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Quote: It seems what's left of my human side is slowly changing... in me; will you give in to me? Looking at my own reflection, When suddenly it changes, Violently it changes! OH NO! There is no turning back now, you’ve woken up the demon... in ME!
Hi everyone my name is LadyCarmen99.
The name comes from two animes that my two friends got me into:
Devil May Cry
Sword Gun
Though I also like Bleach, DEATH NOTE, Inuyasha, and Ghost in the Shell.
Naruto... makes me feel stupid everytime I try to watch that show; too immature for me.
Anyway....
A word of caution when thinking of adding me:
I am going to get this straight right now, I am DEFINATELY not into that holleywood vampire stuff, or that Twilight phase that is going on. So if you are, do NOT message me about it or I will block you.
A brief story of my life;
My name is Kahyl. I'm twenty-one years of age, I am kind of mute, and I do not remember my past too weel due to some memory problem; I am also a walking contradiction. Right now I am living with two friends of mine from my past as my mother didn't want me; apparently it bugged her that I had a fiance. I am working and about to go to college in the next month.
The reason why I am here is to see if I can find some answers that my friends cannot tell me, amongst some other things. I am drawn to the dark side of things, which is why another friend of mine told me about it.
Simple things I know (re-learned or currently is) about me:
-What is put above. (obviously)
-I am into vampires but hate this new stuff coming out with a passion. I do not think I am one of that Twlight vampire stuff either like some do (though I am a practitioner of vampyrism).
-I like chess, mostly mind games like that japanese puzzle to get the block with the red sun engraved on it out of the box by moving the other pieces around (a family member gave this puzzle to me, unable to complete it and I was able to do it in a few hours while concentrating on videogames).
-I have an IQ of 187.
-I like music.
-I like videogames.
-I like books.
-I like scaring people but don't like to be scared by others.
-I like owls, wolves, bats, cats, and dogs.
-I was agnostic in my past but I am of the old old religion, a learning Wise-Woman, as well as an eclectic.
-I like the colors blue, green, red, silver, black, gray, white, and cocoa as well as mohagany.
-I think a bit more differently than most do when it comes to analyzing things.
-I have an interest in playing the piano, cello and guitar.
-I am registered as a first citizen responder through the red cross but need to re-register soon.
-I like chocolate and fruit. Candy (unless chocolate) I wont eat.
-I am bisexual.
-I am into the lifestyle
-My real name WAS not Kahyl.
-I have two other accounts, one is Lienxiaochen, the other is DeirdreL. All show different sides of me.
My ideas so far on love is this: Most the time, it isn't real. I have been cheated on, abandoned or things are too false for it to be real love.
I realized this when the few relationships I have been in, what they were like, and how it ended. Therefore I am unavalible to anyone other than my Mistress and will forever stay such; I dont want a marriage that will never last, which, by the way, that is the only reason I would date someone; not this stupid bullshit cheating swinging shit that's been going on. This is probably why I like how the Japanese had their ways, everyone had to be loyal to one another or their honor would go, and that they would die for. However this quote is kept in my mind:
"Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you've never met"
And how well do I know this is true!
I like the military (dont like the war) but I dont wish to be in it. I prefer thinking up ways to get rid of the enemy. Though, I have no problems with the thoughts of blowing up objects or shooting things. (I need to make some kind of noise somehow since I am a mute!)
I dont have much of a life, if you can't tell. I am working on it.
I analyze things before getting into a situation or get into any event. I can't stand not being able to find an escape route if I need too. I am good with getting out of any trouble I might be getting myself into.
I am into different languages, mostly Russian, Romanian, Japanese, German and Italian. I will be learning those with the Rosetta Stone and also through college classees.
I want to be in International Relations when it comes to dream occupation.
I like to draw, dance, and write. I was the best writer and artist (again according to my friends) in my high school years.
I also like martial arts like kung fu, tai kwon do, jiu-jistu, tai chi, karate and kickboxing and have been in practice with all of them before relocating which happened after my coma. Other activities involve soccar, bellydancing, badmitting, baseball, swimming, and I like hiking in the mountains. Though, I dont do this often enough as climate change is a problem with me at times.
Looks:
I am 5' 1", thin-to-average, pale, golden-brown eyes, black hair, my body weight mostly chest and muscle from all my work outs and the fact that I eat healthy (minus the times when I am not), though I do have a little fat on me as well. (The animated picture of a girl below is the animated version of me).
For those who cyber minors or prey on children or on females:
For those of you who think sex is everything?
