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Mood : Tiredddd

Currently : On evony & Listening to Killswitch Engage - This fire

Drinking : Coffee & having a ciggy

Time : 2: 10 GMT (morning)



Ok so i cant sleep, why oh why, cant i sleep, oh well, i can sit and look at the stars & moon WRONG its cloudy but i like the moon light over the clouds it makes me happy, i like the colour of the clouds when they go past the moon, i use to at this time of the night walk my dog down the darkest lane and just let him of the lead and sit down and let him run around, its been 1 year 2 days since i lost my dog, i still remember it (Story time) he wasn't well, he had cancer and had a tumer but the vet said he would live past christmas, so we decided when he was starting to be in pain we would put him to sleep, he ended up getting a huge cancer tuma in his leg so we got his leg removed and for 3 months after he was perfectly fine, his useuall dopey self walking into walls and annoying my by taking off with the T.v remote andjust the useal things dopey dogs do.



Then came September 7th, all day he couldnt setal he couldnt sleep he wouldnt eat, he was fine for a while after my mother give him his pill and jab for a few hours he went to sleep got up walked about abit for a hour or 2 messed around cheerful as useual so we though just a one off, he then woke up after been asleep for half hour and he walked to the back door like he wanted a walk so i sliped my shoes on and went to the door, it was a cool dark night want the moon was really big the stars were shineing, and owl was flying about along with some bats.



we got out side the door and he laid down just out side the door looking up at the sky, then a loud break of wind came out of him, and i though he'd (to put it like i would say) craped while lieing down (with him been ill anything was possible) so i walked into the house looked back to pick the torch up, into the living room and told my mum n stepdad he'd (as i said) craped, the put there shoes on and my oldest brother came in and started to put his shoes on and i changed the batterys in the torch as they were dead.



I set off to the door, and noticed he'd put his head down on the floor and his tounge was hanging out and he was breathing heavy, at first i didnt think of it as anything seriouse.



Then i turned the tourch on, shined it at his back end and i saw nothing, and as my mother and step dad were walking to the door i shined it up his body to his face, and noticed his eyes were slowly roling to the back of his head, thats when i knew what was going to happen.



His breathing had rappedly slown down, and he was looking at me then i shouted to my mum and dad to just come outside and not bother with any towels, "Hurry up now come quick" is what i said,



I grabed his head and held it up in the air and my mum came out and saw his eyes and mouth and thought exactly what i did, she grabed him and smiled at him (to not make him upset) and his eyes then just rolled into the back of his head and he stoped breathing...



I look up at the sky to not show that i was upset and look once again at the moon and sky, and i noticed there were clouds over the moon all grey and the stars had gone.



Still to this day i miss him, and many people reading this may think, "It was only a dog" but for people who've had a dog since they were born and remember the first day they got it an animal like cat, dog, anything... its becomes like another part of the family, and it also is realy upseting..



Time : 2 : 49 GMT (Morning)



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