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I have not been near the computer because every time I come home I get as far as the sofa and then I passout.



Only to wake up move to the bed and go back to sleep.



I quit smokeing again



I lost it at people at work



today in the space of less then 60 mins I gave my self a concusion off the fridge door, vomited up brakefest and then almost tour a part a pear of new bondage pants.



and some how I managed to pass another retraining exam at work.



oh and I still hate having to get up at 5:00 in the morning.



I'm sure there is more I could say here but im dead tired so im going back to bed.....



night

So he started his retraining at work... and he loved his job so he did not think that this week would be so awfully.



Wrong he was.... awfull indeed it would be....



You try getting up for work at 5:00 in the morning in order to be at your desk by 7:00 when you used to working 11:30s till 8:00s.



You try doing this in an invironment heavy with dust so much so your head hurts from your sinuses.



At the same time try dealing with drama and friend problems! and the fact that you have NO TIME for any thing but training and sleep.



The bigger mistery to me is why at times when I need to concentrate the most do people deside this would be the most amazeing time to bring drama into my life?



It would appear that I've lost some friends this week.... because I dident have time to deal with there drama... and oddly enough I am ok with it.



Things eather work them selves out or they do not....



Right now.... me passing this traning is number one cuz as I have learned from the past and just the past week..... everyone else will come and go... and I am just as I always feared.



Completely



and



utterly



alone..... just like she said I would always be

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ShanrillDecay
09:13 Apr 14 2008

You're never alone.

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