Okie so I had to do a dinner today for around 13 people (dad family came to invade) my X stayed over crashed in the bed all day till 3:30.... got up after she got a text message.... and wanted to leave right then.... either I drove her or she walked to the bus said she had to go to her moms house and clean.
I knew for one she was not staying there long.... and well she didn't she went out with plans with someone else. I'm sorry but if your trying to get back with someone.... and hanging out with friends is a more priority then staying with the person your trying to get back with while they work there ass off and go through a uncomfortbale situation.
yeah prioritys.... I brake my back for others I go out of my way.... expect someone to stick around when you have to deal with something you don't really want to and well yeah..... no wont happen.
I'm getting sick of people saying they want to be around me but when I expect them to give a little.... naaaaa screw ya I'll go hang out with someone else. Then try to make you feel like your in the wrong.
Yeah.... what ever.....
I had my head above water there for a while.... or maybe I was just fooling myself. Putting up a tree and stuff means nothing if it's spent mostly alone. Nothing has gone right worked out and such. The first day of the new year was me with stomic cramps.
My last relationship re-surfaced.... she is the only thing keeping me glued togeather. No one else here.... no one else wants to be here.
Moving away soon hopeing she comes with me..... at least then I would have one person. I fear nothing will ever work out.... I have this terrable need to be taken care of by someone....
Just.... not happy....
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