Honor: 85 [ Give / Take ]
38 entries this month
23:27 Jun 30 2022
Times Read: 75
02:02 Jun 30 2022
Times Read: 116
My cat was not thrilled with my new shoes xD He prefers when I get something soft for him to lay on. But I fucking love them ^^ I chose these in particular because I love the rainbow against the black, colorful, but dark just like me :3 Not quite the most expensive shoes I own, I've got some LBs that cost a bit more, but these are definitely more wearable, and hopefully they'll be good for work. If you ask me why I bought them, it was pretty random. I was actually looking at the Gucci eyeshadow palette, trying to decide if I wanted it or one from Yves Saint Laurent, and of course started looking at shoes, and convinced myself that I needed a pair because that's how Bunny brain works xD If you're going to spend $150 on eyeshadow, you may as well spend several hundred more. Don't ask me how or why that makes sense.
Work was fine, we were fairly busy. I did have to listen to my coworker complaining all day, and I honestly think I should get paid more for that, but otherwise it was a nice day. I get tomorrow off which is definitely needed. I'm glad for the extra hours, my next paycheck is going to be amazing, but I need to rest. I haven't been sleeping well this week, but I also haven't been feeling like I was last week. Last week I was so over work. This week has been much better, being able to listen to metal all day helps xD Imagine walking into a candy store, and this tiny girl with with metal music thumping out of her earbud asks if she can help you. It's just kind of hilarious. I only have one in at a time so I can still hear out of my other ear. You would think listening to people scream in my ear all day would give me a headache, but it's actually very relaxing. One of the many reasons I love my job, my boss just doesn't care as long as I can actually do my job.
So now what do I want... I did see these really bitchin pink Balenciaga shoes💗
19:30 Jun 29 2022
Times Read: 152
My kawaii side is tingling...💗
And here is my work Playlist on repeat for the day...
Metal, metal, metal, metal, random nightcore xD
05:57 Jun 28 2022
Times Read: 202
Had an ass-backwards negotiation today... I offered to sell a hoodie for $53, and the girl offered me $60 for it immediately after...
She then bought outright another top from me for $50 without asking for any kind of discount. Things like that freak me out cause it's like... are you sure? You don't wanna beg me for 50% off or tell me you need a hot pink hoodie for your dying boyfriend's cat's funeral? You think I'm joking, but people will spin insane sob stories to get money off anything. So having someone offer me more than I offered, and then buy something outright is strange. But also very nice :3 People who have $150 to throw down on a crop hoodie, and a crop top make me feel better about my spending habits xD I try to only spend larger amounts of money on things for myself on things I use frequently. Like perfume. Perfume is pricey, but I use it every day. An expensive pair of sneakers may seem silly, but if I wear them to work then they'll see a lot of use. I actually destroyed one of my shoes in my last crash so I needed a new pair anyway. Then today I almost got hit by some fuckin soccer mom in a mini van. She had a stop sign, I did not, and she tried to blow right through it, and almost plowed right into me. So that was fun xD Then work was pretty boring, but listening to my own music all day helps a ton. Wolfie is in the middle of a depression episode. I can't do anything for him. He needs to make some changes in his life, and he's just not doing it. He seems pretty stalled out at the moment... And I'm trying really hard not to push him. That's the thing about Wolfie, if you put pressure on him he'll just close up. You have to let him do things in his own time. I swear, he needs to come with a fuckin instruction manual for handling him xD That's another reason it makes me laugh hysterically when people ask if I think he'd ever cheat on me... Yeah, let another woman take a crack at alllllll that, good fuckin luck. But past all that Wolfie is amazing, and I love him beyond words, he's my mate. We understand each other, probably the only people in this world who could possibly understand each other. We're both kind of a lot... Next week is our anniversary. It's also the owner of the shop's birthday. It's been a fast year, ever since I got my job time has been flying. It's been a strange year, but I think I'm making progress❤
05:55 Jun 27 2022
Times Read: 258
I gotta stop browsing high end shoes, and perfume before I'm actually like dead-ass broke xD I saw a perfume selling for $3000... Which makes me feel a lot better only spending $150 on a full perfume/lotion/shower gel set of Gucci Guilty Black. I do love the classic Gucci Guilty, but the black version is a bit sweeter, it's more me. I saw they also have these beautiful bottles with names like "Love At Your Darkest" and "A Chant For The Nymph" and several other really weirdly named, yet completely appealing perfumes. Selling for $330 each. I just can't justify spending $330 on perfume that I've never smelled, as aptly named as they may be. And people want like $30 for a tiny sample. Yeahhhh, now I'm wondering how much a sample of $3000 perfume would cost. Actually, two of my favorite perfumes, Gucci Guilty and Good Girl by Carolina Herrera, compliment each other really, really well so I'll wear the Guilty lotion with the Good Girl perfume, and that makes it Guilty Good Girl which is kinda perfect for a sub xD Or Alien Goddess goes really well with Guilty too, but I dunno about being a Guilty Alien Goddess...
