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InsidiousSpirit



InsidiousSpirit
InsidiousSpirit carries the Mark of The Prince. Internal Damnation (Coven)

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Set at 01:12 on June 29, 2020

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Status:  Premiere Sire (129.24)
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Affiliation:  Internal Damnation (Coven)
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Let's just get this out of the way. I'm not new here, not by any stretch of the imagination. I have been known by many names. I've achieved everything I've wanted on this site, there's no goal on here I hadn't once reached. I stick around for those who I consider kindred spirits on the site, as some of them have been there for me as a light shining in during some of my darkest of days. I am forever in your debt, and you know who you all are. For all you knew, you could have been saving my life being there and I thank those who have been more than words could express. I love you guys.

I was raised in what was essentially a military family. My grandfather served in the Army during WWII and the conflict in Korea. I was taught not only to defend myself, but the value of not only hard work but respect. My mother wasn't in my life as much in my younger years, but had her reasons and I have over the last 19 years worked at rebuilding a relationship with her.

I am very reserved about my emotions. At times I come off very cold or dispassionate, and it's easy to mistake that way of "operating" as being angry or upset. Unless you really know me, it's hard to say what my mood is. If you see any real emotion from me and I'm not attempting to hide it then you can say that I trust you. I do not trust easily if at all, so it shouldn't be taken lightly if I'm willing to say I do.

Trust, it's fair to say is not something that happens often with me. There are a lot of reasons for that. I have been lied to, stolen from and- this is no exaggeration but had the trust beaten out of me. If you are among those I consider trustworthy, please don't take that lightly. I can count on one hand who I trust implicitly, and I would still have fingers left. There's only one person I would ever say I would give my life for.

But, now there are a few things to explain.

It is very fair to say that things that happened to me that essentially ended my childhood was that I was a victim of violent abuse. My own father handed me to a man- and I use that descriptor very liberally here, who instead of acting like the "friend of the family" facade he was so proud of he ran roughshod through my family. I experienced what evil was back then, and all of these years later I am still trying to find ways to deal with the damage he had done. I was only stripped of my ability to trust freely but my sense of family was irreparably damaged by this. My own father handed me to him. To make it worse- though it's not certain how that's even possible I had to call that piece of garbage "uncle". I'd now rather call him what he is- dead. I hated him with everything left in me for what he had done, and I'm sorry to say but my father is just as hated by me for it.

I am kind by nature, almost to a fault. There is nothing I would not do to help someone in need. In 2008 for a period of time I was homeless. I had nothing, and had nowhere to sleep that I didn't have to break into. This period of time taught me a valuable lesson- do not take what you have for granted. You don't know what you have until you don't. Really let that sink in when you complain about what you don't have.

It should be said that because of what I’ve been through I try not to attach to people. When you can limit how necessary you consider a person it makes a betrayal sting less. Please don’t get it twisted though, I don’t fake caring about a person. I just try not to need people. Remember that I trust almost none. It’s certainly not personal, it’s just how I operate.

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MutantGoth
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Energy Vampire & Mystery Author... :).
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