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I awake to look inside myself and question my existance. What I found was hard for me to tell. Blackness of the darkness called my mind. i did not find what it was i wanted. But I did find what was not.Yes I am no I'm not, what I was was i just forgot.

Out of the shadows walks a in a dark cloak. Through the mists and touched by madness. Haunted by her past she roams alone. She moves quickly pastthe lights. Her true love William calls out to her. holding his arms open wide for her to enter his embrace. Wanting to heal her mind. The demons seeher and stalk her through the night. She goes to then=m and they take away her soul. The demons leave her for dead but she will not die. In place of her soul lies darkness instead. Broken promises and shattered dreams are all she has left. Her Hopes and dreams faed away fast. Because these demons have shattered all the pure thoughts that were once in her head. Her fears lay about her. Her nightmares have returned. She runs from the shadows towards the light but she can not reach it. It only gets farther and farther away as she approaches it. She cries out for her dear William to save her. Save her from the demons of her mind. because she fears that she is in too deep and drowning in darkness.

I sat on the very edge of my seat. looking in all ways possable. I keep a smile on my face so no one might see the real me.Nut every one sees i am different. At every loud noise I startle. Once again i feel they are watching me through ghostly eyes. I hear a loud ringing in my head it never goes away. please tell me you hear it so I know im not going insane.

Shooting disturbed glances into thin air, talking to nothing. why do you think what i say I a lie? That is all you see of me, all you hear and feel. Not me, I will never heal. I speak to the noting you dont hear. I feel scared at the nothing you don't see. Because I know it's all real. The voices tell me what to do , what to say and how to act. They warn me, but I do not listen. Now i regret my own decision. Do I rely on the voices? do I want to rely on them ? Do i have much of a choice? The voices make my choices I'm just a body overcome with their voices.

Darkness, long, black and silent. I'm all alone in my room. My own mind a personal hell. I feel the demons before i see them. Their presence very obvious. I'm playing a game called no body with my demons. Is nobody there? I'm not sure. my fingures shake with sweaty palms. come on I tell myself please stay calm. Breathe I repeat over and over in my head. I try to make my thoughts short and try to make sense of my thoughts. I glance around my room at the shadow people. Watching them drift in the darkness. I blink and readjust my eyes. My eyes it seems I cannot trust. I can feel them watching, waiting. if i close my eyesand let sleep take me over. then the shadow people will drag me away. This isn't working I'll never win. I'll just hide in my bed till morning. The next night it will begin again. The twinkle in my eyes has a reason to spark, I know the lost in the dark.

There once was a vampire who thought she was a princess. Who lived in a world of her own. Her thoughts came in the form of pictures and visions. A glimpse of what the futurewould hold. O ne night when she was alone in her bed. There in the darkness she heard the screams of the damned. A million d souls cried out all at once in her head. In a flash it was all over her mind was confused her body shaken andemotionaly torn. For no human or vampire should hear the screams of the damned. But scence she was not normal she lived to tell. That the world we live in can never be compaired to her own personal hell. So if you doubt the existance of hell rember my poem. Because i am the that lived to tell.

I once wished I was dead. Then suddenly something slammed into my head. Perhaps thats when I lost my soul. Perhaps I am the ultimate fool. It sticks in my memory and it really depresses me. I should never have wished that wish. Perhaps then my life woldn't be like this, and I wouldn't feel that there was something i've missed. But whats done is done and i'd never do it again. For I think I've lost my soul and someone is living in my head. I wish I could do it over again. I certainly wouldn't wish I was dead. For now it seems I'm the walking dead and there are demons in my head. I really feel dead. So now i pray they will all go away. Now I can say that i was a stray. I didn't want to be dead. I just wanted to feel happy and alive. I hop all the demons go away because I am the unworthy fool.