I am far from perfect. I have made more mistakes in my life than I care to admit. I am an asshole, and I admit that openly. I have lost once in a lifetime type of things... I have been lied to, cheated on, lied about. But even with all of that and my background, I try to do what is right. Even if I stand alone. But when your trying to do right but still constantly made to hurt because of your past mistakes..
I have been strong my entire life, always only had myself to count on. I admit to my mistakes, try to make up for them, make things better.. But it seems I consistently fail at that.
I'm not asking nor wanting attention.. And to be honest I can't gather all my thoughts and feelings together...but, when the one person I want to be better for, makes me feel empty inside.. I am at a loss.. Because even then, I only feel something when I am near them...
Dude. The only person you need to be your best for is your daughter. No one else will ever be as important as your little girl. And anyone who ever makes you feel empty doesn't deserve to have your heart. You're gonna get through this :3
Now dont waste your efforts on someone who doesn't deserve you. You are an amazing guy ... even with the dark side ... you are still bloody amazing. You have went through so much ... don't be hard on yourself.
Stay calm my friend ... muaks!