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Lost is a world of hatred

Lost in a world of lies

Lost in a world I don’t understand

Lost in a world I despise

In spite of my own impure hatred

I live in this world just the same

I don’t know the people who live here

I don’t know anyone by name

But I live in this world filled with morons

I live in this world filled with lies

I live in this realm of imperfection

I live in this world I despise,

But I don’t want you to get close,

For Love will always be dead

In my own little sanctum of distance,

In my own little world in my head,

I can’t mark the way to sanity,

For I myself am insane,

I can’t mark the way to humanity

For I am not gentle or tame,

Nor do I believe in this world

Where people are said to be happy,

Or where I am forced to remain

For I know I will always be empty

Happiness is my fatality,

The bane of my dire existance

The reason I chose not to know you,

For happiness is nonexistent

Deadly poison, Forgotten fate,

Ultimate Darkness, Blackened Hate

Another death to forget and let go,

Another person we’ll never know

Hated people, Attempted suicide,

Beguiled children, trying to hide,

Another death we don’t understand,

Another fate by the touch of Her hand,

Obscure torture, Forgotten cries,

Horrible visions, Desperate lies

Another Death We’ll never remember,

Another death forgotten forever.

Tainted lies, Emotions of lust

Embodied demons, Broken trust,

Another death we forgot to tell,

Another soul send to Hell

Deadly nightshade, Broken heart,

Sarrowed people, Torn apart,

Another death we forgot to prevent,

Another message unheavenly send,

Burning bodies, Devoured souls,

One more person, To lose control,

Another death we don't want to believe,

Another person betrayed and decieved,

One more lie, One lost trust,

One more person, Devoured by lust,

Another death we forgot to stake claim to,

Another death to totally shame you,

One last kiss, One last hope,

A bleeding cut, a hanging rope,

The very last death we forgot to explain,

The very last death of someone insane.

Remember the colors

Of death and dismay

Surrender to hated

And attempt to betray

But all of the bodies

Are lined on the wall

Remember the colors

Remember them all

Remember the lies

The entities of death

Dismay and discolor

Will bring your last breath

Will send you to darkness

Send you to night

Remember the colors

To make it all right

Remember the darkness

And all the decay

Remember my darlings

What I had to say

But all won’t be blessed

For all will be night

And the Angel of Death,

Will come into sight.

Illusions or color,

Illusions of light,

I want to go back,

To the cold lonely night,

I'd rather be lonely,

I'd rather be sad,

Than deal with new heartach,

That makes me go mad,

I'd rather see darkness,

I'd rather see black,

I'd rather be sad,

Than be taken aback,

A new wound would kill me,

A great lethal blow,

To leave me more empty,

Than you ever can know,

I can't let them hurt me,

Or see all my scars,

I can't let them have me,

I'll just fly to the stars,

Away from the nightmares,

Away from the shame,

Away from the people,

Who don't know my name,

They don't even know me,

Yes judge all the same,

They never will care,

For I'm always to blame,

They never will love me,

They never will show,

A sence of compassion,

For they'll never know,

They'll never know that,

And I'll never know this,

I won't gknow the meaning,

Of a pure happy bliss,

Because I'll be lonely,

For the rest of my life,

But I'd rather be lonely,

Than be hurt one more time

What once was can no longer be,

For I am no longer thriving,

And you can not set me free,

For you are the one depriving.



You are the one I must fear,

For you have left me in shame,

And because you have come so near,

I can never be the same.



You do not know you've hurt me,

You can not fathom the disgrace,

You can;t see you've left me empty,

For you can't see my face.



You can't know which way I choose,

You can't know which way I go,

I'll always be something you're wanting to loose,

I'll always be someone you don't want to know.



I'll always be yesterdays trash,

I'll always be last months whore,

But the pain has me thinking of the past,

And the hunger has me still wanting more,

More of the love I desire,

More of the passion I need,

For your eyes have me catching on fire,

But I dare not try to proceed.



But I could care less if you want me,

I could care less if you care,

But the answers I don't have are haunting,

And I can't stand it when you're not there.

When the ravens come out so late at night,

You'll hear their calls and be filled with fright,

You'll see your own shadow and be taken aback,

You'll see the night thats pitch as black,

You'll hear the wolves howl their cry,

And with much reluctance you'll look to the sky,

You've never feared either man nor beast,

But in this land you are the feast,

This is the nightmare in which I do live,

But the different between is impossible to give,

For you're inner reality has remade and reshaped,

And from this nightmare you can never escape,

Your mind and heart thinks this world is real,

For the pain you recieve is possible to feel,

And the pain you inflict will be fully recieved,

But I have no desire to make you believe,

For as the night turns to pitch and the creature depart,

It is you who I'm sure will loose their heart,

Will loose all traces of rational thought,

For you'll deny this world and all will be forgot,

This is your nightmare this is your cell,

This place I have taken you is much worse then hell,

For I am the Queen of this forsaken place,

I am The Ruler to whom you must face,

And I don't take too kindly to non-believers,

For I am your Mistress, The Temptest Deciever....

This Blood in my fortress,

A deep crimson red,

Don't toy with existance,

For I'll soon be dead.



I'll bathe in the scarlet,

The facets of real,

I'll forget your existance,

For I can not feel.



I'll end it with nothing,

I'll end it so slow,

You can't tell me why,

For you'll never know.

You won't know the reason,

I spill crimson red,

You won't know what happened,

Or why I am dead,



It will come in the form,

Of a deep deep dismay,

For I've already made it,

To a great disarray.



You won't know your options,

For you can't know my mind,

And you won't have the chance,

To go back and rewind.



You can't say it's over,

For I already have,

You won't know the end,

Or why I am sad.



You can not go back,

To the love I once gave

You just can't remember,

That I was a slave,

A slave to the torment,

A slave to the lies,

You don't know I've wept,

For you can't hear my cries.



You won't hear my sarrow,

the facade is too great,

You won't get to save me,

For you'll come much too late.



That's why I am leaving,

That's why I must go,

The truth is decieving,

Yes, this much we know.



We'll release all the pain,

We'll release all the lies,

By ending it now,

For the end must be nigh.