hey everyone. I'm about 5'7", medium dark skin, dark brown eyes, and dark reddish black hair. I am bi-sexual and proud of it. I love my boyfriend, Jarid. i love my friends I swear i'd be dead without them.
this world is black. there is nothing here for me. i don't know why i'm here, it seems that whatever I do it turns around and stabs me in the fucking back. all i am is a heartbreaking bitch. i've been wounded by my own mistake. and now i'm trying to hide the scars. i'm lost and broken, hopeless and lonely. i feel like just dying. if everything i do, i end up regreting, why even continue living? right?
i have more pictures of myself, but they aren't the right format, so if you want to see them, message me and i'll give you my msn or aim or yahoo.
??HAVE YOU EVER??? X= have done:
( ) have sex
( ) snuck out of the house
( ) gotten lost in your city
( ) saw a shooting star
( ) been to any other countries besides the US
( ) had a serious surgery
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas
(x) kissed a stranger
(x) hugged a stranger
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
( ) done drugs
(x) had alcohol
(x) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
( ) made out in an elevator
(x) swore at your parents
(x) kicked a guy where it hurts.
(x) been in love
(x) been close to love
( ) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving
( ) broken a bone
(x) been high
(x) given someone a bruise
( ) skinny-dipped
( ) skipped school
(x) flashed someone
( ) had oral surgery
(x) seen a therapist { scard them more >; ) }
(x) played spin the bottle
(x) gotten stitches
(x) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone
( ) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed into a friend's car
( ) been to China
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped {to soon ago}
( ) shoplifted
(x) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back
( ) stole something from your job
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi gras in New Orleans
( ) been to Europe
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
( ) saw someone die
( ) been to Africa
( ) Driven over 400 miles in one day
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been snowboarding
( ) Met someone in person from the internet
( ) Been to a motor cross show
(x) had real feelings for someone you knew only online
(x) taken partially nude/nude photos of yourself
( ) been in an abusive relationship
( ) lost a child
( ) gone to college
( ) graduated college
( ) done hard drugs
( ) tried killing yourself
(x) taken painkillers
RoSe
A beautiful rose
givin out of love
hold it close
never let go
thorns pierce my hand
blood runs cold down my arm
as i crush the only love i know
the scars stay
the rose wilted
never to be restored
As if you were born into a world of tears, you
always tend to look at the darker things in
life. Inside you crave attention yet push away
society, and you're a hopeless romantic. Drawn
to things like the occult and mysteries, you
spend your time daydreaming.
the sad teen. Everything in life is f*ckin'
miserable. You constantly look over your
shoulder and wonder who is judging you...even
when you are alone. So naturally, you have
become a little paranoid and pessamistic. Your
personality can be one demensional but
confusing. You are constantly bored with life
and wish that something could spice it up. You
have a unique view on life and have identified
the problems with school society (Ex...what
makes popular people, how the student mind
works...) You would rather be alone because you
hate being hurt. You tend to think that no one
understands you, not even your parents /
guardians / friends. But that is just the
opposite! The people who love you want to
help, but they don't know how because they have
a feeling that they will say something wrong
and turn you away. You have to let them know
that you are willing to hear what they have to
say...and it might do some good to listen to
them.
Some fields you might consider going
in when you are older...Judge, author,
songwriter, producer, therapist, psychologist,
philosopher, or forensic scientist. You need a
job where you can express yourself and your
views on life. Or you need a field where you
can judge others and predict what is going on
in others life. Either way... you have the
personality to get you a good job that will
support you throughout life.
What type of teenager are you?
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What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are
an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for
one reason or another - possibly, you made one
tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or
maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't
commit. In any case, you are faithless and
joyless. You find no happiness, love, or
acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most
days are a burden and you wonder when the
hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and
sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching
picture. You are the one that few understand.
Those that do know you are likely to love you
deeply and wish that they could do something to
ease your pain. You are constantly living in
memories of better times and a better world.
You are hard on yourself and self-critical or
self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved,
you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite
your tainted nature, your soul is
breathtakingly beautiful.
