Why can't my brain process things like a normal person.why can't I stop myself from getting triggered. But when I do get triggered all the flashbacks start up and it's like I'm reliving every single moment from my past.and then because I have adhd my brain then takes the poisonous thoughts and replayed them over and over. Adhd paired with complex ptsd it just amplifies each other creating this down ward negative path. So on top of the processing things from therapy I'm exhausted mentally now getting triggered I wish I could change my past and have a happier childhood. But it is what it is and you can only look for a better to.arrow, but how do I even get a glimpse of a future that isn't clouded with poisonous gas? All I want is to have somebody love me and cherish me and actually show it but I suppose that's not what I get to have.
Love yourself first.
As you say your past is past.
As far as being triggered goes...kinda have to stop that before it really gets to rolling along.
Use your will power.
Sounds easy but isn't.
Healing is painful and exhausting. Take care of yourself be kind to yourself and rest when you can I know it’s hard to calm the thoughts and feelings.
Try to find something that can help to calm like a happy place a good memory if there is one. Meditate listen to music. Keep your head up you can do this.