I've been doing homework all day. Can't think straight. Procrastination time. Yay!!
I'm doing homework and munching on alcoholic cake. Probably not the best combination, but its a holiday and I'm tired of school stressing me out.
I'm think about ditching the relaxers and growing out my hair naturally...
Stood in line for 2 hours for a free candy bar. #RippedOff
Happy or sad, the sun is always beaming down me. Even when the sun goes away, it always returns- beaming holes with its intensity. Is it mocking me? Mocking my frustration, angry tears, or my fear of failure?
The thing is, I thought about doing thing I'm not supposed to even think to myself. I'm not supposed to talk about it, and when I want to do it, I'm supposed to "think positive." Whatever that is.
If I could mention it, maybe I wouldn't be talking in circles. Maybe I would have done it. The consequences? They won't effect me. Is that selfish? Some people tell me that I'm not a "bad person."Whatever that means. I go out of my way to help out, or try to make people smile. Religious people look at me like I'm the devil incarnate. I dislike attending church sessions, and the bible holds none of my interest.
Any who, I am off topic. I thought about doing it, and I'm not. Why? I am figuring it all out again, but I confess here and now. I do want to, and I've even plotted out several when's and where's.
But I won't.
The voice all the way in the back of my head is telling me what a failure I am.
Although this is partially true, I try not to dwell on it.
Let's think happy thoughts, and let the things that haunt me throw me off after I achieve something.
It seems a few of my failed efforts have become obstacles to achieving what I thought I already had.
Response to the Walking Dead show: Why are they keeping zombies in the barn?
1. Experimentation- the doctor does not have nearly enough medical equipment to be testing anything
2. Because he refuses to kill them (He already wants no guns on his property)
3. To threaten people with
The barn is already falling apart. What happens if the zombies get it? Have they even thought that far?
In all the zombie movies I have seen, the weather is always always sunny. I'd like to see some rain, some snow, or some other variation. It can't sunny all the time, can it?
I want a 4.0.
I got a B on the last 2 bio exams. I studied so hard. My grade average is 91%. If I drop to a B average...
I don't even want to go there. It makes me want to punch something and start crying at the same time. Don't bother telling me it's just a grade, not the end of the world. It really is the end of the world, to me. Bio is worth 4 credits. That class has the greatest pull on my GPA at the moment.
My sister exclaims she's mad at me without giving me a reason. I don't know what I did, and I don't care. I haven't done anything intentionally. If she wants to pull the "I'm not going to talk to you routine," yet again, I won't say a word. Eventually, she'll start talking to me again. It never lasts.
I happened to minimize a webpage when my dad entered my room today. Why? Why? Just why me? Now he's like "Who was you chatting to? Your boyfriend? You think I don't know. Were you blah blah blah..." The accusations go on and on.
(For reference, no I don't have a boyfriend. I was browsing music, and when I picked the song I wanted here I wanted to return to typing my paper.)
(Plus I'm over 18; shouldn't all webpages technically be off limits anyways.)
Isn't it nice to be trusted? Sarcasm intended.
I've been studying off and on all day and I've reached the point where I can't think straight. :(
I'm not sure why, yet.
I am the awesomist auntie! I took my nephew trick or treating!! :)
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