I laid down in my bed a few hours ago, and I'm still not asleep... because I'm too busy online window shopping💗
20:29 Jun 26 2022
Times Read: 292
No work today ^^
Work yesterday was pretty decent though. I did manage to go grab a pair of earbuds beforehand, and so far it has made work 100% better. It's just that when there's nothing to do it's super mentally draining so having something to listen to helps a ton. The little comforts in life, I am a happy bunny💗
This week is going to suck, but... I'll be making a lot of money. They scheduled me in to work 10-? on Wednesday because my boss is taking his kids on a train ride. So unfortunately I have to spend what should have been a day off with my grouchy coworker. I'm thrilled... But. That's an extra day of pay, and since I just spent over $500 on a pair shoes, I'll take it xD And I'm supposed to be making 4th of July cookies this week so hopefully I'll be able to get them done by Wednesday. The owner is also supposed to be back this week after being quarantined because her son, and husband had covid. My boss is iffy about letting her come back already, but we kinda need her to come in, and do stuff. And for some reason I'm working nights again this weekend when I checked the schedule... I'm really torn on which I like better because while working days means I have Friday, and Saturday evenings free, working nights means not having to be in til 4 so I can sleep in xD I think it might be because the monthly car show is on Friday, and it's my coworker's turn to do the 10 hour shift that day. Whoever works the day shift on car show days, also has to work the night, and the night is insanely busy with everything going on so it's all hands on deck. Honestly, I don't mind doing it because that's an extra 5 hours pay. But with Wednesday, and the three hours I put in last Thursday, I'll already be like 15 hours over for this pay period. It's going to be a busy, exhausting week so I guess I am glad I'm working nights, and the earbuds will help with the next three days.
I'm also proud of myself for not hitting up the $15 Killstar dress sale. I did consider sinking a couple hundred into it, but I really, really, really don't need the inventory right now. I made several sales over the weekend so that'll help clear up some space, just need to get rid of about 50 more things xD
07:50 Jun 26 2022
Times Read: 334
It is terribly unwise to make a yandere jealous...
04:59 Jun 25 2022
Times Read: 364
Decided to treat myself to some new sneakers so I ordered a beautiful pair of these.
But... I'm also on the hunt for these.
Because Barbie needs her fuckin pink💗
As much as I love heels, it's unrealistic to live in them. Wolfie, and I had this conversation recently, and he said, "You know, Bun, there are two types of women who wear Louboutin's. The stripper or the mistress."
Or the sub, ok, or the sub xD Because I wholeheartedly agree that LBs are not made to walk in... for long. They are the type of shoes you wear when you know you're gonna end up on your back xD In my experience anyway. I love how sexy they look on me, but holy fuck, my feet do not love wearing them. And I wear sneakers for work in the Summer. Buying shoes for work is always justified xD Plus I need to go through, and pick a couple pairs to sell from my current collection. If I wear a pair regularly then I feel good about keeping them, but I have quite a few that I don't wear enough that can definitely go. So I'm going to figure that out before I head to bed. Work tonight was pretty easy, hopefully I'll get time tomorrow to go find my earpods❤
01:13 Jun 25 2022
Times Read: 385
20:45 Jun 24 2022
Times Read: 417
My cat's favorite place to nap... On top of my PS4 xD Wolfie scolds me for never cleaning it out. I don't think I've ever cleaned out any of my gaming consoles... ever. And they're all still in perfect working order. Mostly... My PS3 is a bit crashy, but it's also been heavily used over 10+ years so it's put in some good service. And I'm honestly not sure why Wolfie hates the Switch so much, it's actually pretty fucking convenient. But ya know, he's the difficult one between us :3 Well, maybe difficult is the wrong word... He just wants things exactly how he wants them, and he doesn't accept any less than exactly what he wants which is why it takes him literally forever to do anything. Ok, yeah, he's definitely difficult xD
I'm feeling ready to work today. I think it's because I'm only doing 5 hours instead of 8 today and tomorrow. I really need to invest in a pair of decent earpods. Everyone else uses them, and it would really help with the downtime being able to listen to music or audio books. I used to listen to audio books constantly. Wolfie is old-fashioned, and prefers books he can actually hold to read. I used to devour books, but it just makes me so sleepy in my old age to actually read xD So I'll see what I can find on Sunday. We do always have music on at work, but it's the same shit every day. And since I just got paid yesterday I won't have to dip into my savings which have been holding steady at my goal. KS is having a $15 dress sale, but I think I'm going to pass. I just have so much I need to get rid of, adding 20 dresses to that is not something I'm currently interested in. I need to focus on selling, I really don't need the inventory right now. And I'm just tired of not having any space. I remember fondly last January I had so much stuff gone... And now, it's worse than ever. I know, I'm such a whiner, I have too much beautiful stuff, poor Bunny xD
04:03 Jun 24 2022
Times Read: 450
I had an interesting... slightly confusing interaction with a what could have been potential buyer earlier. She offered me $70 for a dress I had listed for $88. I wasn't entirely happy selling it for $70 so I countered her $79. And she declined. I dunno... I feel like outright declining is just a bit rude, especially when. I'm trying to meet you in the middle. But then a couple hours later she made me an offer on exactly the same dress of $79... Which is the exact offer from me that she so quickly declined. So naturally I have her the same exact response... Along with an added block so she got the message. Because I really don't have time for games. And maybe I was feeling just a little bit petty. But honestly... Why refuse my offer just to turn around, and make me the same offer? No thank you. Sure, it's turning away perfectly good money, but it'll sell eventually, hopefully to someone a little more sure of themselves.
Then I had another woman message me to tell me that it would be easier for me to return things from where I bought them rather than trying to sell them. I understand her intentions were probably good... But I sell things for more than I paid for them so I'm making profit. On top of that, returning things generally requires paying for return shipping, and dealing with customer service. So it's just overall more profitable to sell it myself. But ya know... Over several hundred confirmed sales, and I DEFINITELY obviously need advice on returning things xD
I did end up working today for a few hours. My boss lured me there to get my check then he asked if I'd stay and help. So of course I stayed. The good thing about working nights this weekend is that I don't have to get my lazy ass outta bed before noon xD Yeah, I dunno, this week just sucks. Nothing has happened to make it suck in particular, I just really haven't wanted to do anything. I'm ready for June, and the whole Summer to just be over. I have so much to do, and currently absolutely no drive to do any of it.
