were to try getting some sleep it would be an hour or two before I managed even though it feels like my eyes are about to close. So instead I'm going to eat a little bit of pizza and then do some cleaning, once I'm done with that I'll hit the hay.


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11:12 Jul 06 2009
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This year I think I'm really going to do something for Halloween, have some freaky awesome fun. I know, I'm just thinking about what's to come. It is my favorite 'holiday' and I haven't really done anything for it in the past few years despite wanting to.


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MorbidAngels15
MorbidAngels15
11:59 Jul 06 2009

Its the same with me really, i have not done anything for halloween for ages....i should really do something for this years ^_^ just figure out what lol!





 

08:33 Jul 06 2009
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I'm so fucking annoyed right now. I was going to go watch a show on a site I've been to a million times without trouble and the damn thing infested the computer with a bunch of viruses. I've spen over an hour just trying to get it to work enough to run AVG. Sheesh. I hate being on this computer, it logs me out almost everytime I try to access any of the premium member menu links.


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03:16 Jul 06 2009
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I was just a little disappointed with the Dead Like Me movie, it was really good though.


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02:03 Jul 06 2009
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Holy hell I swear I almost had a heart attack. I went up to the store to get some food and as I was bringing it in I dropped my key. I looked and looked but couldn't find it. After a while of not finding it I didn't know what else I could do so I put away my groceries... The fuckin' key was in the bag... Somehow when I dropped it it landed in there, I don't know how but at least it isn't lost.


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04:52 Jul 05 2009
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Ugh, it was really nice in here all day and now the stupid breeze isn't coming in the windows as strong. *sigh* Time for work anyway.


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02:07 Jul 05 2009
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I often wonder how other people deal with their emotions and stress. It didn't used to be a problem for me, my temper used to be so explosive that it didn't matter because it would all come out when somebody blinked wrong. I had such a short fuse and was a wild, raging beast when it went off. Despite that, I was happier in those days. I used to think it was the way my life was at the time but I think it's the difference in the expression of my emotions. These days I go on a brief rant or ramble or I eventually break into a fit of uncontrollable laughter for a while and that's it but it's only a very temporary fix. It's all there all the time, building up and I don't know how to let it out without going back to that short fused bomb. I would give just about anything to go off like I used to, it would feel so very amazingly wonderful. Even now when I'm feeling relatively calm the idea is extremely seductive, but I guess it is there all the time now.


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01:55 Jul 05 2009
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It's funny in a sad way, the thing I want more than anything else is to make that connection with someone. You know what I mean? Not necessarily something romantic and I don't mean love. I don't know how best to explain it. You're there, the other person is there, and for whatever reason there's a vital connection, it's a feeling that those who feel it often take for granted. I've felt that connection before but the person on the other end didn't. Even though this is what I want most I almost never make the effort to reach out to the people around me and when I do it is inevitably people that I am not and probably never would be able to make that connection with.


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The price I pay for never reaching out to my neighbors...

01:12 Jul 05 2009
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I just learned that the person living across the hall from me is a really hot rocker chic. Not that it would have mattered if I'd known sooner since I have been in a relationship the entire time I've lived here.


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23:22 Jul 04 2009
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Sittin' here, chillin' with a Cherry Coke and cooking my dinner. I'm in the mood to change my profile playlist so I think I'll go do that.


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22:33 Jul 04 2009
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On my way to get some food and to see about borrowing a vaccum cleaner. Tomorrow after I'm out of bed I'm going to clean my stove and mop the kitchen floor, then vaccum, and depending on how motivated I am I might hit the bathroom after that. My days off this week are going to be dedicated to sifting through all my papers to see what I keep and what gets tossed. Beyond that I just need to take care of my dishes and then sort the clutter and pack it up. I think I'll ask my landlord to come by friday to examine the place to see about getting my deposit back or if not then, hopefully monday or tuesday.


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21:09 Jul 04 2009
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Oi, I'm so hungry... I still need to do more cleaning before I fill my belly though... *sigh* RIGHT! GET TO IT!!


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Please ignore this overly dramatic post. Lack of sleep + depression + stressed out =

09:44 Jul 04 2009
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Most of the time it takes a lot of effort for me to sort out what I'm feeling and I usually don't succeed very well. I'm always feeling so much that I can't find the needle in the needle stack. My emotions are always so turbulent. Among them I always feel an overwhelming anger and hatred, for what I don't know, maybe everything, but they make me feel like doing such horrible things and they only lend credit to the little voice inside me that is telling me to do such things. Somewhere in there is an unimaginable void, there is nothing there and in that place I don't care one shit about anything. There's also a major dose of lust, not just sexual but for any and all forms of pleasure and that's where this feeling of a predator smiling right before devouring its prey comes from. Off in the corner somewhere and mostly contained by me is someone who laughs at all manner of evil, his sadistic humor brings him to maniacal laughter for the pain of others and most especially for his own. Near the void is a crushing sorrow, it conveys the sense of being repeatedly stabbed by a serrated knife and the wounds are healling instantly but the pain of each stab never fades. On the surface of all is an odd calm, like standing on the beach at a lake when there is absolutely no breeze and the water seems to be still as though afraid to disturb even a molecule. It gives a sense of contentment and serenity when in fact it is nothing more than the leash for the tempestuous chaos. The storm longs for destruction or dispersement. *sigh* That's how it is, every single day and every moment of those days. The emotions are matched only by the constant churning of my mind, it's inability to ever find rest.



