Hell (Coven)

Vampire Rave member for 15 years.

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Affiliation:  Hell (Coven)
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Gender:  Female
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Middle of Nowhere



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What part of the world is a work of destruction waiting to happen don't you get?

Welcome to my profile!

This pro is a work in progress and will be changing it up as I go along. Just gimme a bit to do all the changes I want.

I was here before I gave my mom Gwendolyn my profile and I have now returned cause lets face it I really dont have anything better to do anymore, about me I am 29 years old engaged to a wonderful man due to be married next June I will probabaly not be on much cause I work overnights and rarely have the opprotunity to jump online.

Friends to give me their protection....

One of my oldest friends here on the Rave!


If the eyes are truly the windows of your soul, then these would have to be mine. They are the eyes of pain and betrayal.

My eyes tell those of my friends that know me and care for me that I have seen too many things that have changed my soul forever and made me into someone I am not sure of and wonder if I can ever be whole again.

I have lived through many changes, most of them bad. There have been things that I have had done to me that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy, but yet I still have hope and I still have faith that maybe some day I will find someone to love me and that will accept me with all of my defects and faults, as to that will ever happening, well I have my doubts to that coming to be.

I have a deep love for my friends and will always protect them from harm as much as possible.

Friends come hard to me due to trust issues, but when I count you as a friend I will try always to be there when you need me. If you reach out for me I will have my hand out to hold you when you need it.

This song says a lot about my past and my current life and it means a lot to me. Shhhh.....Listen and learn about my soul if you like.

Here are the words if you don't wish to watch the video. The vid is well worth watching though!

My Immortal

Im so tired of being here.
Supressed by all my childish fears.
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave.
Cuz your presence still lingers here, and it wont leave me alone.
These wounds wont seem to heal.
This pain is just too real.
There's just too much that time cannot erase.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
And I held your hand through all of these years, but you still have, hold of me.

You used to captivate me, by your resonating light.
Now Im bound by the knife you left behind.
Your face it haunts, my once pleasent dreams.
Your voice it chased away, all the sanity in me.
These wounds won't seem to heal.
This pain is just too real.
There's just too much that time can not erase.

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone.
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along.


This is dark thought that sometimes goes through my head when the pain gets to be too much. Sometimes the only thing that stops me is knowing the pain I would leave behind.


Sometimes I use this as relief for the pain in my soul. It is the thing that keeps my sanity at times. Not the best but it is what keeps life fuzzy enough to get through it at times.

This is something that I know well and unfortunately I also know I am not alone. To the abusers out there, all I can say is you have no idea what damage you cause to the person you are abusing's very soul and being.

It is something that never stops hurting and while maybe you may be forgiven over and over for what you do, it is never forgotten and lies in the person that is being abused mind always and forever affecting their thoughts and actions

Pain is something I have learned to live with daily. Physical and emotional pain are an ingrained part of my very being. I have yet to decide which hurts the worst though. hmmm.....

Sometimes physical pain is easier to deal with as it goes away. The emotional pain from mental abuse is so hard to make go away as it cuts into your very being and makes you doubt yourself and your worth as a person.

Isn't it truely better to feel something then nothing?


I say this picture and thought that in even in pain and despair, perhaps you might find a spot of color amidst the darkness of your life to cling to and light a spark of hope in your soul. There is always beauty to cling to and bring hope.


I am submissive and have learned that there is a fine line between being submissive to a loving and caring Master/Dom and having a man use your submissiveness as a weapon to abuse you and make something that is a gift into something horrific and terrifying.

To find a Master/Dom that understands the gift of faith a submissive gives everytime they submit and is loving and caring with the gift of pleasure/pain is a dream of most submissives and to those of you that have found such a relationship my gladness for you is deep in my heart.


Life can be exceedingly lonely at times and there are days when I look back on my life and wonder will I ever be able to fix what I have done and move on with my life?

Reaching always reaching for what? I know not, but maybe someday what ever it is I am reaching for will come to me....


The Music I Listen to!

Cradle of Filth

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Led Zeppelin

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Marilyn Manson

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Nine Inch Nails

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System of a Down

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Type 0 Negative

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Just some of them! More to be added later!

Some of the music I like and I hope you enjoy it too!


My anger is at times the keeper of my sanity and gets me through the day.

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The darkness surrounds me and oddly brings me a sense of peace, more so then does the light. I find the darkness soothing and it carresses my soul.

Death awaits us all, why fear him? He comes for us all in the end.

Consider it instead perhaps a chance to find a new path and a new beginning in another incarnation!

Embrace the unknown seek new beginnings!


Me and some of the things I enjoy in my private life, to some it may be considered the "Dark" side, but I like to consider it a healthy way of being that some just don't understand.

Then again who cares if they don't understand? It isn't their way of life, so oh well pfffft to them I say

It is Mine and my beliefs and that is all that matters!

Member Since: Jul 08, 2007
Last Login: Sep 08, 2011
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Jun 23, 2021

I have rated you fairly & wish you a good afternoon/evening.

May 08, 2021
Apr 24, 2021

I have come and rated you Fairly have a good day...oh and sorry I use all the rating scale.

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