Honor: 7 [ Give / Take ]
40 entries this month
22:05 Mar 31 2021
Times Read: 258
So I sold this dress that was an XXL. Immediately after receiving it the buyer opens a return case. "I was expecting a plus size 2XL, but it's an XXL." Ya know, as far as I'm aware, XXL and 2XL are the same fuckin size. Plus sizes usually go by numbers, 0-5. Nowhere in my listing did I state that this was plus sized, I simply said it was an XXL. It really annoys me when people just don't ask for measurements, it would make my job so much easier. When I listed this dress it was snatched up within minutes so I'm guessing she thought she didn't have the time to inquire before someone else bought it. That's not my fault or my problem. They don't even make this dress in a plus size, XXL is the biggest they got. If she bothered to do ANY research or ask she'd know that. I'm just tired of big-boned women holding me responsible for the stuff that doesn't fit them xD I never get returns for things being too big, it's always people that need a 3-4X trying to squeeze down into a 1-2X, stop doing that, it doesn't work. I don't mean for that to sound offensive, but you can't blame me for shopping below your size. And I'm definitely not responsible for something not meeting someone's expectations beyond what I described. Some people are just ridiculous, and I hope this return case gets squashed because it's obviously not my fault.
But I did sell another dress today for $300. Possibly the most I've ever sold a single dress for so that's pretty rad. Compared to that, getting a $55 dress returned isn't a big deal, but it's still annoying.
08:00 Mar 31 2021
Times Read: 281
I decided to dive back into Code Vein on a whim tonight. I've never beaten it, got close a year ago, but then gave up, and moved on. After trying to beat the same boss most of the night, I remember now why I gave up xD I really love the game, especially the gorgeous Gothic anime style graphics. It's definitely a game that's trying to be Dark Souls/Bloodborne, and that's certainly not a bad thing. But the fighting isn't as crisp as those games. The button inputs don't respond quite as fast or as well. I get hit when I obviously dodged way too much, and sometimes I'll watch my weapon go right through an enemy without damaging it. It's just little things that are important to this type of game that you really need to be perfect otherwise it gets a bit tedious and annoying when I play perfectly, and still get my face smashed in. But I haven't given up, I'm going to beat it this time. If I can beat Orphan of Kos and Sister Friede solo, I can do this, there's no way this is harder than that.
I did notice though... All the men in the game are fully dressed, ready for battle.
But all the women look like this...
And they're all garbage as partners except Louis and Jack. They really should have added a romantic sideplot to the game, the ability to romance any character. You can give, and receive gifts from them, and there's like a closeness meter so maybe it was considered at one point. Look, having a cute anime boyfriend ruthlessly killing things with me would just make the game slightly better xD
21:51 Mar 30 2021
Times Read: 328
She has arrived...❤
Harliquinade by Angelic Pretty.
This dress is stunning, every little detail is perfect. Initially, I was drawn to it for the color, and the bunnies, but I have always loved carousels, and the Harlequin doll is quite darling. It's hard to distinguish all the details until a dress is in my hands. Like all the little buttons being card suit symbols, I didn't notice that until I received it. It's a gorgeous dress, absolutely perfect for me. And it did include the matching bonnet. I mean, I was pretty sure it said it did, but it's hard to tell with translated Japanese.
I give the proxy service high praise. I ordered this on the 22nd, and in only 8 days it went from the seller in Japan to their warehouse to my doorstep for only a $3 service fee. The dress itself cost $128, shipping was $35. They do offer much cheaper shipping options via airmail, but that can take months, and since the dress was already so cheap I figured it was worth it for the extra shipping to get it in only a couple days. Plus, it did come with the bonnet, and both are in perfect condition. Not bad for a set that initially sold for 38000 yen. Could probably get $500-600 for it, but... It is perfect for me :3 It's too beautiful to part with, it was definitely one of my higher tier wishlist finds, and now it's in my dainty grasp❤
07:51 Mar 29 2021
Times Read: 376
So... 40,000 yen later...
Look, I can explain xD
Melty Hospital and Cute Devil Halloween OPs by Royal Princess Alice.
These are hugely popular designs that are completely sold out. Originally sold for $350-$400. So getting them for $200 each in like new condition is amazing. Also note, that these are both OPs meaning they both have long sleeves, and are full dresses. That's important because it means that if I decide to resell them they're worth more. I'd say I can sell them for at least $500 each, easy. Whether or not I'll be willing to part with them is questionable... I mean, they're so rare, and hard to find. And the designs on them are so adorable, and creepy, and cute. It's everything I love. Plus, I looked at the measurements, and they should definitely fit me. I'll probably toss them up to see what people will offer, but I definitely wouldn't mind adding them permanently to my personal collection. They'd be so happy there next to all the Angelic Pretty :3
But I know there are A LOT of people searching for these dresses too so I'd really happy also to find them their perfect forever home♥
03:28 Mar 29 2021
Times Read: 392
A new item on my Lolita wishlist.
Alice and the Pirates The Secret Between Alice and the Clock Tower JSK II.
So I have managed to dig this up along with a couple skirts of the same design. Unfortunately, all in blue, but since it is Wonderland themed I'm willing to let that slide. The dress is going for $215, the skirt for $70. I'd really rather have the full dress... I have a white bunny ear blouse that would go so perfectly with it. I love the print, but I have to think about it.
I also found another style in the AATP vampire series.
This is the Vampire Forest Carmille JSK. I do like that it's in black, but I don't really care for dresses with no defined waist. The ribbon is supposed to be for that, or I could pair it with a belt buuuut, I dunno. It's selling for only $113 so I may grab it just to try it, it'll be easy to sell if it's not for me. Then I could have both shipped to me together, and decide which one is better.
A third interesting one I found.
Aatp Merry Making in the Ghost Town JSK I.
I love the print. I love the style. I hate the color xD Look, it's hard to find the perfect dress in the right style and color. This is only $160, a steal, but the color is really turning me off. But it would match my eyes... so maybe.
I am absolutely loving getting to shop from Japan. Obviously, Japanese brands are going to be easier to find from people with closets full of Japanese clothing. Using a proxy has totally changed my shopping life xD
08:42 Mar 28 2021
Times Read: 439
No woman has to justify buying cute shoes❤
It's like I always tell Wolfie. Darling, you don't need to enjoy shopping. You only need to hold my bags while you watch me try things on. xD
When it comes to asking him how I look in certain outfits his opinion is as follows. "Bunny Rabbit. Men are simple. We prefer you naked. Stop asking us about your clothes."
Aw xD I love him :3
04:01 Mar 28 2021
Times Read: 460
Vampire Forest by Alice and the Pirates, the sister brand to BTSSB.
So I've been hunting one of the famous vampire series for awhile. There are several different prints, and designs, it's one of their most popular sellers. I've come across them on occasion, but never the right color or style. Lots of blues being resold, and we all know how I feel about blue. I did find a skirt in red, but I didn't like the length. I'm not 100% sold on this particular style, it's a bit... I dunno. Costumey? But I absolutely love the print, bats, castles, cats, moons, tea sets, coffins, roses, vampires, etc. I also found it from a seller in Japan asking for a measly 12,000 yen for it, roughly $113, and it appears to be in great condition. The listing does say it's used, but they didn't point out any flaws or damage, and the proxy will inspect it, and take pictures before they ship it to me to make sure it isn't damaged or stained or anything. I kinda wish I had waited for this one before shipping the first because they'll hold items for 45 days, so if you buy more than one thing you can have it all shipped together, and save on shipping. But getting both of them for under $300 total is pretty amazing. That's two really big checks off my Lolita wishlist plus the Diamond Honey that I may or may not keep. Building my dream Lolita wardrobe has been a lot of fun, and I've had a lot of success this past year. I think it was last March that I found my absolute dream dress, Hospital Bunny by Diamond Honey, and I've been really lucky since then in procuring everything else :3 I wouldn't say Lolita is my main style, but it definitely suits my wardrobe. Now I'd really like to find a proper bonnet to match... This one by Krad Lanrete is very pretty.
And the gloves are very nice.