Am I suffering? That would be a definite yes, but I feel selfish for thinking that when I see those ads for charity organizations. Does my suffering even compare to theirs? I don't think there's a way to tell. Is it any wonder that I have trouble coping with reality and cling to my escapism? No, at least I don't think so. But everything's alright, I'll wear my bland face and small grin and keep the surface of the water still so nobody will know unless they dive beneath. Wow, it sounds much more bleak than I thought it did.



A while ago I came to the conclusion that I had no reason to live, I struggled with this for a while. I mean, what reason was there for me to live if I had no reason? Why keep on living in that situation? Honestly I don't know. Prehaps it's just my stubborn refusal to actually consider suicide. Sure I have fantasies of offing myself but I would never truly consider it. It was at that time that I came to the decision that if I didn't have any reason to live my reason to live would be to live for the purpose of finding that reason. Odd logic, isn't it? I suppose that's not all that different from when I used my writer's block as inspiration for a poem. Some days it doesn't feel like it's enough and it seems to keep getting harder and harder, I'm still doing it though and I will continue to do it because I'm just that damn hard headed.



*sigh* I feel better now.


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04:43 Jul 04 2009
Times Read: 976


You want to talk about sad? I think I have a crush on a fictional character, yep. It might be the actress playing them, I'm not sure yet. I suppose I should figure that out, for all the good it'll do me either way.


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Leinth
Leinth
04:47 Jul 04 2009

No it's not sad at all, we females have been doing this for ever.... lmao.. welcome to the club.



Which character is it????





placidchaos
placidchaos
07:56 Jul 04 2009

lol, It's Georgia from Dead Like Me.





Leinth
Leinth
11:03 Jul 06 2009

aww I can understand that ;-)





 

20:05 Jul 03 2009
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Just a note, if you're a landlord and you want to bring a prospective tenant over to a place that's currently occupied but soon to be vacant you should call the current occupant to make sure it's ok before showing up. It's a little bad if you come over and the current tenant isn't home or isn't in a position for people to come pokin' around. Plus, it's just good manners and not doing so might annoy both current and potential occupants.


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14:38 Jul 03 2009
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*sigh* I know I should get up and do the cleaning that I didn't end up doing last night but I don't feel like it. *grumble* Alright, alright, I'll do it. Jut let me get some chow first.


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14:20 Jul 03 2009
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What the HELL! I just realized the episode 150 is the last episode of Gash Bell, or so it would seem. They can't end it there, there isn't a proper conclusion. They shouldn't end it until the battle to determine the Demon King is done. I hope the manga doesn't end the same, I'm about to go check it out.


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13:33 Jul 03 2009
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What the heck? I was just looking around on craigslist at cars and such and I came across an ad for a 1968 Cadillac El Dorado asking $600. I have to wonder if the person selling this CLASSIC car realizes it's worth more than that, especially to a collector. They'd be better off getting it into a trader magazine or something of the like.


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07:24 Jul 03 2009
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The thing I don't understand about Gash Bell is how the good guys seem to get so upset about the demons disappearing with the burning of their books. It's not like it kills them, they just return to their own world. There have been one or two in the seires so far that have acutally died without returning but that's it. So why do they keep getting so upset over it?


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05:55 Jul 03 2009
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Ah, I see, apparently the usual voice actor was on maternity leave.


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05:51 Jul 03 2009
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Oh? It sounds like the person playing Gash's voice may have changed. I think I'll look it up.


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03:23 Jul 03 2009
Times Read: 991


I can't wait for the 15th. No more working at the hotel. I'm really looking forward to moving to Omaha for many reasons. I just can't wait!


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01:26 Jul 03 2009
Times Read: 996


I've been awake barely over 2 hours and I was just half debating going back to bed... *sigh* No can do though, need to CLEAN.


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I wonder if they offer BOGO deals?

12:34 Jul 02 2009
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According to the newspaper they're selling girls at a local garage sale. That would certainly attract some business.


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crowgirl
crowgirl
18:46 Jul 02 2009

Will you get me one that looks like Angelina Jolie? Or Yulia Volkova? Or Both? Please?





MBK
MBK
20:43 Jul 02 2009

LOL! Gotta love newspapers sometimes.





placidchaos
placidchaos
01:27 Jul 03 2009

Sorry, they only had Mila Jovavich and Jessica Alba left.





 

12:05 Jul 02 2009
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I'm so glad tonight is my night off, I really need to get some decent sleep on top of other things.


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18:51 Jul 01 2009
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I turned in my two week notice and the GM tells me that I'll be 'nearly impossible to replace' and is clearly upset. I'm sittin' here thinking that if I was so valuable they should have appreciated me better, they kept crappin' on me and givin' me crappy pay. Surely he didn't honestly expect me to stick around indefinitely? People. *shakes head*


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14:22 Jul 01 2009
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Well that was interesting. I dozed off for about 5 minutes and had a dream where I was having sex with some girl I've never seen before on the hood of my car at someplace I've never been.


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ThothLestat
ThothLestat
14:35 Jul 01 2009

that was MY car, and MY girl, KNOCK IT OFF!

LOL





 

05:13 Jul 01 2009
Times Read: 799


After doing some thinking and talking to Tina there's been a change of plans, I'm going to turn in my two week notice tomorrow morning when my manager arrives instead of next week. I can't wait for those weeks to be done!



I wasn't even here for 5 minutes yet when a guest came up to tell me that the fire alarm in their room was acting up. When they start doing that the only thing to do is to pull it off the wall and have maintenence replace it the next day. I go up to his room to do that and as I grab the wire to pull it out of the back the damn thing shocked me. Not the worst zap I've ever had but it annoyed me none the less.


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02:49 Jul 01 2009
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Oh for cryin' out loud! I was going to call my aunt today but I can't access the email that she sent me her number in! Grrrrr.


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