I am a very happy young woman, and you know why? I never lost it boys (I dont care if it's too much information for you it's not your profile), and I'd die before I lose it to the likes of you perverted pigs who only think on sex. I am not available and I will be that way it seem for the rest of my life. I can't find a guy who wants a marriage and kids, rather than just sex.
So please, no asking to cyber, no phone sex, no harrassment of any time when it comes to sexual behavior; I will not reply and I will block you. I am not interested in satisfying your jaded addicted overactive sexual appitites that make you think with your **** rather than your fucking head like you should.
I am also a slave, so please, leave me be.
I love flowers and herbs and cooking as well as any outdoor activity, and videogames is one of my favorite indoors pasttimes other than movies. I have a Wii and a ps2. No xbox. hate the controls.
I love silent hill videogames.
Survey about me: [] = no, [x] = yes
[x] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses. (sometimes)
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears
[x] I have freckles.
Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home.
[x] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[x] I've had children. (Though not blood, just in name.)
[x] I've lost a child. (My own fault.)
School/Work
[ ] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[ ] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[x] I've been fired.
[ ] I've skipped school.
Embarrassment
[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[ ] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something
[ ] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public
Health
[x] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I've gotten stitches.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
Traveling
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane. (from PA to TX, took 16 hours)
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts. (It was an accident.)
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've been an abuse victim. (verbal, emotional, spiritual, sexual)
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle. (nothing hardcore)
[x] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[ ] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[ ] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.
[ ] I've been bungee jumping.
Relationships
[ ] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've had someone cheat on me.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of commitment.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship. (If cheating on someone that was cheating on me is cheating.)
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.
Sexuality
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] I love to flirt.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[ ] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.
Honesty/Crime
[x] I am a terrible liar. (meaning I dont lie well)
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my/someone's house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[ ] I've cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[ ] I've shoplifted. (If a school book sale counts.)
Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[x] I've smoked weed. (Twice, hated it, babysitter made me do it when I was little, didn‘t even know it was bad)
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I'm a stoner.
[ ] I've snorted cocaine.
[ ] Eaten shrooms
[ ] Popped E.
[x] I've inhaled. (I am asthmatic, and I took more than two inhaling breaths because I was hoping more would help, again, I was little and knew no better)
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I've been anorexic or bulimic.
[ ] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[x] I've woken up crying.
[x] I've cried myself to sleep.
[x] I see/have seen a therapist/counselor.
Death and Suicide
[x] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[x] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
Please if you are going to add me, tell me. I also ask you do not bite me without a hello, I will not reply to them unless you send a message beforehand saying hello. There is, as far as I see, no point to the biting other than it being a lazy way to greet a person.
I believe that is all you need to know about me in this life that so many call "hell".
May we all continue to kill ourselves and each other until we all die even though we dont want too because we can't stand having peace and equality or acceptance in our lives.
*sarcasm*
I can be a really nice woman and friend or I can be one bitchy hellion, the choice is your's. Really, it is. I am not as bitchy as I may sound. See for yourself and talk to me I promise I dont bite (unless you piss me off...)
This is a description of myself from a quiz:
You are a deep ocean and just as violent. You are emotional and thoughtful, artistic and musical. Even if you don't draw or play an instrument, art and music play a big part in your life. You are talented and creative. You are philosophical and poetic. Sometimes that means you create a piece of art or poetry, and sometimes it means you have a new idea or a new way of approaching something. You are always an original. You underestimate yourself and are sensitive. You put others before yourself. You feel their pain. When someone has a problem, they come to you. Not to solve it, but to cry with them. You are analytical and conscientious. Even with all this analysis you are idealistic. You appreciate beauty. You see things others miss, and can feel a problem coming like a chill before the rain. You are orderly and organized and strive for perfection in everything you do. You value things, people, resources. You are very focused on the details. You make friends cautiously and the friends you have are few and very close to you. You are very faithful and devoted. You value loyalty and can become resentful if betrayed. You seek out special people who see your depth and beauty and they travel with you for long friendships. You have a deep concern for other people and will listen to their complaints. People rely on you. Introvert: The Resident Genius.
The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to the First Level of Hell - Limbo!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
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People that mean something to me and their stamps
Nightlyscare, a love and friend as well as my Miss.
AMurderOfSin my MM and such a good friend.
TwiztedTemptation
Kyoshiro
I AM ALSO PROUDLY IN AMURDEROFSIN'S COVEN
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