My friends list had tones on dead profiles on it. I am now down to half as many as I was. Yes I know "ranking" and all that bs. I just don't care about status. It's impressive, don't get me wrong, but I've BEEN a sire before, soooo...
I want to be part of a community, one where we all have fun. I was part of one once, way back in my first incarnation on VR. It was the MOST fun! we had a RP pub run by my crazy son (he felt he was my son, lol), he and his girl were my headhunters and executioners. The kept the dead weight from the coven. I had SEVERAL ladies that bid for my attention, but I belonged to The Mistress, Though I was free to engage anywhere I pleased, every now and again, she'd show her fangs at anyone that got a little, shall we say, "clingy" to me, lol.
I was all in great fun.
Honestly, I wish I had never left. But sadly, I was living a true nightmare in my real life. I'm just getting the tip of the iceberg of what my late wife did to my family...
I still can't even begin to process the shit she put us through. It's all I caan do not to cry and hit a deep depression. sigh...
No one knows me her, Hel I don't even think anyone reads the drivel I write here, and that's more than fine with me. I do this just as a journal of thought and actions. Thoughts on VR, My Coven, and every now and again, tiny slivers of my life, solitary and alone as it might be, lol.
Anyway, that's MORE than enough rambling from my goofy ass, if you've read this, thank you. believe it or not, just thinking that maybe someone read this and they felt what I felt even for only a moment, helps...
Madness Brings a Joy Only a Madman Knows
I have tried, I have offered, I do not know what to do now. I suppose my next step is to asked to be released from my coven. At this point, I don't even care where I end up. I'd rather take my chances in the wind with the Three Fates (Urðr, Verðandi, and Skuld)!
Now I must ask my Sir for release, I do not expect to be freed. Then the choice will be to work and become Sir myself, or delete my account and just be forgotten here. I probably will not even be missed.
I fear for my Coven. The interaction level is upsetting to say the least. Few post in our forums. No one participates in the polls (I do try to make them funny).
I must admit to failings though, I have been gone for a bit myself. I honestly thought I'd be removed from the offices I hold there. And THIS, is actually one of the things that concern me. I have been a ghost for probably two (either not posting or just no on VR). I should have been replaced with a more active member (I would have completely understood). But, there in lies the problem, active members are few and far between.
I'm NOT the CM, Im' NOT ACM, Let me get that said. But I someone that holds three offices, It really bugs me that we have SO few active members.
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