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ok ..well today went much better than i thought it would... actually.... at my deposition this morning... the woman suing me dug herself a nice deep hole to hop into... it was so amazing.. then.. when i gave mine.. i sat there like the perfect little angel that i am..hmm.. gotta love it... getting under people's skin is so much fun.. esp. when they are greedy assholes... oy.. hmm.. anyway... its been a pretty good day.. aside from the fact i got sick this afternoon/ evening.. heh.. guess my nerves finally caught up with me.. blah.... i finally manage to rehydrate myself i think... heh.. hmm... oh yeah!.. I god molested by a stray cat today.... just walked right up and plopped down in my lap... the cute furry little bugger!

i named him mr. bob ...ever notice how everything seems better when there is a bob somewhere?... oh.. and it appears we are finally getting the big yellow and black spiders now.. harvest spiders i think they are... heh.. we have one by the porch at my house.. i named him charles..... come to think of it... i always name them charles and then call them charlie... its a habit..hehe.. anyway....it fits.. kinda looks like a charlie too ...

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... okie.. so...im actually not depressed about tomorrow!!!!... (my deposition with the lawyers).... actually i feel more like some naughty school girl about to go to see the principal.... heh... thats a bad acronym isn't it..hehe.. oh well... hmm.. for some odd reason i seem to feel the need to yell stupid dick! at my computer every 2 -3 minutes... which... is actually probably not that non normal for me... and i just realized something!... im usually actually a whole bunch tonight... quite rare if i do say so myself...

oooooooooooooh... and i have decided ... to pick up a new hobby much like Jason Moss :) a guy who wrote about during his college years when he started writing to a bunch of famous murderers on death row... including gacy, ramirez, manson, hmm.. oh.. and dahmer... hehe... i think my first "victim" will be jesse james cummings.. a particualarly sadistic sort of dickhead... hmm.. i guess the real concern is whether or not he will answer me... hmm.. sounds innocent enough right?..heh.. not really... but maybe.... *sighs*.. oy.. mom is calling.. time for my nightly/ daily nurse duty

im not going to say much right now.. ill say more later maybe... after i get a chance to cool off... and think some things through...

ok.. so i haven't made it to sleep yet.. im too wound up to properly sleep... i realize now that some words when spoke from the right people can cut as bad as a knife.... why is that anyway?...i think... human nature has got it all wrong... when you look at the news.. there is all this stuff about people who kill and hurt others.. and for what... stupid pointless reasons... yet we are stupid enough to trust others to do the same thing ... its human nature to be an asshole i suppose... maybe thats just easier ... hmm.. oy.. im sleepy .. and this doesn't sound like its making alot of sense... but i think it is.. atleast to whom it applies...

hmm.. just further reiterates the fact that no one needs anyone else... its just nice to have..when its right... and that almost never happens... what gets me is why we all get so dreary when things seem to go awry.. esp. when they were destined to to begin with..even when our heads say things are better off this way.. oy.. the human mind is an infuriating thing sometimes..

hmm..

on a lighter note.. im plotting evil revenge against a guy who was mom's nurse in the hospital... for starters im gonna sneak in and lather up some vaseline on his door nob handle :) so he has a lovely surprise when he tries to get in his truck in the morning... hmm... and if i happen to find something really gross and smelly along the side of the road on the way up there.. there is no reason i can't drop it in the back of his truck.. i mean... better there than littering the road right :) im such a help to society... heh.. oooooh.. and i shall leave a straw under his windshield wipers... just so he knows ... heh.. now all i need is the mission impossible music to sound as i scurry between the cars and hide from the night security man that patrols the parking lot at night..hehe..

ya know.. its funny how some people just can't accept things for what they are... how they just want to change things all the time... maybe saying stuff is the way they hoped it would be ... will make things better ..or so they think.. but it just makes it harder on everyone in the end...

someone who i thought was a much different person did this... not that it matters really... its pretty much how everything turns out in the end... who cares right..heh.. can't always make things better... esp. for people who aren't even worth it... just wish my head agreed with my.. heh.. oy.. im not even going there... anyway... long day.. and early classes tomorrow... time to go... do something ridiculously retarded to bring a smile to myself

hmm.. ok.. so i made it up for the phone call.. and am now wishing i had just gone to bed in stead...why is it no one around here seems to understand what im saying.... i mean.. half the time im just talking to myself.. then when someone actually needs me to say something other than some stupid sarcastic remark... i make an idiot of myself... oy.... sometimes it really doesn't pay to bother talking... just seems like people are so quick to judge before actually trying to think about things from your point of view..

