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What I am not

There are those in our world whose opinion of vampires can never broach beyond a certain point of view.

This is due to their edification at the hands of the schooling systems and societal hierarchies in which they have developed, during childhood and further into adolescence via the ever present influence of the media, through TV and Hollywood, resulting in an eventual adult mind incapable of seeing beyond that limited spectrum of opinion and accepted bounds of reality, in which they base their individual understanding of their paradigm of the universe.

I cannot fly, I have not lived for hundreds or thousands of years, though I may have lied on a poll or three about it, just for the sheer hell of it and the chance to amuse those like minds who actually find it funny.

I have no fangs, no canines at all even, I cannot see clearly in the dark, but interestingly, I can see ok with my eyes closed. I can't turn into a wolf or bat or mist or anything other than a different version of me, which is a neat enough trick in itself.

Similarly, I have to drink water and I eat food that everyone else eats, but I haven't tried starving myself to see if I can live without it yet. There is no way that I would run around at night hunting young virgins and I like garlic to be in my food that I would cook these sweet ladies.

So what's with the crucifix? I don't really hold a place in my mind for them, but it's not like I run away. And sunlight- I do get awful sunburn after about an hour anywhere south of where I live, but I am fair skinned and almost always forget my sunblock.

SO, what's the bloody point of this ramble I sense you to be thinking...

Despite all of these things, I believe that the core concept of vampirism still exists and is a valid dichotomy of life.

What I may be

This is my current understanding of what it means to be a vampyre.

I see this as a flaw in the flow of the energy throughout the subtle body, as though there is a drain into which energy is continually being released.

The only way in which it can re-energized is either by munching through excessive amounts of food (which gets metabolized very quickly and fails to satisfy), or through the absorption of energy from living beings.

This may have been taking place unconsciously for several years, but upon Becoming (not to be confused with Awakening), this can be self-actualized and then one can cut off from these immoral feeds (to my mind).

This results in the body retaliating viciously and virtually collapsing.

I have since been trying to understand what it really is, this feeding.

'Ambient' feeding seems to be somewhat effective, but in the sense of how an MRE (meal, ready to eat) will keep you alive in an emergency.

There are those that feel that blood is a necessity for vampirism, but although I do feel drawn to it, and that it might be an 'icon' of sorts, in a ritualistic sense, I don't know if it's purpose is specifically for energy, nor if it's the only means.

I do however, think that envisioning the shoulders and rear of the neck during the act of drawing of the life force may be related.

These things I associate more with tantric connections, which is another level of connection that requires very little in terms of stimulation of the physical, and goes beyond mere orgasmic delight.

And there may be yet another layer beyond that. An ecstatic one which defies words.

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