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Cold Heart, Burning Anger06:03 Apr 11 2026
Times Read: 24
I loved you once
in the way frost loves fire —
to melt, to destroy, to prove it could feel.
But you turned that warmth into a blade,
and I learned how to bleed beautifully.
Now my heart is a glacier cracked with flame,
each fissure whispering your name
like a curse I can’t stop repeating.
You think I’m heartless now.
You’re wrong.
I’m just colder than the mercy you abandoned.
I still feel you in the pulse I no longer need,
in the hunger that tastes of memory and spite.
You made me immortal,
but you also made me furious.
If I ever touch you again,
it won’t be to love you.
It will be to remind you
what your betrayal created—
a creature who burns from the inside out,
and freezes everything she touches.
So when you see me under the moon,
don’t mistake the glow for forgiveness.
It’s just the reflection of your ruin
still burning in my veins.
His Reply — The Fire That Remains
You think I don’t feel the ruin I left behind.
You think I walk through eternity untouched,
as if your fury didn’t carve itself into my veins.
But I do.
Every breath I take tastes of your anger.
Every shadow I cross remembers your name.
You call me the one who burned you,
but you forget — you were the flame.
I only learned how to survive it.
I loved you in the way predators love the hunt —
not for the kill,
but for the moment before it,
when everything is trembling and alive.
You say you hate me.
I believe you.
But hatred is just love that’s learned how to defend itself.
And I’ve been defending myself against you
since the night you first looked at me like salvation.
If I could undo it, I wouldn’t.
Because even now,
even with your resentment coiled around my throat,
I still crave the way you destroy me.
So curse me,
bite me,
burn me again if you must.
But know this —
I’ll always come back to you,
because no darkness I’ve ever known
has burned as beautifully as yours.
Confession05:38 Apr 11 2026
Times Read: 39
I shouldn’t tell you this.
But the truth keeps pressing against my teeth,
and I’m tired of pretending I don’t taste your name in my mouth.
I resent you for the way you haunt me.
For the way your absence feels like possession.
For the way my darkness still bends toward you
as if it remembers being touched.
You made me believe I could be human for a moment—
and I hate you for that.
I hate that you gave me warmth
only to leave me colder than before.
Every time I think I’ve buried the wanting,
it claws its way back up,
dragging the memory of your pulse with it.
It’s not love anymore.
It’s hunger sharpened by betrayal.
So if I whisper this against your skin,
know it isn’t forgiveness.
It’s the venom I’ve been saving,
the confession I’ve been choking on.
I still want you—
but only to prove that even ruin can burn beautifully.
Venomous Bloom05:31 Apr 11 2026
Times Read: 43
I haven’t forgiven you for the way you live in me.
Not because you deserve my anger—
but because you earned it.
You left your mark like a burn
and then had the audacity
to pretend you didn’t feel the flame.
That’s what I resent most.
Not the leaving—
the lie of it.
Every time your name brushes my thoughts,
the heat rises again,
slow and poisonous,
like something smoldering under frost.
I hate that you can still ignite me.
I hate that I still let you.
You think I want you because I’m dangerous.
But the truth is uglier:
I want you because you wounded me
in a way nothing else ever has,
and the part of me that still burns
wants to drag you into the fire with me.
So here’s the confession you’ll never deserve—
I don’t crave you despite the resentment.
I crave you because of it.
Because every scar you left
still glows when I think of you.
Because the heat you abandoned
never died—
it just learned to burn colder.
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