oh... and i just remembered.. next week i have to give my deposition... whenever i think about that woman.. and what she is doing i just wanna scream... i know its not gonna make anything better... but..atleast i can let out some pent up frustration...

ooooh yeah.. and i had a crappy realization today.. i won't even go into what it was about.. but lets just say it was bad.. and... sitting there staring me in the face all along... and i just now picked up on it.. after rethinking everything over... and as always.. its way past too late to do anything about it now... heh..

good grief.. this has been a crappy day...

tomorrow will be better.. atleast ill know whether or not im going to be given the silent treatment some more.. .. and hmm.. all of a sudden .. things just got insanely funny... feels like im back in grade school and have just down something naughty.. and am being given the silent treatment as punishment... oy!.. i think.. im insane.. but im well on the way to being a bit more myself.... hmm.. what an odd night :l

you know whats a terribly irritating trait to have.. avoidance... i mean... whats the point to it.. eventually you have to face something.. why not do it sooner than later to get it over with.. even when you can't think of what to say.. something is better than nothing.. heh.. usually..

and with that being said... blah... heh

my day has been very boring.... i spent the bulk of it in class ... day dreaming.. or reading ... aren't i the naughty little school girl.. heh.. hmm.. i wish i had the energy to actually do something productive... but alas.. i have none.. im trying really hard to wait up for a phone call.. but ... im not sure im gonna make it.. im sooooooooo sleepy... argh... my bed is calling me.. it wants me to hop on and snuggle down... and i so want to comply... .. damn damn damn..

hmm.. ooooooooh.. i did see one of the older people from when mom was in the hospital a couple of weeks ago... heheh.. she was adorable... i love old people!!!!!... esp. mr. lewis.. heh.. i don't think i shall ever forget him.. with his little eye patch... which sooooo added to his appeal..hehe.. oy... its amazing how cute little old horny men can be..well.. i think i kinda brought that one on myself.. one morning on his way to therapy i walked passed him as he was wheeling in his little wheel chair.. and i think he got a close glimpse of my booty... hmm.. then .. a couple days later he busts out in the middle of therapy while everyone was watching, asking me why i didn't wear my short short skirt... oy.. i was so red.. heh... and i was wearing the short one!.. apparently he thought it should shorter in the back :l evil old men!!!!!..hehe.. but nah.. he was sooooooooooo cute.. hmm.. i have a strange urge to go dip my finger in the whip cream.. which i think i will.. hmm.. later :)

ok.. today has really sucked the big one... well.. atleast most of it :)... it started off this morning with me almost getting hurt by some random dude .. since mom and i are staying with my grandparents while she gets used to being in a wheel chair and tries to get better... i have to walk home next door every morning to get ready for school.. anyway.. it was still dark when i walked home this morning.. and my contacts were kinda foggy so i couldn't see.. but it felt like someone was there.. so i kinda sped up... anyway.. once i got home...i was in my room looking for some clothes and i saw a guy walk passed my window.. he stopped and motioned me to the front of the house.. anyway.. i opened up the inner door and he just stood there... staring at me like i was supposed to do some kinda trick..then he started trying to open the outer glass door and jiggling it trying to get in... i told him i wasn't gonna let him in.. and he kept trying to get in.. then when i asked him what he wanted .. he said im looking for robert.. and when i told him no one lived there by that name .. he started back up at the door again.. and when i asked him what the guys last name he was looking for was. he said.. james.. or johnson.. but he didn't know.. eventually he left.. with a really dirty look on his face... the big perv.. he was such a bad liar...

anyway.. that was just the start off to a shitty day... im not even going into all the crap that happened today.... its not even worth it..

it basically ended with me just wanting to be alone.. and getting tired of everyone around me....oy.... i hope tomorrow is better :(

heh.. as long as no more dirty old men try and molest me it will be... hehe.. ok.. see.. there is that horribly inappropriate sense of humor that pops out... oy.. even when im depressed im funny.. sometimes anyway.. oy.. im going to make a phone call now i guess.. heh... night night!



