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Okay, so this is something on a note people should actually be able to talk about.

So when you are doing your ceremonies, or what have you. Do you ever experience anger? rage? hatred? or something in these capacities which would cause the balance within you to shift towards mean/cold behavior? if so, why is it you figure that these states are brought about by the work you are doing?

Say for example if you are using up your "emotional power" to fuel the current of something your working on. And all that is left is the cold logic as though you used up your current allotment of emotion until it recharged? has anyone ever experienced such phenomena?

Addendum....does this ever fuel a deep seeded lust/craving for blood even though one might not be considered vampire?

longing for the death of something, utter destruction and annihilation for annihilation sake?

I would think that those who practice the claimed "chaos" magic(k)'s, would experience that kind of negative behavior since they focus on the negative aspect for the most part.

Other then that, those who's aims are aimed at the negative may experience those feelings that you are describing. But not always.

I feel total control and energy.

It's never fair when someone goes through a pain that you know could have been avoided. Time after time, it plays through your head, and it comes back haunting you. Even if it wasn't your fault, so many things could have simply avoided this, but these things cannot be changed. Even the pain shared by many can corrupt the one who does not fully understand it. Within existence, many pains are to come to we who have been named humans, and these are to shape our future, but just what would happen, if that event meant to help one destroyed another. What if you went through a pain, but survived it well enough, only to describe many things to those whom tried to help, but failed. What if you say that are glad that you went through that pain for no particular reason, rather than anyone else. Suppose, in all this, the pain surrounds another, yes, certain pain is within you, but what if the pain was spread?

I believe we have all suffered some type of human suffering, that no matter how we try to distance our minds to it, it somehow comes creeping back to haunt us.

I never channel that type of energy to anyone. Except one time I actually told the person the hate I held for them for what they had put me through.

It did make me feel better...but not for long.

I just learnt to channel that hate into something positive. It was something I guess I needed to learn to relate to other's that had went through a similar situation.

I experience anger, rage, hatred, contempt, love all the time.

As far as ceremonies are concerned I may choose to allow all feelings to flow together. After all it is a part of who I am.

Not really into ceremonies but sometimes focus on a specific task which is draining both emotionally and physically. This can lead to "Vamping out" as one redirects energy from within.

*remembers making someone's hair fall out and craving very rare steak*

I think you know the answer to that one ;)

HAHAAHA yea *remembers the night @ dennys with you Drakon.....hahaa that was funny*

When I'm doing my thing, I have not experienced any of these emotions. Though I do agree with SS on the Chaos Magick statement. I also personally feel that it all comes down to you. You get out what you put in, or can put in for that matter.