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I'm tired and lost and scared. It feels like every time I get my life sorted, everything into place the whole thing collapses. I just don't know what to do. I feel scared and alone. I feel like crying but when I cry it doesn't seem enough. My body and mind hurt. I'm so tired of everything going wrong I worked so hard this time to get it right. I thought it was all going to be ok. Sometimes I think I should give up. But then there's aden I love him so much but I don't know how he could love me I'm not what he needs. I've never felt anything like what I feel for him the thought of not being with him makes my soul hurt. If I think of him leaving I want to die. It sounds dramatic but he's the only good thing in my life and my reason to wake up every morning. But I feel confused, he says he loves me but it doesn't feel that way. I don't know why, I hope its because I don't feel worthy and I try to tell myself that I'm imagining it because I can't believe anyone would love me. But this voice in my head keeps saying that im right no one could love me. I don't understand it all, I wish I could tell him how I feel but my words don't come out right. I won't to tell him that I love him and I cannot live with out him but I'm scared that's why he stays. I want to tell him that i feel scared and alone but I don't know what he'll think. Maybe I'm better off alone maybe I'm ruining his life maybe I should just run away and let him be free. I just want all of this to stop I just want to be free I want the pain in my head and heart to go away.