The Ultimate Vampire Resource and Directory

Ever since I saw interview with a vampire at 13 I have been obsessed. Every vampire movie I have heard of I've watched countless times. I've stuck myself deep in research about vampires and have even tried to find out how to make myself one. Which is obviously very difficult unless you exchange blood with one. I used to practice rituals a while back, good luck rituals, protection spells, etc. I have no job, no girlfriend, my family despises me, I have no friends as they always stab me in the back, I hate my life and need excitement. Such as my desire to be a vampire.