All of the kids were over last night. Somehow we ended up in my bedroom with them raiding my closet. So I told my two oldest nieces that when Uncle Wolfie comes to get me I'll let them pick anything from my closet to keep for themselves. My oldest niece can actually fit into my stuff pretty well. They asked if shoes were included... I mean, by the time they're old enough to wear most of my shoes, they may not even fit into them. I have fairly small feet so they may outgrow me. And I love my shoes xD They were already claiming clothes, and I haven't even left yet. My oldest nephew is 13, and when I was talking about leaving he was just like, "No... You can't leave." Aw, he's gonna miss his favorite Auntie, so sweet :3 I got my two oldest nieces into reading Lore Olympus after they saw my newest mini backpack. I expect my brother to make a fuss about it being inappropriate, but compared to a lot of shit I've seen them watch... It's really pretty tame. Besides, they're at that age where they're learning about Greek Mythology so it's... educational? And they do agree that Auntie Bunny and Uncle Wolfie are very much like Hades and Persephone xD
I don't really want to sleep. My dreams lately have been so chaotic. They're usually so vivid, and clear, but lately they're jumping all over the place like my mind is running through different worlds. It's exhausting.
05:41 Jun 22 2022
Times Read: 510
Two days of no work❤
I really do love my job, but I'm just 100% not feeling it this week. I'm not feeling anything other than laying in my bed. I'm not necessarily sick... Wolfie is sick now though which is very concerning. So maybe that's part of it. I'm just really tired, and I don't want to have to do or think about anything. The rest of my week should be pretty light although I am working evenings Friday and Saturday, and I really prefer mornings. It used to be the opposite, but then I realized that opening is much easier than closing because I don't have to clean everything up when I open. And my coworker prefers working evenings so I wish we didn't do the back-and-forth bullshit, but the owner says she wants things to be fair. I do make much better tips at night because it's usually busier in general after 4, but I also don't like riding home in the dark. I have headlights but still. I also like having my Friday and Saturday nights free. The owner always tells me they'll work the schedule around me to convenience me because everyone prefers working with me, not my coworker. People also prefer to come in when I'm there, not her. She's just not great for business. But because she's a family friend they're pretty much stuck with her because how would you ever fire your friend without making everything else between you incredibly awkward? Yeah. And my boss sits there, and offers for me to be part owner... Even if I wasn't eventually leaving, I wouldn't want to be involved in that fuckin mess. Because one of my first things would be moving towards firing her. She's lazy, she's constantly on her phone, she refuses to do a lot while simultaneously says no one else does anything. She constantly complains about me. I'm not worried about it because the owner would never fire me, and my boss would never let get fired, but it's fucking annoying having to hear all the shit she says about me, bit then acts all sweet to my face. Customers think she's rude, she doesn't make things right or well, and she runs off to the backroom every chance she gets. What the fuck is she doing back there? She says she's organizing, but... You'll go back there, and nothing is changed. I've told my boss she's incredibly unpleasant to work with, she makes me want to quit, and will probably make the next person want to quit on and on until they close. The owner tries to tell me she just has a lot of personal stuff going on right now... Ok, so who doesn't? None of us are fucking stable right now, but not all of us go out of our way to be a hag about it. I've got plenty of personal problems, but I still show up to work like a ray of fucking sunshine. Actually, my personal life is pretty stable right now xD Wolfie is... well, he's being Wolfie, I'm used to how things go with him. I am worried of course about him being sick especially with his auto-immune condition, but it looks like it's just a cold. Ya know... In Summer. My boss's mom, dad, and brother all have covid right now despite all being fully vaccinated, and they have it real bad. Wolfie also is obviously vaccinated, and he's always had migraines, but I feel like they're worse since he got the shots. My boss puts his conspiracy theory tinfoil hat on talking to me about it all. And I say to him, does it really matter? Does anything you choose really matter? Was there ever even really a choice in any of your life or is everything you've ever done just a chain reaction from a chain reaction from a chain reaction that started a billion years ago? I think that's kinda cowardly though to say you never had a choice in anything so you've never chosen truly to do right or wrong because whatever preceeded you, and whatever preceeded that, and on, and on, already determined your choice for you.
Ok, my brain hurts now...
I'm gonna go look at some shoes and zone the fuck out xD The important things in life💗
05:41 Jun 21 2022
Times Read: 572
A former coworker showed up at the shop today, and my boss, who has no filter, started talking to her about fetishes, and for whatever reason brought me onto the conversation.
Boss: So she likes to wear cat ears. She's into the furry thing.
Me: It's called Pet Play. Pet Play, and being a Furry are two entirely different things.
Boss: How do you know these things?
Former Coworker: What about those weirdos who gallop around in a harness?
Me: That's Pony Play, also an entirely different thing.
Boss: How do know these things?!
