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What the fuck is wrong with people lately? I grew up my whole life having doubts about myself and then I get on here and I have people bringing back those doubts. Yes, its my fault for letting them do that, but what the hell do they get out of doing it?



I personally can't imagine me living my life with the only goal being to hurt others. You have to be such a sad and pathetic person to have that goal (and appartenly a few on here have that goal).



I am happy. I don't give a fuck about your lies and shit. Grow up! Leave me alone. Because let me remind you, if you hurt me or any of my friends (including BatChyld & BeneathEdan), payback is a mother fucking bitch and I am the best at payback.



Don't assume you know something because of one little comment. Don't twist shit around to start shit. USE YOUR FUCKING BRAIN!!! And if you continue to hurt me, my friends, or start shit, YOU WILL BE BLOCKED AND I DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK WHO YOU ARE!!!



My personal life is MY BUSINESS. Its not your's to run your mouth about, cause doubt, or harass me over. Do I do this to you? No I don't, but then again I DO HAVE A BRAIN AND I RESPECT OTHERS.



Do you have a problem with this? If so, you can bite my ass! I'm tired of the drama and I REFUSE to be dragged back into it.

I woke up today with that feeling of emptiness. I knew today would be a struggle for once again the depression is in charge. I feel so alone. I long for that feeling of acceptance, something I don't think I will ever have.



I also long for that feeling of love. Will I ever experience that feeling? So many times I thought I had only to realize that others were using me, they didn't love me. Time after time I've been used and sometimes abused.



The stress of this divorce is growing. I don't want to hurt anyone but I can't stay in a marriage that is dead. Why do I always put the needs of others ahead of what is the right thing to do? He still believes we can work it out even though I've told him that I'm done and I'm moving on. He's hanging onto something that isn't there. I feel guilty. Why? Maybe because I gave him hope when we both thought the hope was gone.



I hate this feeling of despair. It is really bad. I haven't felt this depressed in a long time. I'm scared. Scared of how I might react. Right now there are only two good things in my life to keep me going: my son and my man.

I found out last night that an old friend of mine had died. It made me realize once again how precious life is and how quickly it can end.



I could sit here and just type forever on this but since I'm already down about it and on the verge of tears I'm going to pass.



Just remember to tell those you love how much they mean to you. Don't let time pass and then it be to late.