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They say that " what doesn't kill you makes you stronger " I'm not quit sure that is so true anymore!

I can't complain life has been good to me for the most part. I had my ups and down, but i never really failed at anything. Even when my life felt like it hit rock bottom, the big man upstairs always came through for me. For example, when i was down on my luck and was worried about next months bills out of no where came a job ( cash ). When i was in the army and pretty much the smallest on my company, I was the one who got promoted for being the the top person in my company. When i lost my son after i was separated from my first wife, she ended up dropping him off at the door and said you have him, and with out a wink i did what a dad was to do. I raised him. No, he is far from perfect trust me, but if he needed me he knows ill be there for him. Then later in life i got cancer and my wife, kids and the big man upstairs got me through some really bad odds. They gave me a 15% chance of living and my wife was the only one who knew i could beat it. Thank you for making me fight J.C. But after that i lost my family to a stranger. Some times i wish i wouldn't have made it now. Having a half of lung removed wasn't anything compared to the pain of losing what means the most to me and that is my wife and kids to another man who is now raising my three girls. But i never quit trying to save my marriage because i knew it was the most import thing in my life. But now is has come to and end. I lose!!! I never thought i could hurt inside so much that i feel so empty inside, because everything that was so close is now a " once was "

my wife, my daughters, and our home.

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Teradin
07:48 Jun 25 2009

: hugs you so tightly: I wish that I had the words to say to give you a small measure of comfort but quiet frankly... I dont.. I do pray for you and your situation and can only hope that in small ways it improves. One day, one hour, one minute at a time.

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