Me: You don't want to know how I know these things xD
Ya know what though, I'm glad I have a boss that isn't a total prude. He's pretty vanilla, but he doesn't shy away from talking about that stuff. I've told him he's a sexual harassment lawsuit waiting to happen. Not from me, but someone in the future might not be so easy-going about his antics. I know he's perfectly harmless, but people are so easily fuckin offended. He told me I never pay any attention when guys flirt with me. Look... If I gave any notice to every man who flirted with me, that would just be exhausting, that would be like work. Besides, is it more cruel to simply ignore them or to indulge them, and give them the fantasy that they actually have a chance when they literally have none? Guys who want to waste their energy trying can go for it, but being dismissive is the much kinder, more energy efficient route for me. Maybe that makes me a bitch, but I really, genuinely do not have time for it. And ya know, some people aren't into cats, and I do love to be a kitty❤
Wolfie is so silly. He said he has been showing some of his friends in Europe pictures of me, and they said to him they always knew he loved cats. So... my question to him was, you've been showing them THOSE pictures?
"Of course not, my love, only polite Bunny pictures."
The funny thing is, Wolfie keeps my more risqué pictures on a drive that he keeps in his wallet. Wallets that are notorious for being stolen. He says it's protected so you couldn't just access them, but ya know, I bet any hacker could get in it. Not that I'm worried about it, I'm obviously not ashamed of myself, and I enjoy when he shows me off. But the fact that he keeps it in his wallet to keep it safe xD That's my Wolfie, only occasionally a complete dork❤
03:28 Jun 21 2022
Times Read: 601
If it had been any more to the left it would have landed right on the bone, and probably would have crushed it. And it's in such a place that it doesn't hurt at all to walk on. So I am pretty fortunate. My leg is also healing nicely. I wear shorts to work, and I kinda get tired of people asking, "Omg, tf happened to your leg?"
I got in a fight with a bear.
"Wut, really, bro?"
This week is already one of those fuck everyone weeks. I dunno why, nothing's wrong, I have no particular reason to be in a bad mood. I'm just not feeling this week. Work drug by, tomorrow should be better. Maybe I just didn't get enough sleep last night. The price I pay for being the best aunt ever💗
06:56 Jun 20 2022
Times Read: 651
My peaceful evening at home didn't exactly turn out how I had planned... I did end up going over to my sister's house because my other sister was also going, and the of course I was followed home by three of my nieces and nephews because they wanted to spend the night. So then we ended up on Moving Out til midnight which is a pretty fun little co-op game. My Switch has definitely been worth the money, I honestly bought it because the kids love playing games together, and Nintendo does multi-player games best. I mean... They can't play Elden Ring xD My oldest nephew couldn't even get past the minotaur in Dark Souls. But I know plenty of adults who can't do it either. My brother did not show up for dinner, but he doesn't get along well with that particular sister. He always tells me I'm his favorite sister, and it's like, well obviously xD But he, and I are only a year apart so we grew up the closest out of any of us. We're talking about getting him to go on a big family cruise with all of us for my parents 40th anniversary next year. The problem is that with his mental problems he really hates crowds, and while I never felt particularly crowded on our last cruise in general because it is a very big boat, there are some times where it's unavoidable like when you're boarding. But I know his kids would love it so hopefully we can convince him. My mother says it doesn't matter because the world is ending soon. Would it be so awful if it was? I've lived a life I'm not ashamed of, I've done my best. That's all I can really say to the Universe when the time comes. I tried to create more happiness than pain, more love than hate. I tried my best.
I still don't feel like working tomorrow. I'm not sure why. It just feels like it's going to be a very long day.
22:27 Jun 19 2022
Times Read: 691
I want all the bunny things💗
I took my parents out to lunch for Father's Day. I love being able to take people out, and tell to get whatever they want, my parents deserve it. One of my sister's invited me over for dinner tonight, but... I kinda just want to sit at home, browse shit online, eat Popsicles, hang out with my cat... That sounds good xD I really don't want to work tomorrow, I have a feeling it's going to be one of those weeks. Usually I love going to work, but occasionally I really, really don't want to. I've been working there almost a year now, next month. I feel like I've grown a lot, I've gained a lot of independence. I'm still a growing Bun, but I've come a long way :3 I can do a lot on my own. I think one of my main hindrances in life has been people constantly thinking they need to hold my hand, and carry me, and take care of me all the time. But I really can handle myself, I'm a lot tougher than people think. Not that I don't appreciate it, but I'm really not that fragile. Wolfie makes me laugh because he'll say I'm sweet, and precious, and should be protected, but then he'll tell me I'm a fierce queen, a feisty little goddess. Like, which is it xD But... I think it's good to be a woman who is both, to be all things, to be balanced. He said to me, "I like my women with a hint of spice and darkness underneath the candied, sugared exterior..." He had been telling me that while he was in Moscow he had gone out one day, and there were these three young women who desperately tried to get his attention. Even after politely telling them that he was very, very spoken for, they still tried to throw themselves at him. He told me how adorably childish, and plain they were. And you see, that's where he made a very grave mistake... To say to me that any other woman is adorable, well... Yes, I'm THAT fucking possessive, I own it xD Look, it's human nature to find many things in the world aesthetically pleasing. I'm not so unreasonable. But you absolutely do not say that to me even if his ultimate point in saying so was to say that these three little useless puppies were nothing compared to me. Should have simply kicked them away, that's what you do with relentless little annoying doggies... This is exactly why Wolfie is afraid of taking me to Moscow, I can be a little aggressive xD But I'm also fully capable of being a classy fucking lady so there ya go :3
05:13 Jun 19 2022
Times Read: 726
My foot should be broken. And my leg. I'm a walking disaster. I was expecting to see bone the way my bike landed on my foot, and ripped my shoe wide open, I thought it must've ripped my skin open too, but it's just very bruised. No big deal, I still worked a 5 hour shift on my feet. In my opinion, when you ride any sort of motorcycle type vehicle you should accept that eventually you're probably going to crash at least once. Crashing twice within 8 days is just bad luck xD But... not breaking anything in either crash is good luck. So it all balances out in the end. Wolfie tells me I'm wreckless, and self-destructive... To that I say, if you're so damn worried about my safety then get your ass back here, and take care of me. Til then, you don't get to tell me how or what I am, good day, sir. I mean, I understand Wolfie's worry, but again, I'm not trying to hurt myself, a Phantom dog fuckin barked at me, and I'm just extremely accident prone. I'm shocked it took this long for the thing to hurt me, we should consider ourselves fortunate that it hasn't been worse. Here's to next week being better❤
18:08 Jun 18 2022
Times Read: 766
Fucking crashed my motorbike again😣
In my defense... There was a dog. I never saw it, but it barked at me so I looked around, and suddenly I realize I'm headed for the ditch so I try to pull out, I skid, I slide, and my bike lands right on my left foot.
