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Scream
19:52 Apr 19 2012
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I haven't slept in fucking days
This process seems to keep going on and on
I tried to eat but I couldn't seem to keep it down
Another fucking day of drinking til the morning sun
And I just can't seem to get my mind together
Trying to shove pills down my throat to stay sane inside
Yes, I like to get fucked up so I can't remember anything
Do you think I like looking in the fucking mirror?
Do you think I'm telling the truth when I say I'm doing fucking great?
Why do you always fucking assume I see two roads, the high and low end?
I'm fucking here alone in this wasteland this is what I know
I can't remember the last time I sincerely smiled
Cant even remember whens the last time I didn't try to hide from you all
Here I stand trying to figure out who I am
Your all so fucking quick to judge when I'm already judging myself
Yet all you wanna do is take my neck in a death gripping choke hold
Because I'm not the person you wanted me to be
(I never will be!)
How dare you deify me
As I struggle to escape and breath
As I attempt to shout and scream
Do you know what its fucking like to feel so ugly all the time?
Do you know what its like to truly fucking shot up drugs to poison your insides?
Can you see this profound rage eating me alive?
Hell was my fucking salvation
Still is and forever will be
Fuck it, I don't even want your fucking help anymore
So shove it for somebody that actually needs it and cares
I hate you all so motherfucking much
(I told myself I'm not dying inside)
I hate you all because your all so faking fake on the outside
( I told myself I'll get better in time)
I hate myself. I hate myself. No regrets.
I fucking hate myself, no I do not regret.
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