Hello everyone, welcome to my profile.
I am a heterosexual male.
I am open minded and tend to view all perspectives in life, easily accepting of others, stories that delve into the darkness to find the obsidian gems that all carry or shine with.
My life hasn't blossomed much and I do want better.
I hardly get to talk to anyone these days.
I love thought processes, mysteries, video games, horror but been lacking in film (be nice to get some recommendations), I keep to myself always tend to feel like I'll be bothering someone, anxiety sucks.
Looking for friendships on here.
Been down a dark labyrinthine of depression and resentment for a long time that its slowly getting easier at dealing with things but I am still flawed.
trying my luck to find a genuine friend or two but times have change and I miss those days.
I will listen
I am patient and understanding or atleast tries to understand.
I tend to spiral in the hooks of confusion and may possibly have ADHD based on recent revelations about myself.
Sometimes, I feel like I am living on a different planet that looks like Earth and somehow I'm the alien.
Even here, I am detested or uninteresting or life just takes them away from me for unknown reasons.
I always believe in being kind and honesty, even if my honesty at times hasn't helped me.
Take mistakes and hold myself accountable. I wish I could have more possibilities.
I want to believe I have a future but I'm just in the here and now.
Looking for fun with imaginations soaring its peaked curiousity.
The flow of words cusp in the mantle from within, to play the paragraphs on sinful digits. An orchestra surged and holds the heart's infernal dance but only to those that dare sit next to one by the kindling fire. After all, respect is a dying blessing these days.
This will most likely change alot as I try to convey the right message of myself.
Just hopes and wishes within a void
I want to fill this with more happiness but I have my scars and soul wounds that won't heal. Times when things seem to favor me, it all fades away... but atleast I can cherish the memories of conversations about many things..
I want to feel like something, when all it feels is a trapped prison. Tired of giving, helping, doing whats right, just to have it all rip me apart. I would like fun and not feel so replacable..
Either way, take a gander, enjoy your stay, leave anytime for life is endless potentials, I hope you enjoy your day!
Thank you for reading! =]
“But the attitude of faith is to let go, and become open to truth, whatever it might turn out to be.” – Alan Watts