I don't think it's broken... I immediately popped back up so I thought, ok, I'm walking on it so it can't be that bad. Checked my foot, realized my shoe was ripped, but it didn't actually rip my sock or slice me open, no blood, no wound. My toes are still fully functional, nothing is really throbbing, I'm not in agonizing pain. It is swelling a bit, it's obviously bruised, but I definitely don't think it's seriously injured.
I was more distressed than anything that I couldn't find my phone xD After getting up, and checking my foot I went to grab my phone, and it wasn't there. It had gone flying away from me into the road.
The problem with me, and pain is that I have an extremely high pain tolerance so it's hard to tell when I'm seriously injured because if I can walk it off then it's no big deal to me. There's not like any immediate pain when I press on it or touch it or walk on it so I'm pretty sure it's fine. Can't you tell how much I don't want to go to the doctor xD I mean, I have to work today so... I'd rather work than go to urgent care.
Wolfie is right... I am a clumsy Bun. But apparently I'm also slight indestructible :3 Or maybe just very lucky❤
04:10 Jun 18 2022
Times Read: 801
It reminds me of when Wolfie is being overly critical of himself, and I tell him, "Please don't say such terrible things about the man I love."
He's really unhappy right now. He regrets putting so much into Slovenia, and extending his job there just to realize he doesn't want to live there. But that's just how he is. Will he really be any happier if we move to Moscow? Will he be happy anywhere? Sometimes it feels like maybe not... I think he really connected with his roots in Russia, and that's why he's eager to live there. He keeps telling me how lonely he is there... So I say to him, let your beautiful girlfriend buy you a ticket back here, and then... We could go almost anywhere. I have my passport, there's nothing to stop us. He asked me where I'd like to go... That's an excellent question xD I dunno, somewhere with a nice beach, beautiful water. Wolfie loves to swim too. So somewhere we can swim that has good food. That's all my requirements xD And that's pretty much anywhere. As much as I adore my boyfriend, the brooding drives me freakin nuts. Like, I understand he can't control his depression... But he'll complain that all he does is sit in the apartment and work.
So go out?
"There's nothing here to do, it's boring."
There are solutions to his problems, he just won't move his ass. If you don't like something, fucking fix it, dude. He will brood himself into a fucking coma before he gets his ass up. That's where I'm alpha compared to him, if I don't like something, I do something about it, I don't sit there, and overthink myself to death, I am a bun of action. And he is not, he feels the need to very carefully plan every single detail of everything, and it fucking kills me. I love him to death, but for fucking real. I do understand that his depression, and trauma play a part in that, but stop telling me how lonely you are when I'm right here, and you could be here too if you'd just do it. It's basically your choice to be lonely at this point because you won't just fucking get on a plane. There's obviously something holding him back, and I don't think it's anything malicious or hurtful, I genuinely think he feels like every time we see each other, eventually I'm going to realize that I don't want to be with him, and fuck off, and abandon him. Which we all know would absolutely never happen. If I was going to leave, I've had plenty of opportunities. But that's hard to reason to someone with massive abandonment issues. I have those too so... I get it.
There are these two women that come into the shop every now and then. They're the kinda kooky ladies who think they can put hands on you, and pray over you in a bunch of goblygook that you'll be healed. So naturally I throw my boss at them when they come in because he's got all his health problems, and it's hilarious to watch him squirm xD But they were talking to me this last time, asking me about my whole "story." So I told them about Wolfie of course, he's a pretty important character in my rpg xD I talked with them about possibly moving to Russia and whatnot. And they told me, "You have to follow your peace. It'll lead you where you need to be."
And in the background my boss is saying, "Nope, you're not moving to Russia, I won't allow it, you can't ever leave." xD
I love my boss. But he's not my peace.
Not sure if he's his wife's peace either xD
What do I want more than anything? For myself... In this world? In this life?
00:45 Jun 18 2022
Times Read: 819
00:58 Jun 17 2022
Times Read: 857
The only npc I gave a crap about, he's gone😭
It's bad luck to be a wolf knight in a Souls game, it was never going to end well.
