the name's cassandra, but you can call me cupcake. i wanna live fast && die pretty. i'm complicated. i'm stubborn, i'm moody, irrational, insane, bitchy, loud & a fighter. i'm a lover, i'm a mother, i'm a friend, i'm creative, i'm unpredictable & passionate as hell when it comes to someone or something i care about.
i was on here once before under glitteringrain. :)
i'm unstoppable. i live my life day by day taking whatever it has to throw at me & fucking it up to get through it. i aim high nd don't settle for shit. i do what i want when i want nd ain't nobody ever gonna tell me different. i learn from my mistakes nd move the fuck on.
i am TAKEN by the love of my love, my soul-mate & my elementary school crush. haha. :) his name is Tim & he's the most amazing man ever. he walked me home from our k-6th grade school, everyday for three years. he even had me a breakfast made everyday. we lost touch for a very long time, but found eachother again. (he still makes me that elementary school breakfast) i've loved before, but never like this. i've been married. it was good at first, but we got married just because of my daughter. he was abusive & we fought all the time. there were plenty of times i thought i was in love. but tim makes me see that i never knew what love was. we may not have it all together, but together we have it all & that's what's important. i'd do anything for him & him me.
he has natural fangs too. i'm his chew toy & wouldn't want it any other way. :) ive always loved him & always will. no one is ever gonna change that. i mean, after all, who remembers what someone ate in elementary school when the person wasn't even their mate?
I've got 4 kids. My son, Jacob is 6. My daughter, Kendra is 3. Tim's kids (that are mine too), Jacob is 2 & Alexis is 4. They're all my lovely babies. I love all of them the same. They make life so much better & I'd do anything to protect them. ♥
everyone says i'm too nice unless they been on my bad side. then they know i'm not as innocent as i look. so don't mistake my kindness for a weakness or you'll be in for one hell of a suprise.
i like to read & write. i like to make life worth it. i'll try anything at least once. i don't watch tv. i watch movies, listen to music, take care of my daughter & play my cod black ops. nd before you ask, i got a 360 not a ps. if you got xbox live hmu deadcupcake420.
music is my life. music is me. i love all kinds of music. i'm a music whore. people suprised all the time by the different shit i listen to.
what's on my playlist?
*crossfade
*lamb of god
*all that remains
*avenged sevenfold
*trey songs
*marilyn manson
*a perfect circle
*ACDC
*afroman
*alice in chains
*allman brothers band
*apocolyptica
*anthrax
*atreyu
*audio slave
*authority zero
*dropkick murphys
*rob zombie
*theory of a dead man
*rhianna
*chris brown
*drake
*lil wayne
*bruno mars
*bb king
*beastie boys
*beck
*billy idol
*black sabboth
*blind melon
*blur
*bone thugs
this list could go on forever... i swear. i eat, sleep nd breathe music.
life is beautiful nd too fun to waste. i believe we all write our own story. we choose if it's gonna be a fairytale or a nightmare. we all make our own decisions that leads us on different adventures nd it's up to us to decide how we do nd how we wanna live. i don't regret anything. i accept my consequences for my actions.
i love biting nd being bit. scratching, pulling hair, the roughness, the adrenaline. i love living on the edge. i'm a drinker nd a smoker. i love to party on the weekends. but during the week, i'm a good mother. i'm always up for fun. i'm always trying something new & learning.
A SAMPLE OF LYRICS I LOVE
-Your one vice
Is you're too nice
Come around now can't you see
I want you
All tattooed
I want you bad
Complete me
Mistreat me
Want you to be bad
If you could only read my mind
You would know that I've been waiting
So long
For someone almost like you
But with attitude, I'm waiting So come on- offspring
{this song right here... you can't even imagine what it means to me. it makes me happy & sad at the same time. i miss my friend & i'll fight til i die to have him back.}
-boy don't worry, you'll find yourself
follow your heart nd nothing else
nd you can do this, oh baby, if you try
all that i want for you my son, is to be satisfied- skynyrd
-I ran into your homeboys
They’re all fucking idiots
You’re not even my boyfriend
But you’re tripping because I’m in the club
Yeah that’s right I’m dancing
And something cool is in my cup
I’ma send a sexy picture
To remind you what you’ve given up
Fuck that new girl that you like so bad
She’s not crazy like me I bet you like that
I said fuck that new girl that’s been in your bed
And when you’re in her I know I’m in your head
I mean, I’m just saying you can do better
Always turned you out every time we were together
Once you had the best boy, you can’t do better
Baby I’m the best so you can’t do better- jojo
-These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along- evanescence
-Now I'm waking up
I've finally had enough of this wreck of a lifetime
I never thought I'd survive it
Now I'm taking back
All I gave up for that
Leave my pain behind
Wash these stains from my life
Just when I thought all was lost
You came and made it all okay
I can't be held responsible
This is all so new to me
Just when I think I'm invincible
You come and happen to me- crossfade
there's so many more.
THINGS PEOPLE SAY TO ME ALL THE TIME
*haven't you learned? smoking is bad for you. -my response: haven't you learned? i don't give a fuck.
*he's way outta your league. -me: how you know what my league is, bitch? you don't know me.
*you're psycho, chick! -me: no. i'm not. i'm just really passionate. wanna see how passionate i get kicking yo ass?
*you got demons in you. -me: yeah so they keep telling me. get over it already.
*you can't be that evil. you're too sweet & nice. -me: looks & acts can be deceiveing. everyone always thinks that they bad for me, when really, i'm the one that's bad for you.
*you're funny. -me: doesn't the saddest people make the best comedians?
*you're a poser. you can't like all those kinds of music. -me: who the fuck gave you the right to tell me what i can & can't like to be me? i can look like this & still like GUCCI. music is my life.
I've got an American pitbull named Jasper. He been my best friend since he was six weeks old nd now he is two nd a half. he's the best dog ever. so smart, loyal & friendly. so for those of you who think i be a bad mom bc my kids around a pit, fuck off. the chihuahua next door could fuck your ass up too. jappey wouldn't hurt nothing unless he thought he was defending me or my family.
I'm psycho, really. i am. haha. no i'm just playing. i'm just really hyper at times & really calm the other times. it's extreme opposites. i'm hot & i'm cold. lmfao. like right now, i'm depressed but hyper that's why i keep rambling. but it's cool because people want me to post shit on this bitch. so here it is. more shit for my profile, that you won't read. you'll just look at the pics & be like okay she gets a...
i hate animal abuse. id rather see a person be slaughtered than a dog or something get hit by a car. :) i believe in ghosts or spirits or whatever you wanna call them. i've got a woman in my house. she's sad a lot. i can't be in my bedroom at night without feeling like i wanna cry. everyone who goes in there feels the same way. it's creepy & scary at times, but it's cool being apart of two worlds. i guess i've just been too close to death too many times. :) like i said before, baby i'm unstoppable. not even death could keep ahold of me. Want to know anything else? Just ask me.
don't be afraid to drop me a line sometime. maybe i could be just what you need... or the exact opposite.
i don't watch tv really, but i love movies.
what would we watch?
*natural born killers
*sweeney todd
*across the universe
*nightmare on elm street series
*any zombie flick
*fear & loathing in las vegas
*the boondock saints (both)
*hot tub time machine
*the hangover
*the nightmare before christmas
*the corpse bride
*chuckie
*super troopers
*shrooms
*harold & kumar
*suckerpunch
*burlesque
*comedies
*action
*horror
this list could go on a while too.
