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Lonely on the land I walk,

Lonely cross the sea I sail,

Lonely air of beach I stroll:

This lonely life doth take its toll.



Lonely trek of woodland trail,

Lonely mist in haze o’ dawn,

Lonely spies the bird of prey

In lonely circles all astray.



Lonely be such dark of night

When sleep is but a yearning wish,

To dream of sweet companions close,

As wine would pair with diner's dish.



Lonely do these thoughts me make

That draw my blood of precious life:

Replace with stream of flowing pain

To bless my veins with coursing strife.



Lonely years are now my friends,

Lonely cries bereft of sound,

Lonely tears that cool my face:

In lonely life of sullen pace.

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PAGAN
12:43 Nov 18 2010

wow this is real good :P

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Depression is being tired, when you're never able to sleep

Depression is pity, when you hate other's sympathy

Depression is longing for more, when you never acknowlede what's already there

Depression is the feeling of self-hatred, when the arrogance is concurrently overwhelming

Depression is the repugnance of emotional discomfort, when a sanctuary for physical affliction exists

Depression is loathing at your own success, when the ones around you prosper

Depression is perfectionism, when you could care less about anything else

Depression is the rock that you choose to constantly trip over, when all you have to do is move around it...

Depression is the ultimate cost of denial, when the truth is too much to handle

WELCOME TO HELL

SCOLL DOWN AND SEE WHAT IS SOURED FOR YOU

DOWN HERE IS FULLED WITH FUN

AND TORMENT FOR EVERYONE

THE EDITION OF NEW MASSACRE AND HORROR

UNEXPLAINABLE FURTURE OF EVENTS ARE IN HELL

A TERRIFIC SCARE SHOWS ARE ABOUT TO START



THE SURPERNATURAL OF DEMONS AND THE DEAD

COME TOGETHER

OF ONES IN A LIFE TIME TORMENT AND IMPACT OF EVENTS

YOU ARE ABOUT TO SEE WITH YOUR OWN EYES



THE SOURCES OF EVIL IS ABOUT TO BEGIN BE PREPARED FOR THE SHOW

OF THE DEMONS AND DEVILS SONS

BECAUSE SOONER AND LATER YOU WILL SCREAM FOR YOUIR LIFE

THE BLOOD OF SINNERS COMES DOWN ON YOU

THE LOST SOULS OF LOST LOVERS ARE WITHIN YOU

THE VICTIMS OF THE SINNERES ARE SCREAMING FOR THERE LIFES

THE SCREAMS MAKE YOU EYES BLEED

THERE IS NOTHING IN THE WORLD

AT CAN STOP THIS TORLMENT AND EXPLAINABLE FUTURE OF EVENTS



SCOLL DOWN TO YOU FEET AND FEEL THE BURNING FIRE UNDER YOU

WATCHING YOUR SKIN PILL OFF LIKE A BAND AID COMING OFF YOUR SKIN

WATCHING YOU SCREAM IS MUSIC TO MY EARS

YOU ARE NOW IN HELL

AND THERE NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO ESCAPE FROM THIS

WATCHING YOU TRANSFORM IN A DEMONS

NOW YOU ARE PART OF US

WELCOME TO HELL

I am so tired being alone

Without hope

Without happiness

And without your touch

Even you are far away from me

Too long I slept in shadows

Too long I was in loneliness embrace

Too long I was shaded tears of love and became blinded

Until you touch my broken heart

Save me my love, cause

I’m so tired to live with solitude

Which is killing me inside

wake me up ( my love) with your soft whisper

to save me from nightmares

I wish I can forget you

and never feel deep pain

I wish I can bury our memories

And never dreaming you

I try to hold back my tears

Trying so hard to erase you from my black heart

But I can’t, I am to weak on you!

I just lay here and bleeding for you

And waiting to death knock on my door, to take me away

Why are you in my dreams?

Why can’t you just let me to die into your arms

to feel my heart heat

but you just leaving me all alone with loneliness

beauty in the eye of the beholder

show off all your skills

dark, damp lonely grave

holds the empty in which it kills

wrap your arms around yourself

cold, black destiny

sitting there alone

if there's a future let it be

misty breath upon your neck

shivers new and old

sitting around the fire

feeling the story being told.....

Funny when things never change

Even when you say they will

But while your off s(rewing her

My life is standing still



You tell me that you love me

When I go to leave

You tell me I'm your only one

And I let myself believe



I know that you are using me

But you'll never let me go

I know that you don't love me

I know I'm just for show



I don't know If I can stand

To see you love another girl

You know that you broke my heart

You know that your my world



But while your standing by my side

I'll believe your lies forever

Cause everything seems so perfect

When we are together

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StraightxEdge
01:43 Nov 15 2010

GOD DAMN GIRL YOU KNOW EXACTLY HOW IM FEELING RITE NOW WITH NITROS STUPID ASS! thanks for being there for me hun. love ya!

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I'm the type of person who can't find her way

Who hopes eventually she'll be okay.

I've had a broken heart that never really healed.

I've thought that without him I’d rather be killed.

I've been depressed too many times to count.

I was falling through a black hole with no way out.

I was born in a broken home.

And felt alone.

Like most people in the world I’m misunderstood.

And couldn’t mend the pieces of my broken heart, .

So I take the coward way…. out so they say

Taking the blade to the pulsing veins…a beating rhythm

And as the blood pours .. the beating slows

As the last drop falls ….the beat stops

And finally I’ve broken free …into eternity

All these thoughts about death,

Can never leave my mind.

Thoughts of committing suicide,

Are starting to torture me.



Maybe this wouldn't happen,

If I acted like I didn't care about you,

Or try to forget you,

But it kills me just to try.