On a positive note, Ranni and Blaidd would be perfect for me, and Wolfie to cosplay as :3 It would be so cute❤
I will finish this game xD Some day🖤
I'm a little bit stuck at Maliketh... He just one shots me every time so basically I can't get hit, not even once. I beat him within an inch of his life once so it is doable, I'm just not there yet. I did get a decent upgrade on my scythe though which took the Dex scaling from D to B. Then there's Castle Sol which is another fight I've barely been beaten on. He had Scarlet Rot on him, and if I had just kept dodging instead of getting aggressive ot would have eventually ticked him down... A bit cowardly maybe, but effective. But that's what I love about my class, it's an extremely delicate balance between when to dodge, and when to go all out, and sometimes you just don't make it. Bloodhound Step is godly though❤
Wolfie was talking to me about engagement rings recently. He really wants us both to pick my ring out because he wants me to get exactly what I want. Which is sweet... But not so romantic xD So them he says he could see himself getting me a snake ring...
Which of course immediately made me think of the Covetous Serpant Rings from Dark Souls xD He was thinking more serpent with a pomegranate ruby, very underworld themed. Interestingly, in doing some research into Russian snake lore I found that the symbol of Kazan, Wolfie's hometown, is a Zilant which is kinda like a winged snake dragon chicken thing. Who knew?
20:48 Jun 16 2022
Times Read: 900
When I finally fuckin crack, and decide to summon a Great Old One...
This is what I'll be wearing xD
It's so over-the-top, but so gorgeous. Definitely a colder weather piece, it would look beautiful out in the snow. But I could also see it with nothing, but some heels, and black lingerie underneath🖤
And they gave me free stickers, fuck yeah, I fucking love stickers xD
I also ordered this gorgeous new Choker.
Although I'm not crazy that it clasps shut instead of buckles, but I loved the moon, and roses so I had to have it.
I had a real Bunny brain moment yesterday... I tend to responsibly keep good track of my bank account. I've constantly got large amounts of money coming in, and going out so I keep an eye on it pretty close. I was looking at it yesterday, and noticed about a $500 discrepancy. It wasn't a big deal, I put in a $344 order to DK, and a $200 to Killstar over the weekend so I assumed I must have miscalculated the last time I went over it, no big deal. But then laying in bed last night, drifting off to sleep, I suddenly for whatever reason realized, oh shit, I don't think I ever deposited my last check from work xD And lo-and-behold, it was still in my mini backpack when I checked this morning... After having picked it up last Friday, never actually put it in my bank. Yep, sounds like me xD
Also, super cute ghost pillow :3
17:50 Jun 16 2022
Times Read: 924
Is that... a Lolita Dress of wolfies making sweets?
The stuff of my dreams😍
03:19 Jun 16 2022
Times Read: 968
Oof... My leg should probably be broken. Just goes to show I'm not as fragile as everyone says. I already got the very stern, "Bun has no regard for Bun safety," lecture from Wolfie. Because, ya know, I was definitely trying to crash my motorbike, I totally wanted that to happen. I actually was, in fact, very responsibly headed to work when it happened. So we can all agree it's my boss's fault because I wasn't even supposed to work that day xD
Btw, yes, I have a fat ass xD I had this talk with my niece on vacation... We were walking down the landing, and we were passing a Cinnabon, and she said something about how we had been eating too much. I stopped that little girl in her tracks... And I told her that 1: She's 11 so she absolutely should not be worried about how much she's eating. And 2. Never fucking let anyone shame you for how you look, dress, eat, whatever. Chemically, not everyone can be a fucking size 2. I'm pretty small, and I'm no size fucking 2. Mostly because I love sweets way too much. But I do eat pretty healthy, mostly veggies, and I jog daily, and I'm on my feet at work all day most days. But I'm still not a size fucking 2, and I never will be, because sugar makes me happy, it makes my emotional state better, and I'm not going to give that up just to lose that last 20 pounds. I'm good with myself, and I don't ever want her to feel like she has to be anything for anyone, I want her to be what she wants herself to be, to have what makes her happy. And worrying about that at 11 is ridiculous. So I took her to Cinnabon, and then we got sno cones, and then we went to the candy store because calories don't count on vacation xD
And some guys really enjoy havin' somethin' to grab, and hold onto, just sayin'❤
18:41 Jun 15 2022
Times Read: 1,014
The Blood Moon Rising Jacket + Heels...
The color on these is so fucking gorgeous❤ Metallic red lipstick is my absolute favorite to wear so Metallic red everything, please.
I actually got like... A LOT of jackets xD DK was having a 50% off clearance sale, and most of it was them getting rid of cold weather items which don't help me right now, but come fall...
And a couple dresses of course.
And this cute set.
I will say about this set, I own it in three different colors because not only do I love it because it's really easy to wear, and comfortable for lounging around in your collar and a pair of cat ears, but Wolfie loves me in these sets too. If you're a Kitten then I highly recommend❤ Wolfie doesn't micromanage me as much as some Doms might do their subs. He may pick out my outfit from time to time, but he really prefers for me to surprise him. It's like he says to me, "I love you, Bun, but I simply don't have time to tell you what to do every second of the day." And some Doms are like that, some Doms want to be asked before their subs do anything. I don't think I could be with someone like that. I feel like Wolfie, and I have a perfect balance of control and freedom. Wolfie doesn't want a sub who is a robot, he doesn't want a doll, he likes owning a sub with a wild side, a massive disobedience streak. He always says, "If you'll always be such a good girl how will I ever punish you?"
Yesterday my boss was asking me whether I wanted to work full day or half day on Saturday, and I told him it was up to him because I always do what I'm told :3 And his eyes got huge, and he shouted across the shop, "Since when?!" xD Look, I'm not that bad... The problem is that my boss is 100% not dominant so while I like him as a person, I don't really respect him as an authority figure. Like asking me when I want to work, just fucking tell me, and I'll be there, you're the captain, you decide.
