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Ever wondered why we live one life . If I lived just once it wouldn't be enough to experience everything or feel loved by u or ur words from the books u read make me happy then some men I have met that says lot about the time and age guys priorities.
I'm tired I can't sleep normally anymore imagine that 8 hrs just isn't even normal anymore especially when u go to bed wake up like 3 or 2 hrs at sun down still u get up begin walking when every one sleep I can't even sleep 8hrs ur lucky I spent 6hrs in a bed . Blinds closed . I hate bright sun light I can't see time it's morning by then basically off to sleep for 4 hrs or less than that then up again that's it till sun down then sleep is only good till my body says rise and Wake up. Ever woke up to sleeping tons then suddenly human sleeping has drastically changed. Including my abilities to remain still. Or my abilities to stay focused on one subject unless deemed interesting to me. Some people like doctor say that you need to sleep study then you wake up find lady saying how long u think u been asleep or even in bed or how long do u think u even slept at all. Mom says once I sleep I sleep like the dead yet now its different I wake up n sleep in intervals and by evening I'm on this ride till sun rise then it hits sugar fall then it light out for hour or two then I'm alive when humans sleep yet doc says that I'm this person he's never heard of never being able to sleep only on certain times I can sleep but mom tried to manage it with medication once she discovered I couldn't sleep like normal human everything is OK till i have anxiety attack then I feel like I'm going to suffocate but I get close to point I black out unconscious but never die. Cause for some reason I can't stay calm for shit when suddenly the only person I trust is miles away or is unavailable they say blood thicker. Wait till ur baby teeth come out ur adult teeth come in complete at 29 doc says he's no clue how my teeth lasted so long ps he thinks making fangs canines are going to work for me . What happens when change happens next I changed completely from my hair to my feet. And my teeth grow and set of new teeth out of nowhere like before after the last doctor thought surgery would remove teeth now here we go again. I tell the doctor I can grow back my teeth he doesn't believe but he sees the teeth results which is why my whole first row on top will look like vampire got dentist work and went home only to find out teeth grew back. Or the fact the doctor says that I will be on this journey of total 360 from one destination to full transition to new body new everything u think I be dying to go through some things like veneers and bridge and my torso and chest and teeth and fact I ll never be big ever in my life aka it's permanent new body new meds new me here . Just imagine breaking my ribs in half to do my stomach just to reach it imagine the pain that vovcaine doesn't work on me my whole aspect of this going to be painful and not one person or doctor understands surgery awake more then me with no pain shot that works imagine that I am immune to this drug called numbing and other one it's OK I just don't remember much of nothing after surgery like I don't remember my wisdom teeth surgery after going inside restaurants looking like I bite some one blood running down my face every one eats looking thinking it's fake blood when it's really my blood thanks to imaginary stitches I ate tons till pain kick in. Just imagine torture of having all 6 teeth to root broke and removed awake and tooth made an replace an fitted with celebrity like veneers and bridge cost about half semester of school for the teeth not including chest the stomach and the weight loss pills I might have to take forever I'm walking talking barely breathing don't even get me started there I can breathe in oxygen yet I can't breathe out they say but I am not dead. They say people die if digonased 3 to 5 yes if luck gets them lung transplant that's the new thing lungs can be now transition to body to body without hesitant. I have lungs of 70 yr old yet I'm 29 I look about no day over 25 and I'm gonna spend 2024 riding in pain . They say bella did that to when Edward turned her only I'm getting whole new body entirely. It will be permanent pretty much docs say. From teeth down. And not only that vampire elders have decided to include me in there family nest till I decide or bill decide its time he knows exactly what I'm thinking and he definitely knows that I'm not a lier. I remember lady died after being attacked by her in less then 3 months later vampire assured me she die slow painful death of np return now she's dead. And I'm given the ultimate gift of vampire elder desire I can go and come as I wish but his kids can't he made but I can cause I'm special he says aka legitimate Dracula brother great grand daughter about 1500 year later or so here I'm still me only guys have gone I have grown hip to the game of the world vampire call home vrs that of human never communicate with one of the night. Seems this elder has called dibs on any vampire who try to prey on me claiming he ll know or he ll send his watch men to watch me as I sleep or get inside my head while I sleep to join me and I mean something to some important people out there of the realm of the council for elder to watch over me to protect me with his minion means there's probably more than what meets the eye. As for me I'm here cause I enjoy ur company . I enjoy it or I wouldn't have been so blunt and open. To those who have intentions that honorable thanks. And that those who are foe u may think I'm weak sitting duck I'm a vampire elder protection touching me is like being tortured to death and killed with inch of ur life without blood And no freedom or anything to make it bareable. Hence last person who tried to kill me died in 3 months was never seen again I guess vampire elders don't play when it comes to me so u been warned that I'm a ticking clock I say what I feel like it or not I don't do it intentionally I'm just me. So if you're looking to chat please be kind .
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