Then again, at that point it might be a lil too bopeep for me xD
20:17 Mar 26 2021
Times Read: 495
Milky Planet by Angelic Pretty.
In pink no less. Now that's a helluva dress. Originally released in 2010 for about $250, highly, HIGHLY sought after.
But... it's not really my taste. It's cute, but I prefer a bit more spooky especially for $700. It's nice to admire though, a classic, original loli dress. This is an easy sell, and guaranteed the person selling it won't hear any whining about the price, if anything they're not charging enough, there's a purple one with bids almost up to $900. Almost makes me wish I was more cutesy. I mean, I have my kawaii side, but this is too much even for her xD Fuckin rainbows and cupcakes. I much prefer my $150 graveyard dress.
I just like looking at it though, it makes me so happy xD
11:15 Mar 26 2021
Times Read: 520
It's really fucking annoying when people message me just to ask, "Why are you charging so much for so-and-so? Don't you know how much this costs?"
Because it's mine?
Because I can?
Because if you bothered to read you would see it says, "I consider all offers."?
My bad, I didn't know I needed your motherfucking random stranger permission to sell something that's mine xD
How stupid do you have to be to message someone like that? What do you honestly think the response is going to be? Gee, sorry, guess I'll change the price to like $10 just because YOU think it's too much, and you're just that fucking special.
I'm so tired of cheap goddamn people who think the world is their personal thrift store. Instead of trying to bargain with me they go straight into attacking me like it's going to make me hand things over to them for nearly free. What sorta fucking dreamworld are these yahoos living in? Where instead of being polite they go straight into rude as shit, and expect that to get them what they want. And what sort of people have caved to these morons to give them that impression? Please, tell the admins I was being mean to you, have them suspend me, and put me outta my fuckin misery from having to deal with absolute idiots like you, I could use the vacation xD
Seriously, you're buying a dress, not selling your soul. There are so few soul worthy dresses out there.
It's 7 am, and I already wanna punch someone in the throat. Good day.
But my Harliquidnade made it to the Japanese warehouse, and is officially on the way so that helps a lot :3
00:23 Mar 26 2021
Times Read: 550
Annnd another decent Lolita find, Graveyard Carnival by Diamond Honey.
I just love this design so much, it's so cute. I did own the lavender version of this dress last year, but it was a size small, and we all know a size small isn't going to fit over the kittens. But I had to try, and it wasn't super undersized, it just barely didn't fit. But I've also always favored the white version despite usually avoiding white dresses entirely. But it came up brand new in a size M for £82 so I grabbed it. With shipping it came to about £100, but that's pretty standard price for this dress as it's been sold out for awhile now. If this is still too small it'll be an easy sell for at least $200 so no loss really. I wish Diamond Honey would go back to their creepier designs, they've been doing a lot of plaid, and for whatever reason, cow print? It's just like, yeahhhh, cow is a big miss for me xD
18:57 Mar 25 2021
Times Read: 574
Part 1 of my Hot Topic haul made it here today with most of my items. Just looking for some cute, casual, easy things to wear. As much as I love my super gothy looks they're a lot for all the time, sometimes I just want to throw on a dress, and walk out the door.
But first is this really kawaii heart set.
Obviously, the hearts in the eyes match the hearts in the skirt so I thought they'd look really adorable together. Besides, I can't resist a plaid mini skirt, and this one is pastel. The top is a bit big, but not everything needs to be skin tight especially in a kawaii look. I don't really have any shoes that go with this outfit though so...
Also in the kawaii category is this strawberry milk dress + pin set.
Super cute and comfy :3 Strawberry milk is a really popular kawaii design, I've been seeing it everywhere.
Tarot Card dress.
So this is probably the only blue thing in my closet right now xD I just don't like blue, I don't connect with it which is weird since Sapphire is my birthstone. I know, I had the blue hair, but as you saw, that lasted like a week before I was like ok, I'm over this xD It's a cute dress though.
Nightmare Before Christmas Sally dress.
I love this dress, I wanted it immediately when it came out, Nightmare Before Christmas has always been a thing with me since I was like around 5 years old, it's always been one of my favorite movies. I have a friend who's a few years younger than me, and he tries to tell me that Corpse Bride is better... I like it, but that's a fuckin lie xD
Also these super cute Jack hitops.
I have an NBC skirt coming in with my next package along with my Inuyasha stuff. I also found a sold-out Killstar sweater covered in roses/thorns, and a coffin purse. KS is currently running a 25% off on shoes, and accessories, but that doesn't really tempt me much unless they've got some good shoes in clearance. Their new releases just haven't been doing it for me.
I did get really excited when I saw this though...
Shadowdancer, that's my class xD Yeah, yeah, I'm a nerd, that's not new, nerdy shit excites me.
But this too obviously.
Wolfie will love it almost as much as I do :3
08:06 Mar 24 2021
Times Read: 628
I was on video chat with Wolfie, laying in my bed, and my cat jumps up on the bed with me. He comes over to me, lays down with his furry head on my shoulder, and slowly reaches one paw over, strokes my face then his paw lands right on my chest.
And Wolfie's just like, "Ok, never thought I'd be jealous of a cat, time to fuckin come home," as he's just watching as this all happens, this cat asserting ownership over his woman xD
Wolfie really likes kitty though, they're bros :3 He's very kind, and gentle with animals, something I've always adored about him. When he was a kid he had this psychologist who tried to label him as a "future psychopath." That fuckin moron was way off, Wolfie has way too much genuine emotion for that. Despite being treated so poorly as a child, and being stuck with an absolute lunatic piece of shit mother, he has a very kind heart, he grew into an amazing person. I do so hope by now somebody has shown that motherfucker what an actual psychopath is xD
04:00 Mar 23 2021
Times Read: 682
So while I was hunting lolita dresses I found her...
the Angelic Pretty Harlequinade JSK in red/black colorway with the matching bonnet included.
The problem? It's being sold by a seller in Japan who isn't willing to ship outside of Japan.
Not all hope is lost though... Enter the proxy.
A proxy is a person/company/website who lives in the country you're trying to buy from, and will have your item shipped to them so they can ship to you for usually a pretty small service fee. You pay, they procure, you pay for shipping once the item is in their hands, and they ship to you. If for whatever reason they can't get the item, you're fully refunded. If the item was misrepresented, full refund. I had never actually used a proxy before so I did some research, found one that was highly recommended, and easy to use, and put in my order for the dress.
So this dress was being sold for a menial 14 000 yen, about $130, seller claims it was only worn once, and with the matching bonnet included it's an insanely good price. Shipping will probably be between $30-50, but getting this for anything under $200 is awesome, I would happily pay $300-400 for it. It came out in 2016, it's kinda rare. I've mostly seen the blue version come up for sale, but I absolutely had to have the red, and I wanted the JSK instead of the OP because it's a bit roomier in the bust.
Anyway, I paid the $130, and less than 30 minutes later they informed me that they had purchased it on my behalf, and would let me know when it arrived at their warehouse. And it is actually showing as sold on the website now. So fuckin easy!
If this works out, I may open my own little secondhand lolita shop full of rarer designs I can find. I saw several of AATP's Vampire series floating around, and they're extremely popular buys for goth lolis. My empire must expand :3
That's one more dream Lolita dress off the checklist❤
17:07 Mar 22 2021
Times Read: 719
My knife bunnies are here ^^
And they're even more adorable in person♥
21:14 Mar 21 2021
Times Read: 758
Moon Wolf JSK by Broken Doll
I mean... A big wolf + tombstones...
And a matching cloak that's bright blue inside.
Yeah. That's a Dark Souls dress. Well, it's not, but it looks to me like a Dark Souls dress. If the wolf had a giant sword in its mouth it would've been a little more on the nose,
Plus it's got a Bloodborne/Castlevania moon xD
The problem is, it's completely sold out. There is one I've found... But it's a size medium. Which would be fine if the bust wasn't about 36 inches around.
God damn tiny chested Lolita dresses, it's so annoying. I could maybe squeeze into it if I didn't much like breathing xD Well... It's about the same size as my Krad Lanrete, and I can just barely get that across my chest so maybe... I just don't want to spend $250 on a dress I can't wear, but it's so perfect for me.