But... I honestly do have too much shit xD On Saturday I spent $300 on 30 items, mostly to sell, but going through it all yesterday I just wanted to get rid of everything, I'm so over not having any fucking space. And I have too much personal clothing, let's be real. I don't fucking need 50 different jackets xD But hey, if I move to Russia, and we're going out all the time then maybe I will. Wolfie said that my Lolita dresses might be a bit frowned on there simply because I already look very young, and despite actually being a couple years older than him, he worries about what people think when they see us together. It's funny because he doesn't look like an old man or anything, I'd actually say he's like me, he looks younger than he is. He turns 30 in August, but he could probably pass for early 20s. And no one has ever made a fuss over us together before so he just worries too much. It's not like I look like I'm 12 years old, preteens don't have this ass, ok xD I think it's just because I'm so small, and he's so tall, he feels like we look a bit weird together, but I think we're adorable. I told him if anyone questions us then I'd be happy to take his hand, and tell them that he is, in fact, my husband. And he blushed so hard when I said that, it was so cute xD He blushes any time I talk about marrying him. I finally have something on him after all the things he does to me that make me blush. And I still do sometimes, there are certain things he'll whisper to me, and I'll immediately turn red all over, like, ahem... yeah, that would be nice xD
I've got the next two days off work which I really need because the last two days were insanely busy. I may have to work all day Saturday instead of half day, but I'm fine with that since it'll help make up some of the hours I lost while I was away last week. I really need to sell things off, I've already got a dress, and pair of shoes gone today so that's a good start❤
15:35 Jun 14 2022
Times Read: 1,056
02:46 Jun 14 2022
Times Read: 1,083
16:57 Jun 13 2022
Times Read: 1,117
Oh, thank you, you shouldn't have :3
23:15 Jun 12 2022
Times Read: 1,155
20:19 Jun 12 2022
Times Read: 1,187
Basically, my relationship...
Omg, we're so sickening I wanna vomit, I fucking love it xD
04:59 Jun 11 2022
Times Read: 1,245
I crashed my bike for the first time today xD
Yeahhh... It wasn't a bad crash or anything. When it happened it felt like my leg was ripped open, but turned out it was just my sock. My leg is a bit scratched up, but other than that I'm fine. I had decided to come back a day early with my brother because... I dunno. I've had my fill of vacation. Which is such a like, spoiled thing to say xD But it's true, I was ready to come home, see my cat, and get back to work honestly. I came in to get my check I had missed a couple days ago, and my boss practically begged me to take over for my coworker. So I'm now working tonight, and tomorrow afternoon. I could've said no... But I already missed Monday, and Tuesday so at least I'll have some hours for this week. I didn't spend a huge amount of money over the last few days, maybe $300 or so. I gave my dad money before we left because he bought everyone's tickets for the aquarium, and stuff, and I knew my brother wouldn't be paying for anything so... I love my brother, but he's that guy who will never have his wallet when it's time to pay for something. All weekend long, anywhere we stopped, "Oh, I left my wallet in the car, it's with my wife, it's at home." Like, dude... And of course I'll buy anything for his kids because I am best, favorite Auntie, and because I have the monet to blow so it's not a big deal, but still. Like he had dropped the kids off at their house while he ran me home, stopped for cigarettes on the way there, and didn't have money to buy them. Or a few weeks ago he stopped in with my niece at work, brought her inside, and said to me, "We want food, but we don't have any money." And look, I'll gladly buy them food, but I don't like being forced into it, like I'm going to say no with my niece standing there, you ass. That's basically what it was all week, me buying them things so they didn't miss out, and I'm happy to do it, but I wish my brother would get his shit together.
And my job isn't exactly strenuous so working today, and tomorrow is nothing. But yeah, I was pulling out of the driveway, and I barely touched the throttle, and it fuckin took off on me. Which led to me crashing into the flower garden xD I was talking to Wolfie at the time, and he says, "Bunny... You`re so accident prone. We need to keep you on a leash all the time."
I wouldn't necessarily mind that :3
In my defense... It was my first crash. So I feel like it's not that bad. Despite Wolfie telling me I have complete disregard for my own safety, it's a pretty good track record so far. And I didn't break anything. So that's a win. Wolfie is a bit overprotective, I'm surprised he didn't put up a fuss with me riding a motorbike. Then again... I didn't tell him before I bought it. And he likes for me to have some independence. Being owned by your Dom doesn't mean giving everything up, and living only to their will and demands. Unless that's how you like it, every bdsm couple is different. I had someone recently offer themselves up to be "used and abused" by both Wolfie, and myself. I was pretty disgusted at the total desperation and inexperience somebody would have to hold to try, and get in on someone else's relationship. You wanna be poly, that's good for you, absolutely not for me and Wolfie, we are 100% only for each other. If you take five minutes to speak with me you'll realize very quickly how insanely possessive I, and my beloved are. You really think you want to get between us?
But on top of working these couple days I was supposed to be off, I also came home to a nice surprise. My Killstar package, the one that KS refunded me for a week ago because it has been lost in the mail? It was sitting on the porch waiting for me. The tracking on it never updated, it genuinely looks like it never shipped. But here it is. So that's almost $300 worth of shit for free. My check was actually more than I thought it would be too considering I missed a day when I went to my cousin's wedding. So that's nice. I'm so tired, I can't believe I agreed to work, what is wrong with me xD
05:04 Jun 09 2022
Times Read: 1,302
01:22 Jun 07 2022
Times Read: 1,425
As soon as we made it to the vacation house I got myself a Miami Vice, and headed into the water.