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Beautiful, vivacious,
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The world is cruel, fate is bitter and there's no
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Yours is an illness of sorrow.
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.:Shadow Faery:.
You are the Shadow Faery. You are a very dark person, and you tend to keep to yourself a lot. You're also very practical and possibly very smart, but don't show it very much. You like lurking in the shadows and thinking of ways to avoid people. You should lighten up a bit! People could learn to love you if you just come out of the shadows a little.
You are a seductress! You use your beautiful body
and hypnotizing eyes to reel in your prey, and
go in for the kill after they have fallen in
love with you. It is truely a fatal attraction
that kills them. Perhaps, you sometimes fall in
love yourself. Behold the power of woman!
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I am the descort, and thwart, and long
for discordant, mordant chaos;
See the pretty dissolution,
See the ditty pattern briefly then
Dissolve away
Into a
Newer
Mode of messy disagreeable
(but me-able)
Affray, with lovely spite and hating,
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Your element is Darkness: Self centered, strong
willed, mischievous and mysterious. Your quite
dark and often times frightening, although you
may be good looking its just a costume hiding
the darkness of your heart. You detest everyone
but yourself, people are simply insects to be
burned under the power of your magnifying
glass. People are somewhat drawn to your
mystery but find out to little to late how
cruel you can be. But you have a passionate
soul, that is unless you already sold it.
Pursuing whatever you set your mind to, you
look at life with a 'Shut up and leave me
alone' attitude most often because people
generally seem to annoy you. You may be the
ruler of darkness but you can often times be
generally lonely wishing for someone to share
in your dance of darkness so long as they know
who is the master.
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Your Scary
Your probably goth (good for you). But this also makes most of the things you say creepy to others. Your probably trying to be mean but your slighty twisted so you end up scaring people. But who cares they still go away which is what you wanted. Try creeping people out by saying....
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"What kind of eyes do you have?"
Mysterous/Hidden
Your eyes are mysterour or hidden. You never like to go out and meet new people. You never trust anyone untill you have know them for years. you never talk to your parents about anything at all, and you neve tell your friends everything that you should. They say they care about you, but you think they just want something from you. Sooner or later in life you know you will find that one true friend.
You Are A Black Goth. You Are Evil And Only Depend
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Be Your Guided Light. (You must be
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Your Evanescence song is: Field of Innocence
Your "adult" life is full of despair,
hate and un-pure things. Nothing is good
anymore and you are generally depressed about
it. You remember the good times from your
earlier years: your childhood. Back then every
feeling was nice and you didn't have to face
the worlds cold heart. You wonder if you're
even the same person anymore since you've
changed so much. Sadly enough no one can
control time.
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You're like me! The intelligent loner. You're shy
at times but friendly, and you are never weak
and always independent. You are incredibly
intelligent (wise beyond your years) and have a
talent for many things (sports, music, art).
You have a kind and warm personality and enjoy
the simple things. Like hanging out with
friends and watching movies at home. But you're
sometimes quiet nature makes you a bit of an
outcast and a mystery to people. No matter how
pretty you are or smart or athletic, you just
can't seem to break into the crowd and be
noticed. Don't worry, try to be more outgoing
and speak out when you have more to say. Don't
hide behind your books and sports and computer,
get out there and get noticed. You also have
deep desires in life and feel vunerable and
alone at times. Don't feel sad either, What
helps me to express feelings and dreams that I
can't say to people, is through my writting.
Maybe you should try.
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Your wise quote is: "Reality bites with a
variety of sizes of teeth"(-Tony Follari)
As a person, you think life is just plain
painful, horrible and everything else you don't
like. Happy people confuse you. Alot. I mean,
why are they so happy anyway? You are depressed
and perhaps utterly alone and live life rather
montone. You feel there is no reason to really
be here and feel helpless.
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You need guidance.
You have become very confused in your life
right now and are unable to make decisions that
pleases you. You may resort to drastic measures
as harming yourself, but the situation doesn't
seem to get any better by whatever method you
are using for now. There is a pain inside
because of this and you feel helpless in your
life, thinking you will never find your way
back. But even though the path may seem dark
you still try to find yourself, which means
your inner battle is not over.
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