Is it worth getting breast reduction surgery just to fit better into dresses? I know, I'm only kidding xD Wolfie would scold me for even saying that. My eyes, my legs, and my ass are his favorite physical attributes of mine, but he's pretty fond of the kittens too. Besides, I've had enough necessary surgery, I don't want any I don't actually need, plastic surgery can kiss my imperfect ass.
I gotta think about this one. I could always alter it slightly. Wolf Lolita dresses are pretty rare. There's also a Holy Wolf OP + Bonnet by Angelic Pretty up, but it's like $550+. It would definitely fit better, but that's a lot for one dress. Ugh, I hate feeling so conflicted, I want them both xD
01:51 Mar 19 2021
Times Read: 805
I've got a nice Hot Topic haul coming in.
Nightmare Before Christmas, Inuyasha, and strawberry milk/tarot cards/kawaii girl shit xD
I did buy that Inuyasha skirt at one point, but sold it because the size was too big. They did have it left in a small so hopefully that fits better, plus I got the cute chibi tank top :3
I like Hot Topic for more casual looks. I think if you go there looking for serious Gothic stuff you'll be majorly disappointed, but if your style is flexible like mine then you can find some good stuff. As much as I love my Gothic looks, I'm also a huge nerd, and I love looking super kawaii sometimes so it's just a balancing act on what my personality feels like day to day. I can't imagine limiting myself to one style, and looking one way every day, it's just too boring for me❤
20:02 Mar 18 2021
Times Read: 837
Omg, this bunny bag...
It's so fucking adorable, I think the Universe made it just for me ^^ It'll look perfect with my knife bunny set :3
And it's the perfect size for carrying ropes, whips, handcuffs, gags, heels, etc. You know, the basics xD
So now what does Bunny desire...
The world is bursting with kawaii things that I must have.
23:46 Mar 17 2021
Times Read: 868
Full Flurry Moon Boots.
Super gorgeous, faux fur, and bats. They're also super soft, and fluffy inside. Obviously, I won't really be able to wear these til next Fall... Well, actually, Wolfie lives right next to the mountains so maybe up there too. I actually had Wolfie on video chat with my mother yesterday xD He's so funny, even after all this time he's still super proper with my parents. But it's good that he cares that they like him. My mom was talking to me after, and she said, "He's so funny. He's definitely an... interesting guy."
Mom, you have no idea xD
02:51 Mar 17 2021
Times Read: 916
Random Wolfie quote of the day...
"I mean, random people are assholes so I`m not letting you out in public looking like a slice of cheesecake."
I don't know why it's so funny to me xD
He also said this made him think of me.
Especially when he tells me, "Bad Girls don't get to giggle during punishment."
I'm very giggly in general so ya know...
02:48 Mar 16 2021
Times Read: 968
They're so me xD
I'm actually going to use the bracelets as hair ties for my pigtails.
Wolfie has been trying to decide what kind of tattoo he'd like to get for me. He really wants me to get Fenrir on my back for him so I told him he needs a bunny.
"Sure, an adorable, mini chainsaw wielding bunny."
He really gets me xD
Though I don't think I'd really want him to get something that silly for me.
He asked me, "Is it weird how hot I think you being so violently protective of me is?"
I mean, being hot and territorial is kind of a yandere's thing❤
04:01 Mar 15 2021
Times Read: 1,036
I give up... I'm simply going to have to venture... online to get the DS3 covenant rings. Like I've said, I'm not big on online gaming, that's much more Wolfie's thing. He loves MMORPGS, he's always trying to get me into them with him, which I appreciate, and will more than happily comply with when he builds me a shiny new PC. And bunny ear headphones. And a pretty pink gaming chair. He said my gaming chair is going to need shackles installed.
"But Wolfie, you really don't have to force me to play video games."
"The shackles are for a different game, my love..."
Aw, I love him :3
My Internet has also recently gotten loads faster so I'm actually fully capable of playing online now. Still plan on getting a ps5 eventually even with a new PC, still don't think it's worth it yet, probably not for at least a couple more years. How long was the ps4 out before I bought mine... Probably 3/4 years I think. Wolfie always tells me that once he builds me a PC I'll realize how obsolete consoles are. Doesn't matter, still going to get one eventually, I'm stubborn, and loyal, he should know that by now.
Seriously though. Those rings, you can technically get them offline. But it is such. A. Grind. The items you need to trade for them are an extremely rare drop, and when you need 30 of them, and you've gotten one in an hour of grinding, I think it's pretty unrealistic to get them like that. Possible, ridiculously tedious.
I've been working on a second run-through of P5 despite telling myself I wasn't going to xD Although I don't think I've touched my PS4 since like last Monday since Wolfie has been keeping me busy on video chat, and the kids kept me busy all weekend. And let's face it, those things are much more important to me than gaming. Hard to admit, but totally true xD Especially since Wolfie is often super busy so getting him on cam for 6+ hours is like a ridiculous amount of attention. He told the guy he's been working for to figure shit out because he has a life, and needs to get the fuck home already. I thought he said the project he was managing was done, but I guess I misheard him because it is not, and it feels neverending. Sure, he's making really good money, but at the cost of being far away. He has to come home eventually, and get his shit together, he's not even sure what he's going to do when he gets back. I think he's just done with numbers, he's completely burnt out in analysis, and his priorities have changed to where he's not riding solo anymore so he wants to have more time for his personal life. His career path, and goals when we met did not really allow for any personal life, and on one hand I feel kind of bad because he was set to be super successful, make loads of money, basically have it all careerwise, but is it worth sacrificing personal relationships, hobbies, love, fun in general to attain that? I do not think so, and his entire viewpoint has tilted into agreement with me. I never gave him an ultimatum, I never said it was his job or me, I always said I'd support him 100% no matter what, and we'd figure it out whatever he chose, and he chose that personal happiness is more important than professional success. It's not like he's coming home, and working at fucking Dairy Queen xD He has something lined up already where he said he'd be making probably slightly less money, but he'd have a lot more time so that's what's important. Not less enough to affect anything, just a little less saved in the bank. I don't worry about his job or his money, I know he's got it handled, it's just the time that we need now, and he's handling that so progress. The progress bar is moving, we are almost ready for a level up, just a little more XP xD I feel like things are really coming together. A lot of people judge our relationship on having not been moved in together yet. You have to realize, Wolfie has been in an incredibly fragile, volatile emotional health since we met, and basically all his life. You can't take someone who's been alone for years, and self-sufficient, and set in their ways, and shove another
person onto them all at once, it takes time, and adjusting. It took a long time to get him emotionally stable, and he's still not completely, and will never be 100%, but he's better now than he's ever been, and we agree that it's time. People have this misconception that if you're not moved in, and married within a year of meeting someone then your relationship is a failure, but most of those people who rush it end up being miserable. Wolfie, and I have always gone at our own pace, doing things our way, and we've been in a pretty solid relationship. Sure, there have been times when things were terrible, mostly due to his emotional instability, but we've always reached the other side together, and that's what matters. I have a tremendous amount of hope for this year, this is the year that we get our shit together. Or the world violently explodes. Could go either way.