I'm not a big drinker, but I love some rum. And oddly enough, it takes a lot to get me drunk despite how small I am. Wolfie did not approve xD But with his history of heavy drinking, I get it. And he likes to tell me, "Alcohol makes Bun even more accident prone." But like I said... I had a couple drinks last night, and I wasn't even buzzed. Had absolutely no trouble swimming. I keep telling Wolfie he needs to build me a house with a pool.
"But beloved, pools aren't really a good idea in Russia."
Ok... so build me a house with an indoor pool.
"The logistics of keeping a pool warm in Russian winter..."
Shhhhhh... Make it happen :3
I told him it's time to take me to Greece as well. Because the water there looks fucking gorgeous🖤
18:12 Jun 04 2022
Times Read: 1,477
Kinda want them though❤
16:20 Jun 03 2022
Times Read: 1,522
Shut up, and get in my closet❤🖤
04:25 Jun 03 2022
Times Read: 1,560
I felt really bad the other day when Wolfie, and I were talking about Mass Effect, and I could not for the life of me remember the term ardat yakshi.
07:05 Jun 02 2022
Times Read: 1,607
My boss finally got the pink paint in to paint my motorbike💗
He also ordered me a work shirt that's black with Hello Kitty on it xD So... I'll be the only one who works there with a black, and Hello Kitty shirt. He really spoils me :3 Honestly, how could you not spoil me? I told him I had been feeling a little uncomfortable leaving by myself out the back lately after the idiot who owns the shop next door was on the roof of his building with a gun taunting a bunch of bikers at the bar across the street. So he cocks his gun, he always has a gun on him, and tells me he'll escort me outside from now on. He's too fuckin much. It's like a soap opera around there, the drama. The guy next door gives me the major creeps... Oddly enough, he's constantly hitting on my 60+ year old coworker instead of me, and he's only 38. Not that I'm complaining. He's also dying of liver failure, he's got months left to live so I actually encouraged it, I told her to go for it until... He basically said to her, "Hey, your husband is dead, let's bang." Yeahhhh, I may not always see eye to eye with her, but that's not fuckin ok to speak that way to anyone on my fuckin crew. It's weird because he behaves himself when I'm there, but I hear all the bullshit he gets up to from her, and my boss while I'm not there. Somehow that makes him even creepier to me. So yeah, soap opera xD
I wish it was Saturday. Friday is going to be so busy especially since I have to get everything set for me being gone a week. It'd be great if my coworker would, I dunno, handle things herself, but that's just not her way. We had our quarterly meeting on Tuesday, and my boss was expecting me to speak up about her laziness, but I felt like if we got into it I would just get pissed off, and probably end up quitting because let's face it, I really don't need this job. But I do like it, and I'd prefer not to quit. It really tempts me though when I hear she's been complaining about me not doing anything when I literally do everything. Like, the other day my boss was moving a freezer from one end of the shop to the other, and she was complaining that I was just standing there... Like, what was I supposed to be doing? And my boss backs me up on these things, but still, she makes me want to quit, I can't stand the hypocrisy. And if we had gotten into it, yeah, I probably would have quit right there. It's so unlike me to be unconfrontational xD Despite what Wolfie says, I do have some measure of self control.
I actually rage quit on Elden Ring for the first time today... Commander Niall is a real asshole. I got him so close to dead, but just haven't quite made it there yet. Which I'd like to because even though that area beyond him is completely optional, I'd like to see everything. So that's kind of a problem. I know I can beat him, just gonna take a couple more tries. Honestly, the bosses in ER haven't been anything spectacular for the most part. I was talking to Wolfie about it, and we both agree the game should be harder. We also agree that Bloodborne is superior. And that's why I love him💗
But I also agree with his assessment that the game has many flaws. It's a magnificent game, but flawed. Bloodborne is perfect, and Dark Souls 1 is very close. People who say that Dark Souls is mechanically not a great game, they're just wrong and unskilled. And Dark Souls is not a hard game if you know what you're doing. That's part of the journey, playing it multiple times until you can basically run straight through to your Platinum. Or maybe that's just me xD I'd like to get the platinum for Elden Ring, but... That looks like work. Not impossible, hopefully easier than the DS3 platinum. Nothing is worse than getting the Prey platinum just because if you want the trophy for killing every human on the station, other things can't have killed them like mind-controling aliens who explode their heads or random environmental hazards. Things completely beyond your control can totally screw you. Like trying to do a 100% no kills run in Dishonored, but if someone is devoured by a swarm of rats it counts against you, that's somehow your fault. No kills is the best way to play Dishonored anyway, it's more fun that way, but it's not fun when rats ruin your day by eating one person.
03:12 Jun 01 2022
Times Read: 1,234
My new wolfie blanket ^^
My favorite BlackCraftCult design🖤
Obviously already kitty approved xD
Long fuckin day at work today. But now I don't work til Friday. Two days to do absolutely nothing... Well, I did make progress in Elden Ring, I beat Godskin Duo. Every time I play I beat a boss, and then I'm like, welllll, that's enough for today xD It usually only takes me a couple weeks to beat a Souls, I'm really dragging. Maybe after I move to Russia I'll have time to play it straight through, I probably won't have much else to do especially when Wolfie is working. He's actually doing multiple jobs because he's also been working as a translator, he's a fuckin workaholic. But it helps with his depression for him to stay busy, and focused on other things so I don't mind it.
It's a nice rainy evening. I sleep so well on rainy nights🖤