He was right, so absolutely right. The Mistborn series is absolutely amazing. I am in love with the characters, and I want to find out how it's all going to end. I love the concept of Allomancy, burning certain metals to gain certain "powers" that normal people just don't have the ability to do. And the Steel Inquisitors, frightening. Yup, I am in love with the story, and I am only a little more than halfway through the first book. Vin is quite the character, but I think, at this point, I like Kelsier a bit more. Though, all of them are awesome in their own way. I am hooked.
End of summer rainstorms. It's nice to hear the sound of rain, but step outside and the world is absolutely disgusting.
You know that endorphin high you get after a good, long workout? Yeah, I am addicted. But, it's alright, it just keeps me pushing myself, and that's not a bad thing.
I am so tired, so drained. Exhaution has been my constant companion these last few days. And I don't quite know the reason why. I have been getting enough sleep, actual restful sleep with no nightmares. So, I shouldn't be feeling this way. But lately, all I want to do is crawl into bed and sleep, just sleep forever.
Four accounts is just one too many for me. I think I may be giving Dream away, because I just don't have to time to get on all of them these days. I may also drop Prometheus. I don't know yet.
I had a dream of a world, a beautiful world of snow capped mountains; a world wreathed in flame and darkness and death. The images keep popping into my head. Two girls, two young girls, one me and one her. And I loved her. She was blind, so she didn't know, couldn't see that world. But I could. And it was beautiful and horrible at the same time. Those beautiful mountains, prestine white of the snow, on fire. The horizon, in three directions, a mass of flame, a wall of dancing red and orange and blue. And, I remember, I wanted to make her see, give her my eyes. It was hauntingly beautiful. I don't think I will ever forget.
It's like falling to pieces. Breaking apart. That worthlessness seeping in. Day after day, am I really expected to keep on smiling and pretending nothing is wrong? I don't want to be weak anymore, but that's all I am.
I'm seriously debating changing this account's name to Porcelain.
Or, maybe bringing back CellarDoor.
I desire change. Immortalxkiss isn't who I am anymore, I outgrew the name years ago. It's time I find something more fitting to me, like I have with my other accounts. It's time for some change.
The only thing keeping me from doing it right now is the fact that you lose so much when you change your name. It's not something I could do without thinking it over.
If you change it to a name that has been registered here before- it could mess up the records and revert your stats to that of the old profile name, losing time sent, level, etc... Best to pick one never used before.
What I mean is more than losing points of friends that have added you on this account and stuff. I mean, if CellarDoor was a level 40ish, this account could just pick up there- losing everything this account has gathered.
Yeah, which is why I'd never reuse a name. I'd add superfluous nonsense to it, like the silly "x" in the middle of immortalxkiss. :]
So, I did this to myself.. I saw Rent on one of the movie channels, and now I can't really stop crying. I hate this time of year, and I hate most that I wasn't able to visit him on Friday. I'm going tomorrow, but it's not the same.
I started working on a new profile. The written content that I currently have is tired and needs some replacing. And, while it's all me, and quite possibly the truest I have yet been on a profile here, it's time to say goodbye to the familiar words and welcome in an new dawn. I hope to be able to finish everything up sometime this weekend, and get everything set up and done. Let others have these old words of mine, altered and warped. It's time for me to embrace something new.
No one could ever say I'm not courteous and polite and respectful. Even when someone seemingly has an issue with me, I come to them like an adult and politely work through the issue. You'd be surprised how many issues can be solved if you're just willing to talk to all parties involved.
In other news.. I don't want to get old. Can I just go back and refuse to go forward in time? I don't want tomorrow to come.
Made a minor adjustment to the profile. I'm over it.
It's totally my luck that I'd met someone amazing and completely awesome and who's into all the same things I am, and they'd be on the other end of the country. Someone who I like immensely, and who likes me. Just my luck. I'm starting to think I need to move out towards the center or the East part of America. Because, really, no one I know who's worth while is on my side.
Passed the Acolyte test, I feel better now. I missed having the position on this account.