03:56 Mar 13 2021
Times Read: 1,155
So $286 later...❤
I ordered the Full Flurry Moon Boots
Been wanting these for awhile, and they recently went on clearance so they ended up being less than £50. I also got like ten dresses just to sell for probably $50-75 each. A bunch of clearance dresses suddenly popped back up in stock so I grabbed as many as around $300 would allow. If I don't set a limit for myself, I'll end up blowing like $1000 all at once xD Which would be a lot of stuff to sell, but I also already don't hardly have the space for what I have. I buy hangers every other weekend, and I never have enough no matter how much I seem to sell xD And Wolfie is not too keen on having to move 500 lbs of shoes, and clothes to the house so I kinda need to start to clear some stuff out before he gets back. I have things that are definitely keep, but a lot that I'm like, eh, I could live without this, I'll see what people are willing to pay. Which gets me in trouble because then people are like, "Omg, why is this so expensive you scammer." Even though it specifically states to make me offers... Some people are just fuckin dumb, but I definitely have more positive encounters, I meet a lot of good people. I love what I do, I'm glad I get to professionally dress people, it's awesome❤
21:16 Mar 12 2021
Times Read: 1,229
So, the lawyer finally got back to me on my dog bite case. Almost a year ago, I was attacked by a dog while I was out for a bike ride with my 9 year old nephew. I had taken him up the street to buy him an ice cream, and on our way back we passed a house with a couple people, and dogs in the yard. It was lucky because my nephew always rides ahead of me, but at that moment he had stopped to look at something on the ground, and I rode ahead of him. That's when I passed the yard, on the opposite side of the street, and the two dogs charged at me. I knew I couldn't outrun them, especially since I was riding uphill, and being knocked to the ground trying would probably have made things even worse so I stopped, planted my feet, and braced to be bitten. It was only one of them that bit me, the other stood back, and barked, and I wouldn't really say it hurt, it was just like a hard pinch. It actually bit me twice, one deep enough that it bled all night even though I didn't need stitches, but they left some decent scars in the back of my left thigh. The owner of the dogs was also hysterically screaming at them so I figured it would probably be better to stay there where she could possibly get them off of me than run further away. She was more upset than I was after she got them away, and of course, she blamed it on her kids saying they were just trying to protect the kids, and they weren't supposed to be outside of the house, but the kids left the door open. Look, I understand having dogs for protection, the world is a scary place. But if your dogs can't be outside without attacking people, not even in your yard, not even on your side of the street, completely across the road, that's an issue. I was nowhere near her children. And I didn't blame the dogs, I didn't ask that they be put down even though the one is clearly over aggressive. I didn't ask for anything other than my medical bill payed for. And it was only like $250, I didn't need shots or stitches or anything, they just cleaned it, put me on an antibiotic, and sent me home. But on top of that, I did also get a check today for $216.19 xD That's the very specific price of being bitten by a dog apparently. I wasn't even the one who took them to court, the city did that so it's a nice little blessing my way. Honestly, my nephew was more traumatized than anyone, he was riding up behind me when it bit me, he saw the whole thing, and he was completely powerless to do anything. He still feels bad that he couldn't help me, he'll still tell me sometimes, "I was gonna kick that dog off of you..." Nah, little dude, cause then it would've attacked you, and that bitch owner would've gotten a pavement facial with my foot planted on the back of her head. Control your damn animals, and if you can't, you shouldn't have them. But I'll probably use some of the money for something nice for him, he deserves it.
I love it when the Universe let's me know that it's got my back.
Like I mentioned, some hag decided to attack me last night over the price of a dress. Hilariously, about 15 minutes later, that exact dress sold for my full asking price. Yep... Ya see that, bitch? Not only that, it sold within a couple hours of me posting it so clearly I wasn't asking for too much. So she decided to go on a rampage, and make a post about me being a huge scammer with overpriced, used items. I'm not sure how many times I can point out to her that most of my stuff is brand fucking new. Just because you're buying it from me, and not from the actual brand, doesn't mean it's been worn, it's still new. Some people reached out to me to laugh at her about it, one who has had problems with her before, no one is taking her seriously, and if anything it's making people come in, and check my stuff out to see if I'm really as horrible as she's desperately trying to make me seem. The thing is, I can be the biggest psychotic bitch you've ever met, I think most women are fully capable of that. But for the most part, I'm extremely fuckin reasonable, I'm polite, I don't want to fight with people. If you're a full on dumbass though who refuses to act like an adult with me, I have no problem going on the attack, and shaming the shit out of you. I deal with my 7 nieces, and nephews on a regular basis, I have no patience for grownass people who act like 10 year olds. If you don't like someone, here's a thought, don't interact with them. It's like the constant petty rating war bullshit that goes on here. If you dislike someone, like genuinely want nothing to do with them, why are you hounding their profiles every time they make one, and issuing them a rate that you know will force them into a reaction towards you? Go ahead, and say, "I pay for my profiles, it's my right to rate how I see fit, whahwhahwhah." Dude. Grow the fuck up. Cause apparently, it's also your right to act like an immature lil bullying bitch, huh? And don't act like you can't tell whose profile it is when you're rating them. These same people in this same fucking lump of ineptitude have the exact same boringass layouts for profile after profile after profile, you know exactly when it's them especially if you're one of them, and then they bitch that people "steal their creativity." If you did something that was worth stealing then I could see the issue, but when you put so-called "hours" into your profiles, and they come out looking like that, they're the basic of the basic. You're proud of them, that's fine, but let's be real, ya ain't doing anything spectacular there. And I know, who am I to talk when my profile is so bare? I haven't had a premium in like 5+ years because I just don't care, there's no one here I feel the need to impress, and quite honestly, I have better things to do. But back in good ole days of VR when this place was much more vibrant, I absolutely did my profiles up so I know what I'm talking about when I say, it's not difficult to code your profile as long as you have a reasonable amount of intelligence. Those people who say, "It took me all day to redo my profile," and I look at it, and cock my head like... this took you all day? Mmmkay.
Goddamn, I don't even remember what I was originally talking about xD Right, immaturity. I deal with actual children constantly, I can not deal with adults who refuse to act like adults, and this place is a nest of the socially dysfunctional which is why I'm extremely selective of who I really speak to. I've met some awesome people here, some who I even interact with offsite, but for the most part, nah. I get it because I tend to go off on people occasionally, but I say what I need to say, and then I'm done, I shut the door, I don't circlejerk with the people I don't like perpetuating an endless daily cycle of shit. If we have a problem, Imma say what I need to say, and be done. Not gonna leave you negative honor usually, not gonna send my friends after you, I'll simply go on with my life like you don't exist because your existence is is below my notice, and not worthy of my attention. Why waste your time on that? Especially if you actually have an illness which puts your longterm future in question, why be on here at all, wasting your precious time on people you claim not to like? And I don't mean that as an attack on anyone with a legitimate illness, I myself have dealt with a lifelong illness that puts my future at risk, and you know what I don't like doing? Wasting my time on people I don't like. It just doesn't make sense.
I'm just sayin what everyone is thinking. If you don't have better things to do, find some.
07:31 Mar 12 2021
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So I had a disgruntled person message me to tell me that my prices are embarrassingly high for used clothing, and that nothing from Killstar sells for over $50 xD
It's just like... If you're going to call someone out, know your facts, get them straight. Otherwise you just look like a huge moron.
First of all, 98% of my items are brand new with tags, most still in the original plastic packaging they came in. Even if it doesn't have tags, I generally don't sell anything I've worn, it's still new..
Second, most of my prices are below retail. Not by a lot, but usually slightly below. The problem is that some people will find certain items on clearance, and if you're charging over the sale price they label you a scammer. The items aren't worth any less than what they sold for originally, and are worth even more, in my opinion, if they're completely sold out. Supply, and demand, learn yourself something.
Third, while there are many cheap options from Killstar, some of their stuff, like shoes, are damn expensive. Again, you can catch some great deals on clearance, but I am not a garage sale.
Fourth, I have to pay seller's fees. Which means, the site takes 10-20% of my sale. So if a dress retails for $65, and I sell it for $80, I'm only getting $64 from that, below what the actual dress cost. So people think it's so greedy to charge so much, but I'm not even getting the full amount of that.
Fifth, I welcome offers. If someone comes to me, and tells me they can do $65 instead of $80, I'll probably take it. I generally price my items higher to keep people from making me insultingly low offers. It occasionally still happens, but I find that more people will offer my actual price range for something if I mark it up a little higher. If I mark something up by $15-20, they feel like they're getting a really good deal to get that $20 off in an offer. I also like to give out free shipping, and people make the mistake of thinking that free shipping is free for everyone. No, I have to pay for that myself, but if you're a good buyer, polite, kind, respectful, and don't give me any trouble, I'm happy to do it for you.
