If I had one wish it would be to have no reason to make one.
Who are we? We were once three of a kind, kindred spirits. But life has caused many changes. We are only two now. We, who were once three, have become divided.
Who were we when we were three? We were those who you do not see often: Together, yet separate. Divided, yet one. We were a group that few ever see as they really are. The first appeared happy-go-lucky, but appearances were deceiving. The second was depressed, but beautiful. The last hid behind masks that few ever saw behind. As time has worn on in the same manner as it had, these three may have been lost forever.
But now, things are different. The first is truly happy and it is no longer a mask. The second is slowly climbing from the depression and retains the beauty. The third, while still shrouded in darkness is beginning to heal and learning to lower the masks.
"We know who we are and we're not going to change that."
- Chester, Linkin Park
SN:BrokenChild, aka Broken
Birthday: May 26
Who am I? Very few know who I am and even fewer know a lot about me. My friends at school knew some, my lovers knew more. That is the way that it works. I don’t open up to people easily. I am confused and hurting, but learning to deal. Don’t automatically assume that I am one of those people saying, “Oh pity me because I’m depressed.” I’m not looking for help. If it comes along, it comes along. I like reading and writing, and enjoy spending an afternoon doing nothing.
I have learned not to let my heart blind me. A person who was able to help me with things in my life has left because it was too big of a challenge. They were my equal in many things and that is what I was searching for. Four years ago, I thought I found what some call 'The One'. A few days ago, I have finally seen the light. "You are too reserved... and there may be someone else out there: someone better." At least that is the reason I was given. The only one you can truly count on is yourself. This isn't great news for me, because my memory has a tendency to come and go, but, currently, I am the only constant in my life.
The future is not set. Fate may have a twist in store for me yet. I’m still not completely comfortable around most people. I am not sure that I will ever find someone who can understand, and I refuse to delude myself with false hope.
I don't care if you understand how I feel. That is the way that I am. Go ahead and read my journal. Some people like what I have to say and some don't. That is their personal opinion. I will be glad to talk to you if you feel like chatting.
This is my quote. I created it and would appreciate it if you ask before using it.
Quote: “Close the drapes and strip away the many layers of masks that you wear every day to hide you heart. Dim the lights and break apart the shields that you wear to protect your mind. Turn out the lights and lower the impenetrable barrier that protects your soul from the cruel world. Only then will you see the true person that lies beneath all the lies…” – Me
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The greatest discovery of my generation is that a human being can alter his life by altering his attitudes of mind. – William James (1842 – 1910)
THE ULTIMATE SILENCE
October 12, 1998
Listen to the mustn'ts, child.
Listen to the don'ts.
Listen to the shouldn'ts,
The impossibles, the won'ts.
Listen to the never haves,
Then listen close to me ...
Anything can happen, child.
Anything can be.
~ Shel Silverstein
Ten years ago, Matthew Shepard was murdered for being homosexual.
He was only 21 years old.
He could have been your brother
What will you do to end the silence?
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