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Jump
05:05 Aug 16 2010
Times Read: 492

Lets jump off this cliff

Im done crying

It's just making stains

Lets cut my throat

Lets kill the drama

Im still missing you baby

I know what you mean

When you say im done

You know what i cant

Centered the loaded gun

Dont pull the trigger

You dont understand

Take care of yourself

I feel the water

It is time to part

Lets jump off this cliff

It is not you

It is life i cant stand

My Monster
04:57 Aug 16 2010
Times Read: 494

My sweet, my darling, my monster

The nightmare thats haunts my sleep

My light, my darkness, my dream

Awaiting your chance to leap

Your handsome, your brilliant, your evil

Laughin while these wrists are bleeding

Terrifying, fightning, intriging

Please love, stay with me tonigh

Our passion, our love, our plot

Hoping it never ends like this

Our beauty, our teaching, our lust

Cutting deep scars that shall never mend

My love, my life, my master

The ring leader of this parade

My here, my hert, my beautiful disaster

Never want their memories to fade

Just A Little Longer
04:47 Aug 16 2010
Times Read: 495

Desolation,

Wide open space,

Between the trees and me,

Emptiness and me,

Confusion and decisions,

Feelings hard to define,

And I say to myself,

Just a little longer,



Coldness seeps

Its way in,

I am falling deeper,

Into what I fear most,

As I reach out,

There is nothing there,

As possible there was something once,

Only to be gone,

And I say to myself,

Just a little longer,



The sun drops,

The last inch of light falls,

The squirrels more likely to be huddled up,

But not me,

Something I never possessed,

And I say to myself,

Just a little longer,



Then the sun has gone,

Darkness spreads its wings over me,

I see nothing so no one sees me,

Feeling of bitterness only,

And I say to myself,

Just a little longer,



An Owl peers down,

With question in her eyes,

She doesn't have a hope,

In helping me,

As she doesn't see my pain,

Spreads her wings,

Passes me by,

And I say to myself,

Just a little longer,



The soft earth,

Seems the only thing holding me up,

Even then I could slip,

And wondering takes me,

To why and how I got here,

Without even knowing it,

Yet no one notices,

As they didn't see before,

So I say to myself,

Just a little longer,



Shimmering in the darkness,

I see two moons,

Reflecting off a stream of thoughts,

Ongoing forever more,

Along a rocky road,

Slowly giving in to finding a way out,

I take the plunge under the river,

Then the wind carries a whisper,

Gently on a breeze,

'Just a little longer.

Dream
04:41 Aug 16 2010
Times Read: 496

Sleep now my darling

Sleep all the pain away

I'll be here till morning

But no longer i cannot stay

I am a dream of yours

A dream that once was true

But now i am just a force

That heals and loves you

So hush my baby, its ok

I'll sing you a lullaby

When its time for day

I'll kiss you and whisper

Goodbye

At Night
04:36 Aug 16 2010
Times Read: 497

It became an unwanted fixation

My mind, body, and soul

Unless i did it everynight

My day would not seem whole

Everynight just before bed

I would think in my head

I shall use a razor, one with a straight edge

As i inched closer to the building ledge

Steralize, place, and drag

To clean the blood i would use an old rag

When im done turn out the lights

And close my eyes to the terrible frights

The ones only i see in my head

About a crazy girl who eats led

The girl modeled after me does one more thing

Shes slits her wrists only in bed

Scars
05:08 Aug 14 2010
Times Read: 506

I feel the scars that you cant see.

They are within me, but upon me as well.

One look at me im normal.

Get to know me,

Who Am I?

The inner scars are what hurt the most.

They keep the trust i could feel inside.

I could name off all the physical scars and be proud.

It's the hidden ones that hurt.

The scar across my arm is where i cut myself.

The one on my belly is where i hit a rock.

There's one on my shoulder but from what i know not.

I will never tell you the inner scars.

I have a scar on my toe from a scratch that i picked.

There's one on my face from the chicken pox.

I have one on my other hand from cooking dinner,

My hearts scars wont be told.

I have been emotionally scarred by sick jokes.

I have been mentally scarred from fights with family.

