WOW! Just got back from a wonderful holiday in Orlando.... Mickey..... well he kicked my ass. lol. A whole week in Disney World (which includes all the parks minus the water parks) is fun and all, but when the temp. gets up to 102 and feels like 110... it's a bit miserable.
Monday of the trip was my favorite day..... :)
My wonderful boyfriend came up for the day and hung out in the magic kingdom... sucked when he had to leave that night at round 1 am though... NOW I have to go through that whole missing him BUNCHES thing all over again... grrr...
I will eventually post a few pics from the trip in the portfolio I'm sure, but it will take a while as 630 pics is alot go go through! lol.
Life has thrown me a curve I really didn't expect. It's a WONDERFUL curve, that has reminded me what it's like to live, love, and be happy..... It's been WAY to long since Ive remembered those things. lol.
I walk round now with a constant smile on my face, I stay up until the early hours of the morning on the phone yet never run out of things to talk about, I sleep about 2 hours a night, and I'm MORE than ok with it......
It's a simply wonderful complicated situation that leaves me living in a world of imperfect perfection and fear all at once.
I'm learning to trust again, and learning that maybe my biggest fear CAN be overcome..... I've learned that my wall is capable of diminishing and deteriorating.
I am understanding what it means to be a friend to someone you once loved more than anything in life but couldn't keep, and learning to let go.
I've learned that its not always a bad thing to lay your heart on the line, no matter how scary it is to do, and that sometimes wonderful surprises happen. I'm a risk taker again, spontaneous, and more like the person I remember from years ago.
Petty shit doesn't bother me so much any longer, my temper has lessened, my balance.... is back! Its feels so AWESOME to finally be back in balance with myself.
It's almost as if I've been reborn..... given a redo so to say... lol. I would never EVER change not ONE thing about my past, and will cherish EVERY single second of it, but I will look forward to my future and everything it has in store for me, as I feel that perhaps.... fate has taken control, and I may need to let it have the reigns over me at least for a little while. :)
Thank you..... you know who you are...... thank you for bringing this back to me, and helping me relearn what living and loving is like..... You are my knight in shining armor that came to rescue me despite my resistance to rescue. We both know that you cant rescue me from every obstacle of life, but you've helped me so far by simply reminding me how to help myself. :) xxx
This Tabby, is beyond happy...... I have been this way for days! It doesn't seem to be going away either which is good because I don't want it to. lol.
I have officially scared my coworkers as well..... they cant seem to figure out why I wear a constant smile. :)
I smile, laugh, and overall...... just feel a love for life among other loves.....
I've started writing again, drawing again, digital art, and singing alot again...........
THIS is a wonderful feeling.:)