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Things with the house have been going not so smooth as I had expected, but I have managed to stop the foreclosure proceeding for now so that I can get the money together to save my parents house. I will be taking it over myself so my son and I have a place to live for a long time.



I got really scared about losing my son over this stupid incident. Which ever mother's worse nightmare is losing their kids. I hope every thing will work out for the loan modification but if all else fails. We can buy the house the old fashion way with a loan and a prayer.

I watched a new movie finally! It was A Haunting in Connecticut and while I sat there watching it with my best friend and boyfriend, my boyfriend started asking a bunch of questions about the movie since it is based on a true story I had to explain what was happening.



The part that got him was the desecration of the dead bodies. So I explained to him it was a part of a spell used in Necromancy used to control the dead. To my dismay he started questioning my practicing magick, to which I had to explain to him yet again that I do not deal with the darker side of magick but have studied it thoroughly. You must as a practitioner know both sides of the coin, just in case someone uses magick against you.



He then asked me why I would even dain to teach my son about such things, by the way my son is not him child, so I told him I want my son to be educated about all things was born a psychic, and I refuse to have him be closed minded about ever thing that occurs in his life.



I feel it's irresponsible if you know you have a psychic child and you lie to them and tell them it's all in their heads. Life is not black and white! You have to train a child who is psychic to protect themselves from what evils do walk this earth. I also told him at least my child will be prepared if he should ever encounter anything paranormal.

The past few week have really taken me to the depths of living hell, I spent several days in the hospital because I got really sick due to my fybromyalgia. My fybro is really bad the doctors say it's the worse case they've ever seen. All of the muscle on the left side of my body locked up to the point where it felt as if I were having a heart attack.



It make my life really hard to live when you are in constant pain it becomes unbearable to go through my day by day life. Sometimes I wish I could just have a pain free existence. I suffer more when my psychic abilities get stronger, it makes it harder for me to block out the pain within myself and others around me.



I have felt in the past that life is much harder on the gifted than it is for someone who can not feel all the energy that flows throughout the world. A psychic's life is not an easy one. Being a healer I have to be able to endure a lot. Empathy is a gift and a curse depending on who I'm around constantly.



I will end this rant for now and update more in my journal late.

The past few days I managed to stay up for 61 hrs not for lack of trying to get to sleep it was like an energy overload. Like someone was over feeding my psychic centers to see if I'd die of an overload of energy but for me there was no burn out just constant moving and trying to figure out what to do to relax and stop my manic mind from running out the door screaming WTF!



So finally at 3am this morning I fell asleep it was the best thing that could have ever happened to me sleep is my friend.