What number are we on? Anyway, I'm pretty sure this bitch was so salty because nothing in my items would actually fit her. She was commenting on an XL dress, and I don't mean for this to sound offensive, but she looked like she was probably pushing a 4-5XL from her pictures, there's no way that dress would have fit her. No offense, but just, nah. Said dress I had listed for $85 which is right around what it originally sold for, brand new, and she tells me it's overpriced and used. I swear, adult illiteracy is running rampant, people need to learn to fuckin read. I've had a helluva week dealing with idiots who clearly couldn't read a goddamn listing. That's the price of being in retail, I suppose.
But hey, I sold a purse for $150 today, a pair of shoes for $80 yesterday, 2 dresses + a jacket for $200 the day before, obviously I know what I'm doing, fuckers. If you don't want to buy something, that's fine, no one's forcing you, but why feel the need just to bitch at me about it? Do you think it's going to change anything? Will it really make you feel better to have me make you look stupid? Cause that's 100% all that's going to happen. I'll either have everyone laughing at you or I'm gonna make you cry, probably both, let's be honest.
I'm just not fit to deal with stupid people. There are people who handle stupidity well, I am not one of them.
04:34 Mar 12 2021
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I've been outed! It was me, I was a porn star all along!
You realize this looks nothing like me, yeah? Where are the lip rings? Or the tattoos? You could at least try to edit those in or find someone who actually looks like me.
Like my best friend said, "That picture is about as legit as that icing." xD
Personally, I find nothing wrong with the stripper/porn star industry as long as it's not something that you're forced into. If you can get people to hand you money for how you look, do it, babe, and don't feel bad about it. Everyone needs to make a living. That's not going to shame me in the slightest. I'm not gonna say I've never stripped or made a video, or a few... But the awesome thing about badass girls like me? We give zero fucks what anyone thinks about us. Especially people who have to hide behind anonymous screen names xD I mean, if you're gonna come at me, come at me for real, motherfucker. But nah, you're just a scared little bitch :3
If you have an issue with how confident, and comfortable I am with my body, that's tough fuckin shit. For you. I never understood people who try to shame beautiful women, or any woman for showing their bodies. It's natural. Believe it or not, underneath your clothes, you are naked... Gasp! I know, right? How scandalous. And it's just awful how you, as an adult with free goddamn will, are forced to look at me. I'm not saying the world should be one big nudist colony, or that it's always appropriate, but I feel like too many grownass adults need to get over shamefulnnes of their own bodies.
If you think I'm a dirty little slut, you are damn fucking straight, I am my Master's dirty little everything :3 I am not ashamed. My ass belongs to one man, and he thinks it's pretty fucking hot when I show off. I'm guessing you're someone who knows nothing about the bdsm community... We're generally pretty fucking loyal to our partners. A real Dom, and sub relationship usually means extreme commitment and loyalty. Does my Dom know that I'm a flirty lil tease? Absolutely. And boy, do I get punished for it xD I mean, a Kitten really needs to be put in their place, and reminded who they belong to occasionally. But I never truly forget. All this is property of one man. Call me filthy, call me dirty, cause sweetie that's gentle foreplay where I'm from❤
Now I'm guessing you're the same person who took all my pictures off of here, and uploaded them to a porn site. I am really embarrassed about that though... I look like a real prude compared to all those ladies spread open with their holes on fleek. Ya got me good there xD
Seriously, what's your goal here? Besides making yourself look stupid, and having everyone laugh at you. Come out, come out, let's discuss it :3
If I had to profile you I'd say you're definitely female. This behavior is very indicative of someone who's jealous. I'd say you have body issues, little confidence, and zero self-esteem. You probably see everything I have, and naturally have chosen to hate me for what you lack. The thing is, hating me won't make you pretty, won't get you a boyfriend, won't make you happy. You gotta get up, and make positive changes for yourself. I've been there, ya know? Overweight, unattractive, in bad relationship after bad relationship. But then I took control of my life, worked on myself, tried my best to fix my own shitty situation. Now I'm the happiest I've ever been, but it doesn't come for free, and it doesn't come from hate. You can have everything I have, you just gotta work for it. And it starts with finding positivity. I genuinely hope you do that for yourself because this just ain't healthy.
07:19 Mar 11 2021
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I can definitely tell I'm getting old...
I used to be able to marathon 24+ hours straight on the phone. Nowadays, I'll spend 6 hours on the phone with Wolfie, and thoroughly enjoy every second it, but as soon as he hangs up I'm just like GODDAMN I AM EXHAUSTED.
Part of that is because he tends to call me in the evening, and we'll talk until he's decided he needs to sleep. But our conversations also have waves. It starts really calm, and casual then suddenly it'll flare up into super hot, intense, sexual. Then it goes back down to very relaxed, then it shoots back up to intense. A constant push, and pull on each other's energy. That, repeatedly, over a six hour period tends to leave us both really tired, but also extremely satisfied beyond just the base sexual needs, it's moreso heavily emotionally satisfied. He just gives me so much stability, and comfort, and I'm grateful for that. Whenever he's around or just after getting off the phone, I feel so comfortable and safe, I never sleep better than on those nights. He's like my snuggly warm blanket, my happiness, my security, my comfort. That's how the man you love is supposed to make you feel. He's the only one who's ever really done that for me. I'm glad it's him❤
21:06 Mar 10 2021
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I found it♥
The Spoiled Snowball Bunny Weekender Bag♥
It's so fucking adorable. I mean, it's a bunny, duh, we do tend to be pretty cute. I got it for a great price too, it originally sold for $68, I nabbed it for $65. It's brand new, completely sold out, and I didn't have to overpay. Lucky bunny strikes again, the Universe bestows, and blesses♥
And I actually had money on my account on the particular app that I had completely forgotten about xD It was like finding a $50 bill in your sock drawer. So I only really lost like $20.
I could flip it, and probably sell it for $200-300... Buuuut I'm obviously going to keep it for myself :3 I mean, look at it, it was made for me ^^
I'm sure Wolfie will think it's adorable. I like to occasionally show him all my new stuff when we're on video, here's my new purse, my new heels, my new lingerie, my new dress. I finally remembered to show him my Skeletor dress a couple days ago. He refers to himself as Skeletor sometimes because he's so tall and thin xD And he's constantly surrounded by incompetent idiots. He was telling me we need to work on getting me my driver's license when he gets back. That's right, I'm 32, and I do not have a license. Gasp. Look, I know how to drive, I can drive if necessary, but I don't enjoy it, I don't like doing it. I asked him why he can't just drive me around forever, we could get him a cute little hat xD
"Well, as much as I enjoy driving her royal majesty around there are times when I'm not around, and it's my job to make sure you can handle yourself if anything happens while I'm not there."
I get it, I will begrudgingly comply. Besides, he's always saying how hot I'd look in a convertible. Maybe a pink convertible with a fluffy bunny tail... For that, I might be persuaded to try harder xD
04:55 Mar 10 2021
Times Read: 1,686
So much Sailor Moon, Moon Bunny♥
I just discovered LittleforBig. Now, I may be a lot of things... I am not a Little. I don't have a problem with the lifestyle or anything, it's just not for me despite me being overwhelmingly adorable. I would say there are aspects of that particular subgenre of BDSM in mine and Wolfie's lifestyle, I love plushies, and cute things, and pink, and drawing him pictures, and being extremely bratty/sassy at times. And he takes very good care of me, he's very protective, and loves to discipline me. But I don't have Little space. I don't ever revert mentally or emotionally to a younger disposition. And I have absolutely no interest in calling anyone "Daddy." We've been over how I feel about my father.
I'd still take Heath over Joaquin as much as I loved the Joker movie. Yes, I loved it, I admit it. It was a very realistic portrayal of mental illness, from what I've experienced. I saw a lot of Wolfie in it. Especially after he kills his mother xD Wolfie actually told me he hasn't been in contact with his mother most of the time he's been gone. Proud bunny♥ Look, if you knew his mother, if you knew the things she did you him as a kid, you'd understand why that's such a good thing.
But being a Kitten, and being a Little aren't super different, and can be interchangeable. Not for me though, 100% Kitten :3 Of course, being a sub, I'm not just a Kitten, I am many things. I am molded, shaped, willed into form by my Master's desires. Whatever he wants, I make it happen. I am the embodiment of every one of my Master's fantasies. We just agree that Kitten is my main, best, favorite form.