I have been physically scarred due to my own clumsiness.

It's my heart's scars that were caused by others

05:08 Aug 14 2010
Times Read: 507

Sit in the corner, feeling so alone, noone seems to notice that i'm bleeding, dieing from all this pain, this smile on my face, seems to make everyone happy, but my pain won't go away. Theres so many lies, so many times that i just want to cry, but seeing you sad, makes me want to die, im tired of all these lies.

im sitting here again, day by day, noone even noticing that im not okay. I feel so invisible, inconceivible, so decievavle, just go away. Will you stay here with me, one last time, before i commit my sweet suicide. Im your sweet suicidal girl. The flames that surround me in my sleep, never seemed so infinite, they won't leave me be.

I saw your eyes staring at me, please just tell me one last time, that you'll always be with me. I don't want to leave, i always want to feel so safe in your arms, hearing my heartbeat. I'm not ready to leave. Im not ready to be, your sweet suicidal girl.

They stare at me, am i not real? Am i not a human being? The smile on my face slowly starts to fade away, just to be replaced by another sad and broken face. Even though i wear black atleast i know this is my reality.

my weak smile, and broken face, now is what seems to make them happy.

I'll always be your sweet suicidal girl. Goodbye.

untitled
05:07 Aug 14 2010
Times Read: 508




cant you see the depression?

cant you see the hatred?

cant you see the love?

cant you see the tears?

cant you see the pain behind my smile?

can you not see how much i care?



cant you see the blood on my wrists?

cant you see the blood on the walls?

cant you see the blood on the knife?

cant you see my lifeless body?

cant you see my emotionless pain?



if you cant have me, neither can the rest

its unfair to them

i am here but then again im not

my body responds but my brian does not



the smiles, the laughter, the happy feelings

all a cover up for the void in my heart

the void that only you can fill



this feeling i have i do not like

this pain hurts too much

theres no point in being here without you

but life moves on... as will mine

i just hope the missery isnt too great

I Cry
05:01 Aug 14 2010
Times Read: 509

i cry when i hear ur name

i brake when i see ur face

u lost my trust

u broke my heart

u gave me the memories i try so hard to forget

i cry in the dark

i scream into my pillows

i feel trapped-suffocated

i hurt because of u

u did theis to me

u made me feel the way i feel about myself

i cries the screams

the pain in my dreams

the tears sliding down my cheek

the redness of my eyes

the feeling of being unloved the screams of self-mutilation

the blade sliding

the blood spattering

the tears the screams of knowing this as my painful destination

Sitting In Silence
23:08 Aug 11 2010
Times Read: 516

Sitting in silence is the greatest virtue

Sitting in the dark is like no one cares enough to turn the light back on in your life

Sitting with the music blasting is like trying to drown out every problem you have

Sitting in the bathtub crying is like a suicide not yet planned

Sitting with all the lights on is like trying to forget the dark times

Sitting with the blade to your wrist seems like you were a failer

Sitting with the gun put to your head is like saying he broke my heart 1 to many times

It’s hard not to forget how I loved you and how you hurt me

It’s hard to say you’re not mine anymore

But the hardest is getting through the day knowing I won’t get a call from you

But for some reason still wait for your call

Sitting in silence is the greatest virtue

Demons Whipser
23:08 Aug 11 2010
Times Read: 517

demons whisper as darkness falls

they're everywhere and want your call

they taunt you and make you see things

that you thought could only be seen in dreams

this life is full of decisions and heartache and pain

it's easy to be insane and take advantage of everything

all that you worked for can be taken away

your dreams can disappear and reality can fade into place

you're tempted left and right it's up to you to stay straight

you can fall to hell you can raise to heaven

you can decide if you want to be damned or be saved

demons whisper their voice persuades

I Love
23:05 Aug 11 2010
Times Read: 518

I love the way we've been from the start,

The way your love melts my heart,

That you've been as caring as can be,

You've been the sweetest person to be.



I love the way we have so much in common,

Maybe because your the right person for me.

I love the way that nobody see's me like you do,

The way you give me love so true.



I love the way we talk on the phone even for a little while,

The way your voice makes me smile.

