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fuck i haven't written in a long time. nothing much going on.. broke up with my dick boyfriend and lost my oldest friend because he was my boyfriends friend to. i have gotten so sick that i couldn't eat or sleep right in two weeks. i am hardly eating now and if i get down half a sandwich (or something like that) a day it is a big accomplishment for me. uumm... other then that nothing new. just more feelings of worthlessness and i can't even describe how i feel anymore. i have nothing left inside of me, not even anger anymore. i am so sick of feeling this way but i know there is nothing i can do. pills don't help. neither does drinking or trying to ignore how i feel... i am truely nothing now. i have no meaning or purpous. nothing in life matters and i don't matter. (with the exception of a few people) (mike i love you! cathie you bastered i know your reading this.. and umm.... chris i bet your stoned)