But being that I do love cute things, it's exciting to find kawaii clothing, especially lingerie. I also love onesies. Look, anything I can wear without putting pants on is good with me xD And they're very good for snuggling :3 Who wouldn't want to train, and snuggle an adorable Pikachu?
00:49 Mar 10 2021
Times Read: 1,710
Is that a dress + jacket set covered in pastel dragons...
Oh yes, oh yes, and it's making me unbearably happy.
19:28 Mar 09 2021
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I've got a couple of ladies who have decided to target me on a Lolita resell site... I have a skirt listed there for $150 with free shipping. They've taken it upon themselves to decide that I'm charging too much for it. The skirt itself is sold out from the actual brand site, it's brand new, and it states in my listing that I'm not even sure if I really want to sell it, it's simply listed for offers. But these self-righteous hags are trying to publicly shame me in my comments into taking it down.
It's hilarious... Lolita items, especially dresses, often sell for 2x the price, and more all the time. Why not go harass the people trying to sell a $200 Angelic Pretty dress for $500? Because that's literally everywhere. How is that any better? Value is in the eye of the beholder. Just because you're a cheap whore who can't afford something doesn't mean it's overpriced. I'm trying very hard to be polite, but the platform doesn't allow me to block them or delete their hateful comments, only relist the item. I don't really want to publicly berate these morons, it's bad for business, other people get very, "Is that how you talk to your customers?" No... That's how I talk to cheap, nosey sluts who need to mind their own business if they don't plan on buying from me. I've sold over $50,000 within a couple years, I know what I'm doing. Normally I enjoy it when people try to come after me because it's fun to make bullies cry, but I'm trying to be on my best behavior here, and they just won't let me play nice. These dainty loli bitches have no idea who they're poking at. I've politely attempted to point that despite them displaying possible illiteracy, it does in fact say that I don't expect it to sell for the asking price, it's listed for OFFERS. I'm not sure how many times I have to say it, they've got this pack mentality that they're all feeding on each other's negativity as though they're making some kind of point.
"I can't believe you're charging that much for a skirt."
"This is still in stock on their site, lol"
"You can get this in Europe for like €10."
All of these things are wholly inaccurate. I even posted a picture of the website stating it is no longer in stock. I really fuckin hate people who pick such a dumbass bridge to die on. Who can't just be like, ok, I was wrong, my bad... They defend their wrong, and stupid information to the death even when you're shoving the proof right in their face. It's a perfect example of human ignorance at its finest. Unfortunately for them, I don't really give a fuck, I'm not intimidated by idiots. I deal with people like this all the time, it's just an unfortunate site flaw that I can't simply block them. I basically told them that I hope they eventually find meaning in their lives beyond stalking, and harassing me xD I know I'm awesome, but... If you have nothing better to do than wait for me to comment, like obsessively watching for me to say something so you can immediately respond, you need to get a life, and have a little more self worth. Just sayin'.
04:56 Mar 08 2021
Times Read: 1,807
I spent the night at my brother's house last night. His kids adore me, and they just moved into a new place so they had me over for the night. My brother was talking to me alone out on their balcony, and he asked me, "So, has dad ever apologized to you for the years of neglect in our childhood?" It completely took me by surprise, I didn't really know how to respond. I'm not close to my dad. I don't really even speak to him unless it's necessary. And it's not out of a feeling of resentment or animosity. I would say, if anything, I'm just kind of indifferent towards him. I don't really care whether he's there or not. I guess that's kind of sad to say of your own father. I don't necessarily share my brother's feelings of childhood abandonment. My dad was fresh out of the military, had 4 kids, and a wife who was constantly in, and out of the mental ward, he wasn't around much because he was constantly working to provide for us. I get that, I'm not mad about it. My issue with him goes a bit deeper than that. When I was a very small child, I was an absolute daddy's girl, I loved my father more than anything. And then I got sick. Sickness, weakness isn't something he's ever handled well. So that created a divide. And the entire time I was incredibly sick for years, he treated me like my illness was a personal inconvenience to him. I remember once very vividly that my mother, and I needed to be picked up from the hospital after surgery, and my parents fighting in the front seat on the ride home about how troublesome it was to have to pick me up because he had things to do. Your child shouldn't have to hear that, they shouldn't have to remember it.
But that's a lot of my memories about him, that's about how they go. He equally didn't handle my mother's problems well either. He'll hear me talking to her about Wolfie, and his depression, and stuff because she went through all that too, and my dad will try to say he knows all about it because he handled her so well when she was going through it, and my mom is just like, no... You made things worse on a regular basis, you idiot xD And I told my brother all this, I guess he's been talking with my dad about how he regrets a lot of things. My 2 year old baby niece looks just like me when I was her age, and she is just as evil, and stubborn, and sassy, and she is my dad's favorite out of his seven grandchildren, hands down. And while she was tugging on my arm to go back inside, and play with her my brother said, "You know why dad likes her so much, right? She reminds him of you. He said he regrets royally fucking up with you more than anything." What a hallmark fuckin moment. He is a lot better of a grandpa than he ever was a dad though, and I'm glad because they deserve that, my grandparents were, and still are pretty shit. It's weird because I was never abused, nothing like that, I always had food on my plate, a roof over my head, clothes on my back, but I do obviously have some abandonment issues. I think I hold together pretty well though. Like I said, I hold no ill will towards my father, but if I never spoke to him again for the rest of my life, I don't think it would really impact me. Maybe that'll change, someday.
Wolfie said something to me recently about how, in his experience, Doms and subs often become what they are through some kind of trauma. That a lot of subs simply want to feel wanted, cherished, to have someone that's going to be there no matter what. I'd say that's pretty accurate to me. It's certainly not all of the reasons I enjoy being a sub, but it's part. Ya know, another interesting thing, my dad has never liked having anything around him that he couldn't control. You know me, I'm pretty wild, and he likes to tell my nieces, and nephews that when I'd get in trouble as a child, he'd try to punish me, and I'd laugh about it. I still do that, in a completely different context xD I've always been the defiant one. But Wolfie says the best subs are the ones that you may own, and keep for a lifetime, but you know you'll never fully tame. They've always got that wild, mischievous, disobedient streak... He personally loves that about me. He says he loves that I'm occasionally, purposely a pain in his ass xD I know it's hard to believe I could ever be a pain in anyone's ass, lil angel bunny me... But if I don't push his buttons from time to time, he may have no reason to punish me :3
Wolfie, and I are such a good match, even our completely fucked up issues seem to align with each other, ah, true love :3
07:58 Mar 06 2021
Times Read: 1,857
Wolfie is really amazing, but I told him he's always listing off his negative characteristics. We were discussing people who cheat, and the fact that despite spending such long periods of time apart, I really don't worry about him cheating which is kind of odd because he's easily the most desirable guy I've ever been with. Of course, every other guy I've ever fallen for has been a huge garbage loser so there's not much competition, but still, he's what I would consider desirable. And immediately he goes on about his depression, and his family, and his work schedule, just absolutely every negative thing about himself. Which is true, his depression sucks, his family sucks, and he works way too much. But then there are all the good things about him. He's very kind, he has a huge heart, he's very devoted and monogamous, he loves animals and gets along well with children, he's extremely physically attractive, he's super intelligent, he cooks well, he's very clean, and he's great in bed. And, in a more personal direction, he's a huge fucking nerd which just meshes so well with me. He loves video games, anime, comics, Star Wars, he gets every single one of my references. Another big thing, if I ever need him to handle something, it gets handled. Being a strong, independent woman who can kick ass on my own is great, it's fine, but it's nice to have someone that's there, that I can rely on, who has my back.