I occupy myself,

So that way I'm thinking of something else,

But in the end,

I can not escape from these thoughts.

They keep coming back.



What do I do?

If I really do kill myself,

And there is such a thing as an afterlife,

Would these thoughts keep tormenting me?

I cant take anymore of this.



I guess I'll just kill myself...

And see what happens next,

Or I might die of just trying to forget you

The pain I feel

Is simple and real

It's in my head

It's in my heart

It threatens to pull me apart



I cry, I scream

But it's even in my dreams

I run, I hide

But I'm easy to find

No-one seem able to seel

The pain I feel

Slash, gouge

My wrists they drip with blood

Stag, my heart stops beating

Built up hatred

Burning inside

Holding up it all up inside

I`m a forgotten cause

Constantly being stepped on

An unloved person

I sit on the swings

While every one else

Hangs with their friends

The grass dies under

My feet where I walk



Cuz



I`m an unwanted cause

I jump towards my

True love the ocean

As the light that I

See above slowly darkens

I take one last second

To think "this is for the

Best no one really

Needs me cause"

I`m an unwanted cause

We returned to the faithful forest

To find it volcano-blasted.

Belly up and sallow as a dead

Grandfather on a slab. In such ash land

A Goldfish in a glass doesn't

Serve for a heart.



O our old mountain home

Unto thee we will come

Driven down on the bones

Drowning sound of the drums



The Gremlin comes from the North. Equipped

With his juggler bits and hidden daggers,

Painted Eyes and mailcious grinning,

Pillager of the pillaged,

Jigging and twirling, giggling burner

In the abandoned village.



o our old mountian home

Unto thee we will come

Driven down on the bones

Drowning sound of the drums



In the deepest down, the first valley,

The cleft where we first took stage,

We make our last proud bow

Before an ampitheatre full of no one.

Tired of applause, they left for space

When our dramas lost their

Laws of gravity.



O our old mountian home

Unto thee we will come

Driven down on the bones

Drowning sound of the drums

I dont believe in best friends anymore

Because they all stabbed me in the back

What kind of friend leaves you flat?



I thought we were koo for some reason

Man that was whack to actually believe

You had ma back



All those times you stood me up cant

Believe I held in for that long and dealt

With your crap



I was crazy to say that you were my best friend

All those times I was alone I should have moved

On because theres much better people than you



You are so fake and I want others to know its true

I dont know what best friends are anymore and

Neither do you

Its all good though because when you think you

Found a friend it will happen to you

What goes around comes around



Now I know what friends are for!!

I still see your face in my dreams

It hurts and it doesn't help at all

I still want you in my life as crazy as that seems

I want you to catch me when I fall



I still remember the first time we met

There was something so different about you

Your friendship was something I wanted to get

That smile when you said hi to me was so new



Out of no where you called me on the phone

I wanted to sit there and talk to you forever

You were so new, so crazy and unknown

I just knew that our friendship would never sever



Two years and we are barely holding it together

What happened to the way this all used to be

I never wanted you out of my like ever

I sat there for a long time pretending not to see



We decided to go out and make it all all right

It didn't work out of course we knew it couldn't

We couldn't even really stand each others sight

It shouldn't end this way but it did and I shouldn't



I miss you and everything you were to me

Ten years from now we will look back on it all

We will be older and finally be able to see

That love will stand the test of time and never fall

F riends 'til the end, is what was always spoken,

O r is that just what you wanted to say? and me to believe

R eally, I'd be heart broken if i lost you

E veryday, I thank God for you in every way because i love you

V ery often do I forget to say, "I love the world of you,"

E ven when I don't feel like it i really do

R emember me when you're scared and remember I care about you too! again as i love you



N ever take anything for granted, you never know where you..ll end up in life

E ven if there was a fight or two just remember im always here for you

V ery Lucky am I, to have you as my best friend and the love of my life

E veryday I think about you, and ill never stop

R emembering we're gonna be forever friends!



E ven if we're both scared, ill always be here

N ever will I say Good- Bye thats a word ill never use to u.

D idn't I always say, "Forever & always Never Ends?"

S o, please believe me when I say, "Forever Friends we..ll be."

When joy is

Drained

And all

Is vain,

Without grudge,

I will

Give myself

Back

To that selfless

Source

From which we came,

And become

More

Of what

We mortals mostly are;



It has no want of room

And will not judge,

In its deep, dark womb,

I will rejoin

The immortal memories

Of our ancestral past;



Do not despair

Or find me wrong,

Or doubt

Our bond,

My love,

For I will be

As near

As always was--



Yes,

If one of us

Still

Can see the stars,

As the poets have said,

We others,

Surely,

Will never be lost.

Moving on,

Going nowhere.

Caring' till dawn,

Sounds that seems to care.

music low,

Hearts beat,

No one must know,

Panting in the streets.

The two as one,

Lovers in the night,

All night long,

'Till they're done-

coming together

to make everything

Right.

Secert of mine,

I'll never tell.

It's deep in,



The soul.

I can't bare,

The truth.



About me,

What I am.

Well, I was going to tell you,

But it's a secert!

I'm livin Fast,

I'm dying slow.

I just about crashed

Don't leave me alone.



Get of my back

Please, hold my hand.

I'm not gonna ask,

Tell me, where do I stand?

You don't give a darn(damn)

Please tell me that you care

I'm out of patience, out of luck



I'm in some trouble here

I don't need your sympathy

could you hold me for a while?

That's the look I hate to see

Could you please give me a smile?



But it doesn't matter,

Cause I'm livin fast

The sting lasts and lasts

and its killing me slow

It's all in the past..........

Don't leave me alone.