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Haunted Memories
20:31 Aug 21 2010
Times Read: 507




I close my eyes and you haunt me,

this image I cannot bare.

I hate this world that surrounds me,

when I feel you near.

I hate the way you touched me,

who the hell gave you the right

to treat me like you wanted too,

to take advantage of me every night.

I never knew why you did this to me,

why was I the one no one believed?

You felt me feeling stupid and ashamed,

somehow you made me feel I was the one to blame.

I close my eyes and you still haunt me,

this image I still cannot bare.

I hate that you still surround me,

even though you're not there.

Pain
20:30 Aug 21 2010
Times Read: 508




Pain- unbearable.

Pain- horrible strong feelings.

Pain- unforgettable.

I hide the pain behind the smile on my face.

The unbearable pain I keep deep inside.

The horrible, strong feelings eating through my flesh.

The unforgettable pain.

Pain.

The pain is so strong it’s like taking a knife,

stabbing and twisting it into my flesh.

Pain.

Fighting the pain,

the tears,

the battle to keep a smile on my face.

Pain.

Killing me.

Pain.

Eating me away.

Girl I Pretended to Be
20:26 Aug 21 2010
Times Read: 510




Look me in the eye, don't walk away.

Say all the things you want to say.

Don’t lie to me,

don't pretend to be interested in me.

The person I have to be,

the girl outside is so much stronger,

than the girl inside that can't hold on much longer.

The girl outside is just a fake.

Inside, I'm about to break.

I'm so weak inside but it'll never show,

only reflected in the scars, I know.

Everyone’s telling me don't do this and don't do that.

I need to break apart from this image I've made that everyone sees.

And I just need someone to believe that I can overcome these things

that drag me down and make me want to die.

So now the only question is, is this really goodbye?

Nonsense
20:24 Aug 21 2010
Times Read: 511

Sane is insane.

Normal is wierd.

In a world that's completely nonsense.

Love is hate.

Honesty is a lie.

In this twisted place.

Night is day.

Up is down.

And left is right...

Or is right wrong?

Here, everything is nonsense.

Here, inside my head.

Why?
20:23 Aug 21 2010
Times Read: 512




I'm siting here...

I cant feel anything...

All the pain...and everything

aren't there anymore...

It's a damp cold night...

And I'm just trying to figure out this life...

Just thinking about this life hurts...

Thinking of a way to make this pain to go away.

I'm lost in confusion...

Questions arise in my mind...

Which I can't seem to solve.

Why is everything so confusing?

Why does everything wrong happen to the ones who do right?

Why does life seem to be so unfair...?

Why does it take away the things we love?

Why does something bad happen when you just seem to be happy for once?

Why does all your happiness just seem to fade away...?

And all the memories remain...

Why do your mistakes make you even more weak, when they are suposed to make you strong?

Why do we hurt the ones we care for?

Why do we hurt ourselves too make the pain go away...

Why does even the thought of happiness make you sad?

Why is everything so confusing?

With these questions unanswered,

I cry myself to sleep every night...

With no hope of light...

Just me and my thoughts and these memories!

Judge Me?
01:47 Aug 16 2010
Times Read: 522

Don’t judge me because you think you know me,

because if you walked in my shoes then you would see.

See the things of everyday...everyday life for me.

My smile is beautiful, I may bring light to my surroundings,

but if you only knew the struggles and pain that brings.

That brings me to my weakest moments in time.

Don’t judge me based on what u see on the outside.

Count my tears or maybe count the years, the scars.

You may judge me but your judgment is wrong by far.

Take the time to know me for who I am.

If you're not God, Judge Me?? I’ll be damned!!