As a Dom, and a sub Wolfie, and I are extremely compatible, but it goes so much deeper than that. We're literally also best friends, we can have nights where we just eat pizza, drink wine, play games, and cuddle, and that's really all I want out of life, forever, is just that with him. But we're also intense lovers, we're very emotionally open, and connected. Wolfie says that in his opinion, American men often cheat because they don't know what they want, they don't know how to get it, and they've been taught to repress themselves from going after it. In my experience with men, that's absolutely true. Wolfie was raised around the world, he approached me without hesitation, struck up an engaging conversation, then tried to give me his email address xD And I was like, umm, well I'm gonna give you my phone number like a normal person xD But ya know, he's unique, and adorable. I'm just saying, Wolfie has so many positive qualities that vastly outweigh the negative. His depression is his main downside, and it's difficult for most people to understand. Most people tell someone who's depressed to just cheer up, and get over it, but that doesn't work with real depression, especially clinical depression. When you're sad, and hurting, and everything feels dark, and hopeless, and there's no specific reason for it, it's just how your brain feels, how do you fight that? It's not easy. Just watching him struggle isn't easy, I can't imagine the struggle itself. But that's another admirable characteristic, he's so fucking strong. He has all of this amazingness that he just doesn't recognize in himself. And I know that's another symptom of his depression, and childhood trauma. He lived so long underneath someone who constantly told him how worthless he is, that he didn't deserve food or air or life, those scars don't disappear just because he's finally in a good place. But he's gotten a lot better, and I'm proud of him, and I love him immensely. I couldn't have wished a better person into this universe to be by my side.
10:07 Mar 04 2021
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When Wolfie, and I are on the phone, and it's super late...
Wolfie: Ok bunny, it's almost 4am, I need to sleep.
Bunny: But... Tell me more about *insert random question or subject*
*an hour or two later of Wolfie ceaselessly talking...*
Wolfie: Ok bunny, seriously, I love you, I'll call you later, I have to sleep.
Bunny: But I just wanna know one more thing...
The perfect plan, keep him talking to keep him from leaving xD He's a talker, it's easy to hold him hostage by bringing up things that make him talk. Tell me again about your views on 50 Shades, and ... Yeah, that's an easy 3 hour conversation xD And you know he knows my schemes, but he loves me too much to hang up on me. I just love when he's in a good mood, laughing, and flirting, and teasing, and talking my ear off for hours. He told me, " I'm so organized, you know. I've always tried hard to keep everything controlled. But then you were like this bunny bomb that went off in my world, and brought all this cuteness, and color and chaos."
Silly Wolfie, you can't control bunny chaos :3
"Well," he said to me, "A nice, long collared session with a riding crop might remind you who controls what."
Gee, I dunno, Master, you might've lost your touch...
When he gets back, I'm absolutely going to get what I deserve, and love every second of it...
Ugh, it's inhuman how much I miss him❤
21:44 Mar 03 2021
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Ever since Wolfie found me, I've been a Kitten. I've never been insecure about my submissive identity, I've never not known who I was in our lifestyle, I've always been his Kitten. Even if I play pretend that I'm a maid, or a secretary, a fox, a pony, a fuckin fairy elf princess, whatever, I'm still Master's Kitten and Wolfie's Bunny, always. I'm most comfortable, and confident as his Kitten. Even before he named me Bunny, he called me Kitten.
I've never known what it's like to be with an abusive Dom. Wolfie is the furthest thing from abusive, and when we first started training years ago he made sure that one of the first things I learned was, "You should never submit out of fear or intimidation. You should only submit if you believe I am worthy of your submission. Submission is a gift given to a Dom, true submission can not be forced."
I dunno, sometimes I see people hopping from one Dom to another, complaining that one after another they're all abusive. If it were me stuck in this cycle, I don't think I would look for yet another Dom to blame when things ultimately fall apart again. I think I'd take some time to myself to figure out what's wrong with me that I keep falling into these so-called abusive situations. Is it insecurity? Is it desperation? I've been there in vanilla relationships, man after man after man, trying to find one who could fix what was wrong with me because there just had to be THE ONE that could do that. But there wasn't. I had to turn inwards, and figure myself out. And after I did Wolfie found me, and he's helped me a lot, healed me a lot, but he didn't pick the pieces up, and fit them back together, I had to do that for myself. It's an ongoing process, I don't think anyone out there will tell you that I'm completely stable xD
I just feel like, from what I've seen, a lot of subs think there's going to be a Dom who fixes everything in their life, and a good Dom will help, but they can't do everything, they're not a goddamn fairy godmother, get your head outta your ass, and explore some personal growth. Stop waiting for someome to break open that glass coffin, bust outta that bitch, and save yourself, yourself. That's one of the best parts of being a sub, in my opinion, such a beautiful journey of self-discovery. You don't get that when you wall yourself up, blaming everyone else for the shitty situations you put yourself in. Belonging to someone doesn't mean you have zero personal responsibility, and if that's how you see it then you probably shouldn't complain about how they treat you.
My advice to any sub is you're the only person who can decide what you're really worth, be worth being treated well. If you feel like you have no one to turn to, you're wrong, there's a whole community out there full of Doms, and especially subs who will be willing to listen, and give you advice, and be there for you. Not every sub is a tryhard bitch who lives to shove their self-proclaimed titles down other people's throats, and look down on you. There are some good ones :3
06:20 Mar 03 2021
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Wolfie's depression has spiraled deeper, and deeper the last couple months. I realized a long time ago that there's absolutely nothing I can do for him, aside from simply be there, so I try to keep myself positive, and happy because I know that if I let his stuff affect me then he'll feel worse, and completely pull away, and that will definitely affect me. I miss him so much during these times. He's there, I can talk to him, I can see him, I can hear his voice, and he tries so hard not to show me how much he's hurting because he doesn't want me to be sad. But I already know, I always know. There's no hiding when he's not himself. He always apologizes when he gets like this for being annoying, for being a burden, for not being what I deserve. He's wrong about all of that. He'll see someday, I hope. Depression just... there's not even a word powerful enough for how much it sucks. I'm not even the one who has it, I'm a big whiner compared to him, who actually lives with it. I would take it if I could. I'd take it all into me if it meant he could finally be free and happy. I can already hear the lecture he'd give me for even thinking that, "Bunny, no..." He's always telling me no xD Trying to keep me safe. Am I really that self-destructive?
17:39 Mar 02 2021
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Fuck yeah, new shoes♥
They're so adorable, bats, and stripes are two of my favorite things, and the height on these babies... I love being short enough that even in heels, I'm still short xD
And a new dress.
I actually bought the bodycon version of this dress with these little skeleton demons on it sometime last year, and fell in love with them, they're so cute I had to have this version. This one is a lot more casual, it had sold out, but then one in my size suddenly popped up so I grabbed it. Lucky bunny.
Last is this goth as fuck top.
Yeah, I dunno, I thought it was cute xD And it's a bit oversized, pretty long so I don't necessarily need to wear pants underneath, maybe some cute tights or knee highs. Pants are just uncomfortable, I only ever wear them when I go horseback riding, otherwise I can't stand my legs being in clothing prison xD
So as of right now I don't have ANYTHING coming in. Like I said, I held off on buying anything while I was dealing with the big shipping mess. I have managed to get in contact with all my buyers, and they all seem very understanding so I'm hoping everything gets to its designated household by the end of the week without problem. Everything is finally tracking so that's a relief. The problem now is that since the app is telling me they can't update the tracking number on the orders, the buyers can all say they never received their items, and I won't get paid. The labels are the exact same labels that the app gave me, the tracking numbers are essentially the same, but because I skipped taking them to FedEx(which I was told to do by the FedEx courier), and took them directly to USPS the tracking numbers all now have an extra two numbers in front, and are therefore, not tracking properly through the app. It's just a bunch of bullshit, basically, and customer service told me, "We've made a note of it on your sales," but if a buyer decides to claim they never got their stuff, and cancel, they will ultimately side with them, and I'm just out everything. So hopefully my buyers will be honest. I have the tracking numbers, and the receipt from the post office, I have all the proof that I shipped everything, but it won't matter if it's the buyer's word against mine, that's just how it works. Needless to say, I won't be using FedEx ever again because this is ridiculous, and the fact that for 2 weeks absolutely no one could help me from the app, or the drop-off point is just human ineptitude on display. I'm annoyed, but it's in the hands of Fate, hopefully my luck holds out.
