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an awesome week
18:38 Mar 19 2011
Times Read: 799
well it has been an awesome week. I have went shopping and slept late and just had the best week off. I am very happy I must confess. I have been treated well and had lots of sex this week. The kids have been good, even though one was gone camping for 2 nights and 3 days. I can't believe how happy I am.
I am feeling attractive due to the fact that I am bicycling every day now to tone up. My hair is looking fairly good since I got my highlights, the hub is attacking me , my sleep has gotten better, happiness is taking over.
thank you, God, or Goddess, for these blessings.
We went to PF on Wednesday, the kids rode go carts and had a total blast. yesterday we went to my friends camp site and just hung out, me and her visited the garden for a bit, the kids hung around but not while we went to the garden. it was total fun. last night we went out to eat, went to a few shops and got some things for the kids.
the hub was looking so damn fine that we fucked before we went out. he turns me on so much lately. I can't believe how much rawness he brings out in me. I have never behaved in such a way. I feel loved and secure. This relationship is great.
thank you again for these blessings.
a decision for sillines
21:50 Mar 13 2011
Times Read: 804
I know I don't need it
I know that it is expensive
but I want it
and now the obsession begins
do I buy it?
do I not buy it?
I want it
I do not need it
I am a collector
dont need it
but WANT it
yep
gonna have to get it, lol
but will I feel guilty?
I dont know.....
should I feel bad bc I want this? idk....
to much to do and not enough time
17:29 Mar 12 2011
Times Read: 810
today I am pretty content. I am tired however from spending the last hour and fifteen minutes cleaning the kitchen and living room and I am not done. I still have to vacuum... I have gotten behind in my housely chores so that is why it is taking so long to get done. plus I have to work around my daughter who is being a typical lazy child, lol. plus my husband put the new exercise bike in the living room so it is in the way. I wish that I hadn't invited Irina and Alex over this weekend. I am very tired and am going to have to cook a nice supper later. sometime I am going to have to fit in some exercise on the new bike.... trying to tone and get cute for summer.... plus go get my son from moms and stop by the store to get some dessert for later. cooking is enough, I don't want to have to bake as well.
*sigh* a ladies work is never done..... at least I am on vacation for the next few days =)
201115:11 Mar 12 2011
Times Read: 812
lots to deal with
19:07 Mar 07 2011
Times Read: 816
well, I have to say that there a few things on my mind that are bothering me. Some other things that are just there.
the fact that SHE gets under my skin SO bad is driving me crazy.
the fact that she is in EVERYTHING I do, or go to, or who I talk to.
the fact that NOONE but one besides me sees what a bitch she is, she is FAKE!
that the hub is making me mad
that my body/hair/everything is PISSING me off
that I am getting OLDER
that I can't stop spending money
my jealousy is getting BAD
I am moody
I am pissy
I am .......trying SO hard to make it
that my kids are slowly growing up
that my daughter is unbearable
that my hub is eventually going to quit his high paying job to go back to school-Idk if we will make
it but I can't stop him from his dreams.
so sad
so upset that time keeps going and going
my thoughts are too much to handle
I have gained like 5 pounds but I can't stop thinking that I am fat or yucky.
the hub says I am not, that I am beautiful.
that is nice. but I know he says that so I won't feel bad. my mother and grandmother have always been small like myself but any time we were out and there was someone overweight by however many pounds..... they were whispered about and all I heard was "look at that, I wouldn't walk out of my house, if I looked like that. what a fat ass" and lots more. so, as you can see it is quite a trauma for me. it has gotten so bad since my grandmother passed 4 yrs ago, that my mom has stepped it up and now has my children saying these things. ( yes of course I am guilty of it as well, but in these last few years I have tried to control it, I guess it was a type of abuse for us to hear it) idk, my mind is so fucked up that I am writing it here, because it is nice to let it out sometimes.....
because I know it will be ok, I will let this go and face the music... we will make it together, I hope
Red Riding Hood
21:41 Mar 06 2011
Times Read: 818
I honestly think that Red Riding Hood is going to be great. I am reading the book and I love it.
jealousy
18:41 Mar 02 2011
Times Read: 822
ok, so... spring break is in like 2 weeks. I want to go to the beach. really bad. I feel like I am going to explode. My anxiety is in overdrive due to my daughter's attitude for the past few months. I am just tired of people rubbing things in my face, such as buying a NEW CAR, or going on vacation. things that I WANT to do. I wish I had lots of money. But I don't. I wish I wasn't jealous. But I am. I try to compose myself but it doesn't work all the time. this time I want to be spoiled, go to the beach, sit by the ocean and be HaZy and LaZy, LOL !!!!!
addictions
18:38 Mar 01 2011
Times Read: 825
This is stemming from a journal I recently read and thoughts swirling in my mind. all my addictions and quirks.I have a lot of addictions. Some are "ok" and some are outta this world and not good for me or the ones around me
we will name a few, LOL
OK addictions:
***LOVE***
1-dr pepper
2-pink I own a lot of it
3-purses
4-shoes
5-socks
6-pens
7-paper
8-photography
9-texting
10-watching movies over and over
11-candle burning
12-praying every morning on the way to work
going to say this wasnt planned but funny that it is next
13-SEX
14-watching certain tv shows
15-shopping
16-
NOT OK IN SOCIETY
1-weed
2-cigarettes
3 driving fast
4-cussing
5-ROUGH SEX with husband
6-bad mouthing lots of people
7-porn
8-BEING ME
9-did I say cussing? lol
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