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I'm very new to this, just joined about an hour ago, but I feel compelled to share my story. This could end up being a lot longer than I want and I apologize now but hope you will read it. In order for me to explain my awakening, my conscious awakening that is, I have to go back a lot further.

When I was younger I was very hyper and full of energy. There was nothing that coils stop or slow me down. I remember always being bubbly and full of life to the point of bursting. I was always happy and very social but that all changed at puberty. I went from having tons of energy to having no energy at all. It was a challenge just to get up and going out never happened. I became reclusive, susceptible to getting sick, and fought with depression and suicide. I went to a lot of doctors who would put me on all kinds of meds that wouldn't help me no matter how many different ones they would put me on.

Once i graduated high school i joined the army and for the first time in a long while i actually felt great. All through basic training and AIT, Advanced Individual Training for my job in the military, i felt like i had a surplus of energy and began to become a social outgoing person again. I didn't realize until recently that I might have been subconsciously feeding on everyone around me and no one had any obvious reactions since there were 40 of us around each other, eating working and sleeping in the same area.

Forwarding a few years; after i got out of the military, due to an injury, i started to slip back into my depressed, energy drained state and could not figure out why. I went to the VA for help and was diagnosed with PTSD, sleep disorder, and depression. I was thrown onto a bunch of different meds but nothing seemed to really help with what I was going through. I started to go out with a group of friends about twice a month and realized that while i was out i would start to feel better, have more energy and become more social. The problem was that the more energetic i became my friends around me would begin to get tired and want to leave.

I've always felt that I thrive off of the people I'm around but I never really understood more than that. I've always been great at reading people, being able to sense things that most others wouldn't notice and I just thought that maybe I'm vey sensitive to those around me. I've always been a believer in the paranormal and kept an open mind about the world we perceive. I happened upon a video done by a Sanguinarian Vampyre who explained the different types of vampyres and it wss like a light went on. All of a sudden I found myself trying to find as much information about it as I could. I wanted, and still do, to know everything about it. I've spent days meditating and contemplating what I learned and if it truly applies to myself. I'm coming to the realization now that I'm most likely a psi vampyre. The most important things to me is learning how to feed effectively, with out harming the donors (I've heard of them being referred to as Nils but not sure if that's correct or derogatory), how to keep the energy that I gain and how to prevent leaking or wasting it. There are some things that intrigue me about Sanguinarian Vampyres as I have always loved the taste of blood.

If you have made it this far I commend you and thank you for the support you show just by reading all of this. I very much look forward to learning everything I can from the Sires on here and hope that I have found a group that is supportive and helpful on this journey I'm just now beginning

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xXxPaynexXx
00:52 Aug 03 2018

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AbsintheandBlood
04:53 Aug 03 2018

Welcome to Vampire rave

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Squead
05:37 Aug 03 2018

Much appreciated, I look forward to learning and making btw friends here.

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