Killstar is also massively letting me down. On top of the whole Hades is a fucking cat stupidity, they've had two releases that I absolutely fucking hate. Skulls/crossbones and animal print. These are two things that I don't wear. I like skeletons, but I don't do skulls so much, and animal print... It's just never been my thing, it's nice on animals, but pretty ugly on people. What happened to the ghosts, and bats, and velvet, and spooky? I dunno who's leading their design team, but I wish they'd pull their head out of their ass, this stuff is awful, I guarantee it'll be clearance racked within a couple months. I really need a new brand, something that isn't turning into a huge garbage pile.
02:29 Mar 02 2021
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Annnnnd I'm back to being a redhead.
The blue was nice, I liked it for about a week xD So I had this whole bottle of bright pink dye, and put it over the blue, and now it's like this perfect reddish purple with swirls of blue. It's really pretty. I haven't been a redhead in... 6 years maybe? I miss being blonde xD I'm hoping this color doesn't give me too much trouble, and fades out fairly easily so I don't have to super bleach it again to get it back to perfection. Red is nice though, it's a different vibe.
20:26 Mar 01 2021
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If FedEx had a face, I would punch it so hard right now. I thought that the whole ordeal last Friday was done, but fuck me, no. I noticed that my packages STILL weren't tracking this morning so I went back to the drop-off point, and could see them sitting there, still on the shelf. A different person this time informed me that I needed to take them to the post office, and ship them there. Ok... That's fine, why didn't the first person know that? Or, why did the app I sold these things on tell me to drop them off there instead of the post office? Whatever, doesn't matter, at least they were all still there so easy fix. But then this fucking hag tries to argue that one of the packages isn't mine despite it having my fucking address on it, and me shoving my ID in her face. Omg... Hello? Have you heard? It's national Piss Off Aiyana Day, let's celebrate. So finally I walk out with all three of my packages after possibly, maybe threatening to break an old lady's glasses, but I got them back. Took them to the post office, they took them, scanned them, gave me a receipt, so polite, so easy, I'm all clear. But then as I'm walking from the post office to the car these motherfuckers in a truck driver by honking, and yelling, and carrying on, what the fuck are you looking at, douchbags? I'm in a hoodie, shirt, and shorts, like, not even provocative, no makeup, hair's a mess, get the fuck out of here, today is not the day, assholes, I am having a bad day xD $500 worth of items went out, I need for there to be no more goddamn problems.
On a more positive note, my KVD makeup haul is already here. I ordered this Thursday night, and it's here Monday morning and the shipping was free, and nothing was broken, finally, someone competent.
Lock-it Powder Foundation in 125 Light Ivory
Shade + Light Contour Duo in Lucid and Sombre
Crush on Blush Duo in Gammaray + Nova
XO Vinyl Obsession Kitten Mini Liquid Listicks in Blossom/Carnation/Tulip/Hollyhock
Everlasting Liquid Lipstick in Requiem
Ultra Ink Eyeliner in Trooper
Super Brow Pomade in Taupe
I'm not a huge contour person. Those women who know how to shape their faces into completely different shapes, I have no idea how to do that. But it's nice to have just to play with. One thing about KVD highlighters is that they are super glittery, and their blush is highly pigmented so a little goes a long way. I bought the Fetish Blush + Highlighter set with the eyeshadow palette a couple years ago, and I find that I don't use it often because holy shit, it's some stripper glitter. And of course, Lipstick and Eyeliner are always staple things with me, I probably wear them the most out of any makeup, dark eyeliner + red lipstick is just easy. I really love KVD's packaging on everything, it's super sturdy, made to last. I got everything here for $57, free shipping, taxes included. I think it was around $200 worth of stuff retail so not too bad.
I think I only have one thing coming in right now. I haven't bought much over the weekend while waiting for this shipping mess to clear up. I just hope my buyers aren't too harsh, I did contact all of them to let them know I was on it, I did technically ship the day after purchase on all of them, and this isn't my fault, but some buyers will totally blame the seller for shit like this despite it being out of my control, and only doing what I was instructed to do. At the end of the day, a bad reviews or two won't hurt me, but it'll still suck if it happens. That's just the cost of doing business, sometimes things happen that are beyond your control. Lucky for me, this situation was salvageable so everything's fine, I just need to relax and breathe xD
06:32 Mar 01 2021
Times Read: 2,025
I'm the worst about responding to messages xD
Usually, I have several things on my mind constantly. So if I see a message, I'll usually read it then be like, ok, I'm going to come back to that in just a sec... And then completely forget about it. That's just part of dealing with me, I'm probably not ignoring you on purpose, I'm just a fuckin space cadet, I got space brain. People who talk to me consistently can vouch for the fact that I'm always leaving them on read xD You just gotta nudge me a little bit, remind me that we were having a conversation. I probably seem super rude, but it's not really meant to offend anyone. You'll generally know immediately if I'm actually trying to offend you. It's the same with messaging people first, I almost never message first. If people want to talk to me I'm happy to respond when I don't forget xD But it's just a weird thing that I rarely initiate conversation. Some people get offended by that, especially in relationships, "Why am I always the one who has to text first, whahhh?" It's different when I'm in a relationship with someone though, I definitely initiate more then. Although I definitely need a person who takes the lead. I don't think I'm really an awkward person, but I'm not great about keeping a conversation flowing or starting one. I've spoken with guys where it's straight up been like...
"So what do you wanna talk about?"
"Well, I'd like to know more about you."
"Sure, what do you wanna know?"
""Just tell me about yourself."
It's awkward. I like people who get to know me naturally through speaking with me without asking me 50 questions all at once. That doesn't tell me anything, and it's tedious, and it's boring, and it'll probably make me not want to speak with you. And I need someone to steer that conversation because I'm not good at it. Wolfie is great at steering conversation. That man can talk, and talk, and talk for hours without stopping. And a huge part of that with me is spent flirting... But he speaks so effortlessly. You need to have high Charisma to successfully speak with me long term xD Otherwise, I'll probably get bored, and stop responding. People who endlessly compliment how pretty I am, it's nice the first couple of times, after that it's boring, I need you to display intelligence above the base dick level. Video games are a major subject with me, if you can competently talk with me about Dark Souls, you're in, you've got my attention. If within the first few messages you send to me you tell me, "I tried it, but it was too frustrating so I gave up," I'm gonna think you're a little bitch. If you're already my friend, and you don't like it, that's fine, but if you're new here, and trying to get in with me, and that's one of the first things you say to me, you're not going to hold my interest, we have nothing more to speak about xD If you tell me that, and then tell me how long your dick is, I'm going to show my friends the messages, and laugh at you because fuck, that's weak, and desperate.
I'm just saying... Talking to me, and gaining my friendship is like an NPC quest. You have to have the right stats, and sufficient level xD I probably sound like a snob, I'm really not, I'm super easy to get along with, I'm just picky about who is allowed inside my pretty, pink inner circle :3
And if you immediately thought, "Aiyana, that sounded kinda dirty..." You might just qualify xD
And I know what you're thinking, "Gee, Aiyana, why don't you just respond to messages right when you get them?" Here's the thing, I like to give my response more than a seconds thought. I hate one word responses. If you one word respond to me, I usually won't respond back because to me at that point you're not really putting any effort into it so why should I? Same with one word greetings. 'Sup or hey or hi or whatever, I don't respond to that. It's just rude to go up to someone with nothing to say. I had a guy on here once say to me I look like the kinda girl who causes traffic accidents walking down the sidewalk. That's cheesy as fuck, but it's also kinda great xD It's unique, it's better than, "Hey sexy." When Wolfie first came up to me the first words outta his mouth were, "I see you like Dark Souls..." Wow, what a oneliner, straight to my heart, he had me right there xD If he had walked up to me, and said, "Hey sexy..." I would have literally silently walked away xD I don't understand the caliber of women that sorta thing works on, but for me, the nerdier the better, I guess. Who knows what might happen if you show me your original Pokemon deck, and Gameboy Color xD
05:10 Mar 01 2021
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