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P.S. mervy and i are gonna ride the plastic horse again friday!!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

well.. im about to head to bed... but i felt the need to write something.... just a special thanks to all those who are there for me ...even when i don't always seem to appreciate it....and to those of my friends who don't really know how special they are.... thankyou :)

hmm okie.. well.. im about to go to bed..but got inspired..heh... lets see..the night before last i had a dream that everyone from vr was meeting in my home town... then came to my grandparents house... for what.. i have no idea.. anyway... then i was pounced by someone dressed up as seaweed monster.. only to find out that it was... hmm.. you know.. i think i shall leave that one blank.. but anyway.. it was strange.. other stuff was going on then too.. but i figure i might get in trouble if i wrote about some of that..heh... and since im such an angel.. i won't.....

ooooooooooh.. last night Kataryne and i got together and went out to terrorize the town... we even got to ride big earl at 1 something in the morning!....only... we rode it together... heh.. the first time i was in the front.. then the second time i rode behind her.. and came to the realization of what we must look like.. seeing as how i was perched on his big ole plastic tail...then the movements making it look like im humping the butt of a plastic horse.... while kataryne was yeehawing up front..heh.. oy!... no wonder people are scared of us.... hmm.. but thats ok.. its more fun that way anyway..heh



hmm.. we were bad little girls.. we decided to do some prank calling while using trucker voices...heh.. which we can do .. almost disturbingly well.. and ya know.. im starting to feel bad for the people whose phone numbers we have..heh..because no one is spared..... esp . those evil ones in the park!... hehe.. oh good grief.. im going to bed before i fall out of the chair laughing..hehe.. night night

ok.. so.. im just sneaking in a couple of words now... mom is kinda antsy because she wants to do another puzzle that takes forever to do ...oi.... it kinda sucks.. these are like the 40 year old retarded ass ones too.. anyway... just wanted to say.. that... im....... well lovely.. she just sneezed and i lost my train of thought... oi.. this is not good... ah well.. maybe something will pop up later

okie.. so its pretty early on a saturday night.. and im so damn sleepy... that im thinking about going to bed..however im so stubborn that i don't really want to just because its the weekend.. heh... retarded i know... hmm.. i spent a large part of the day in columbia with my mom and uncle... and let me just say whew!... pulling that wheel chair around is damn annoying.. but atleast mom got to get out for a while... hopefully she will not be too cranky later on.. (seems to happen when night time comes)... anyway.. i did receive a most depressing surprise this evening when i went to the gas station to get gas... while i went inside to get something ... an ex... of mine who tried to cheat on me with my best friend pulled up next to my car and waited for me.... when i came out and i saw him and his large beefy self i was determined to avoid him at all costs.. but... after a few unsuccessful ducks behind moving vehicles.. and scampering between cars.. i found it was unavoidable... so he strikes up a conversation .. and the first thing he says after hello is "why did you stop talking to me?" i mean.. how dense can a person get.. i left him a message saying that i knew what he had been up to... and for him to leave me alone.... well.. at the time he sent one back explaining that it was my fault that i just couldn't keep him around... and yadda yadda yadda.. but as pissed off as i was.. i just ignored it... because i was done with the whole thing..tonight he asked if he could call or leave me a message sometime.. i mean ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. stupid!... the big buttplug!

hmm... speaking of exs.. i did hear from another one.. about 2 days ago... we still talk from time to time... but it was never the right time for us to hook up... things always seemed to get in the way... so we just called it quits.. blah.. i guess the beatles were wrong when they said all ya need is love...hehe.. ok.. that was corny.. anyway... blah.

ooooooooh.. i picked up some new books tonight.. which im really excited about heh.. there's nothing better than jumping into a mountain of pillows and blankets... with a good book.. hmm.. well.. there are a couple things better than that... but im not even going to go there :) i spent most of the morning there.... and i have fred as a witness to prove it ..heh.. though i still maintain it was mostly his fault... since i am so innocent :)... oye!.. im off to read my book now..hehe

hmm.. so right now.. im swaying in a chair... singing my little heart out... to lets get it on... which is a rather odd site some might think.. but.. thats normal around here..... its a guilty pleasure i think.. hmm.. anyway... right now... i have the wildest urge to go skinny dipping.. which i don't know where thats coming from... but something tells me that before the end of the day comes.. ill be a nakkie fish in the water.... weeeeeeeeeee... maybe ill take some candles with me.. they always make it more fun.. hmm