I was offered a job, without an interview. The recruiter was impressed by my resume, I suppose, and immediately sent the paperwork. But the job is pending this company winning a government contract. If they win, the job is mine- no contest. If they don't, there is no job to be had. I'm hopeful, because the pay is greater than anything I earned before. Even if this position is temporary in nature. I would only be guaranteed a year of work, but up to 4 years is possible. No more than that. The commute would be a grueling 1hr 20 min each one way in rush hour traffic, but totally worth it for that amount of pay. Maybe? Gas prices are skyrocketing. Anyway, I'm still sending job applications left and right, because why put all my eggs in one basket? I want a sure thing.
I knew the nature of my employment was temporary, so I have been applying to jobs weekly. But to think that the terms of my contract will end without having a single interview call back- it feels like the world is closing in on me. I'm going to do my best to appear outwardly calm, collected, confident. For the sake of the job hunt. But this is how I really feel- expendable, worthless.
Feeling lonely, so I'm here tonight to write, and try not to think about the "why" of my existence. Here goes:
We had some unexpected snow...after some beautiful 70 degree weather. Dissapointing.
My job is trying to end remote work, despite everyone proving we can work remotely just as efficiently. I do not miss the train rides.
It's allergy season. My diabetes is out of control. I'm struggling both mentally and physically. But i haven't given up. So that's something.
I'm excited to grow things in the garden this year- onions, potatoes, and hot peppers. But it's too cold to do anything right now.
My sister wants to plan a trip to Ireland later this year. I'm saving up so I can go too. There is supposed to be a game of thrones tour. I've never left the country, so not sure what to expect. I have equal parts fear and anticipation.
Huh, sounds like,.me writing here.
I Was put on juniva, and faciga.. dor.my diabeties.. and it's starting to get worse in the past 3 months.
And I can't wait to Start my pumpkin patches, and potatoes. 7 months of winter here is driving me nuts. And my allergies, are going nuts!
Even my cat is sneezing. Poor thing. I hope good things come your way.
It's hard to get off the sweet stuff. But sugar is sugar. Honey, raw sugar, substitute sweetener, and even too much fruit.... is super bad for us. Drink.more water, or milk. And try and read ingredients. Cause even catsup.. as sugar in it, even bread. They only time I overdose on the sweet stuff is pms time.
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