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It's been a while. Lifes gotten "complex" so I have not been around much to write anything. I get MSN messages sometimes days later.



I am not well. I'm elergic to something at work.... I take 24 effective anti allergy pills in order to do my job.... If I dont I feel like my heads going to explode. Mostly sinus preasure.



Its really warm here for us.... humidity and all its cooking at around 35 degrees. Its one of the things makeing me sick actually.



Ontop of that the AC is still not fixed in SpiderBot makes driveing durring the day really gross. Yes I have a convertable but I really dont like sun light it gets used more at night then durring the day time.



My summer vacation is offically CANCELED by my job..... they say they cant account for the off days I should have.... I have 2 off days left.... and there books up with already scedualed off days up till september. No vacation for me even after 2 years of wanting to go.



No high school reunion eather.... I have to work that day.



I spend alot of my time alone.... Joe quit and went back to work with the other company we both worked at before I havent seen my best friend in almost 5 weeks....



I made one new friend.... MEL she goes for random coffee with me.... shes more like a sister then a friend its odd. Even odder seeing other guys flirting with her and giveing me EVIL looks.... ammm I dont think of her that way I just dont... maybe I have more respect for people then to just think of them as MEAT and nothing more.



I have friend yeay.....



Had a long talk with dad today about nurseing homes.... what COULD happen with things.... I'm scared really. The idea of it makes me all icky inside.



best friend from high schools father pasted away... him and his sister where like family to me when they lived here.... thats whats really the cause of this ranting tonight I'm thinking about death alot as of late.



Maybe thats my problem.... I think to much.... when you have this much time alone.... not much else to do out side of work.... talk to ones self while playing xbox????



Hmmm....



Life is one big unsertonty right now.... if I had answers I'ed give them.... but i dont.... one little step at a time.