I love the way we share precious memories,

that forever my heart will cherish.



I love the way you give me your sweet embrace,

The way I feel the warmth of your breath on my face,

The way i feel the softness of your lips when we kiss,

So close we are , I wish forever we'll be forever be like this.



I love the way you look in my eyes,

The way we make each other realize,

That we should keep going strong,

even though they say its wrong.



I love the way we dream together,

And the way we promised each other,

No matter how much we would suffer,

It'll be us, it'll be forever.

Untitled
23:04 Aug 11 2010
Times Read: 519

i'm left alone in the dark

i'm crying alone in the dark

i'm dying in the dark

the darkness inside of me

i'm crying inside

i'm dying inside

this darkness wraps around you like a coat of sorrow.

this darkness isn't cool but i experience it.

the darkness inside.

i'm left alone in the dark wondering who i am.

pondering that thought.

i'm left alone in the dark yet again.

Untitled
23:03 Aug 11 2010
Times Read: 520

Let me be seen as a vampire,

I believe I have the proper attire.

Just keep your silver away,

and make sure you don't have a stake.

I'll keep my fangs hidden,

because I know your blood is forbidden.

Open your eyes and see,

that my soul is trapped in misery.

The corpse I appear to be,

needs your heart's purity.

Let the mind games begin,

just don't trap me in damnation again.

It's happened before,

I was betrayed by some undead whore.

Find me hiding from the sun and crosses,

and then I can help you with your soul's losses.

How long before you see,

my soul trapped in misery?

The corpse I appear to be,

needs your heart's purity.

A Simple Cry For Help
23:02 Aug 11 2010
Times Read: 521

Suicides on my mind. I'm

Always thinking of ways to die.

Voices tell me to do it because

Everyones forgotten me.

My life has no point anymore now that

Everyone has stopped caring. I'm trying to

Find something now. Something very helpful. My

Razor blade.

Open up the old scars, let em bleed some more.

Make new scars too.

Make it count, cut it deep.

Yell and scream for

Someone to help. Scream it so

Everyone can hear it, Yet no one does. Now I'm

Losing too much blood. Now I'ts over I'm

Finally dead.

No Matter What Goes Wrong
23:01 Aug 11 2010
Times Read: 522

In life

there is strife

there are tears

and there are fears

but we all have to try to be strong

no matter what goes wrong

We may cry

We may not know how to get by

but we all have problems that we'll go through

and we just have to remember what to do

we have to try to be strong

no matter what goes wrong

We may feel down

we may frown

sometimes life can be a rollercoaster ride

but that does't mean we have to run and go hide

we have to try to be strong

no matter what goes wrong

We can pray to the lord

we can move forward

i'm going to try and I hope you will to

we just have to remember what to do

we have to try and be strong

no matter what goes wrong

we'll all go through so many things

and we'll all someday have wings

so as hard as we try

our lives still pass on by

but we all must try to be strong

no matter what goes wrong

A Simple Word
23:01 Aug 11 2010
Times Read: 523

I wish I could solve this conflict

with a simple word,

an unspoken key.

Why can't life be a sitcom

where sadness can leave

with the snap of a finger?

Is every plot, just a distraction

trying to steer me away

from the true problem?

How can I be sure anymore?

My pulse races every time,

and there's no stopping the fear.

My anger becomes rage

and once again I'm torn apart.

I'm the only one thats affected

but doesn't somebody else notice?

The answer is surely unclear.

I feel like there is no need for conversation

they wouldn't understand.

I'll try to confess and my throat will swell

up to the size of a baloon,

just to keep myself quiet.

I'm in a brawl but I'm the only one fighting.

The show is sold out but nobody is watching,

so what is the point of acting?

My fakeness surely shines through,

but everyone wears their sunglasses.

In The Darkness
08:37 Aug 11 2010
Times Read: 525

in the darkness

i will fall

so frail

so small

so sad

so dead

get these thoughts from my head

take them away

leave me be

why cant you see??

see the pain

see the hurt

see the heart that is broke

in the dark i will fall away from the light away from

you all

the darkness is thick

the clocks will tick as i die

in the darkest darkness

no light will seep as i begin to forver sleep