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i hate my self today, i should be made to pay,,,.

if i could justify my pain, it would only start again.over and over my heart bleeds,,, for the ones i love and need. My life has been in vein.i should be shot and never seen again.

being worthless, makes me feel.the numbness it will kill.

i feel as if i am in exstream disorder.my thoughts are hard to process, i dont understand these feelings, i dont know what to do with them.the only way to describe it is to imaginge your brain having a nervouse twich that is trigerd by diferent colors..what i wouldnt do.what i would do.and what i wont do.

if you have made your way to friendly or nutral country, use the following procedures to cross the borders and link up with friendly forces on the outher side.

* occupy a hide site on the near side of the border and send a team out to reconnotier the potentail crossing site.

* surveil the crossing site for atleast 24 hours, depending on the enemy situation.

*make a sketch of the site, take note of terrain,obstacles, quard rutines and rotations, and any sensor devices or trip wires.

* after crossing the border site, make anouther hide site and do not reveil your presence for at least 24 hours.

in the mist of my own self seduction i find myslef wondering, why i am awarded the pleasures i have in life,, mostly it consist of good convo with a selected few. the others are my own dark lil secrets,,well not really, but as far as i know im the onloy one i know who gets his kicks tazeing cows and such.. i dont like my self. i have come to this conclusion.you need not to tell me. i mnow i am as unwanted as a wart.this is going nowhere so i must stop it...latter tatters

after you have located your hide site, do not move strait into it.use a button hook or other deceptive techniqes to move to a position outside of the hide site.conduct listening hault often befor moving.once you have occupide the site , maintain your security. never stay over 24 hours. and remember the BLISS b- blends in with surrondings.l- low in silhouette.i- irregular in shape.s- small in size.s-secluded.... be-good out there.stay safe.

its been since the great turkyday that i have been home,ariving lastnight from a very long jurney i am utterly draind,but at the same time i am recharged in life and tells to tell.i want to share a secrete ihae lernd. on how to get threww everyday with a good attitude....look at everyday as an adventure.no bull. it works and most of the time when i look back on the dayi cant help but giggle...