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Well I ended up going with some light gold eyeshadow and light makeup for dinner.
I wore my Sabres shirt and a nice pair of jeans lol
Dinner was fantastic. The steak I had was the best I've had EVER.
The baked potato was typical. Nothing wrong there. I did steal some fries from Sean though. Tasty. :D
And then I scared Sean with my driving (no I didn't have any drinks after all) since coming off the bridge between here and Hibbing I was going about 80.
I "forgot" that going down hills makes the car go faster. I wasn't gonna let that prius beat the mustang. That is a crime. XD
My boyfriend called me while he was on lunch to tell me to get my make up on and dress up nice because we were going to go to Zimmys.
I don't really see the point of getting dolled up, but I'm excited to go out there. That place is owned by fricken Bob Dylan.
So this is kind of a cool thing to me. It feeds my music side while eating out at a fancy-ish place. I fully plan on having a few drinks as well.
I know they have live music every night too. This will be awesome. I think he is trying to pull me out of my mood. It's nice. Just no flowers I hope. lol
Dunno how I want my make up yet. Any suggestions? o.o
You'll look stunning no matter what you decide to go with. Have a great time, doll. :)
13:25 Mar 29 2011 Times Read: 762
So a lot of things have been happening lately.
I got a letter from Social Security. My case is being sped up and will be handled in the next few months. I should be done within 6 months. Which is great because we were looking at another year and half wait on that one. We found a house we both love, but are going to wait on the down payment. *points* Social security for the win we are hoping.
As I mentioned last month, Andrew found me on facebook. (My high school sweetheart)
Things have been fantastic with that. He hasn't stepped over anything, but he seems to know when I'm not in a good mood still. It's nice to know that there are a couple of people out there that still care about me like that.
My memory issues are not getting better but they aren't getting worse at the moment. It's a come and go thing.
Work has been stressful. I'm thinking this week will be nice. I had yesterday off because of a doctors appointment and tomorrow off because of conferences.
My doctors appointment went rather well. My cough is getting better. She changed my asthma treatment plan. Hopefully that works. We shall see.
Life has been stressful but boring at the same time. Sorry for the silence. There are a lot of things I can't put into words.
A song Andrew sent me the other night after we were talking.
Just so a few people can feel better, and to give an update.
I forwarded the message I got to the right people and they are holding off on transporting him for a while.
They will re-evaluate his case management where he is and suspend his computer rights. They thought he was doing good since he hadn't contacted the others. They are worried that there are mental ties to me specifically that they want to work through.
I got a message on facebook last week that shook me to the bone.
I didn't know what to think then, and I don't think my way of handling it was good.
Last night I guess I started to crack because Sean pretty much forced me to tell him what happened.
The guy who raped me years ago apparently gets computer time in the facility where he is currently because he messaged me on facebook.
He doesn't have much information on me I guess because he mentioned how they are transferring him out of that place back down to Florida and he is going to attempt to get back to me and whoever is using what is his.
For those that aren't aware, I have my facebook locked down rather well to outsiders because of him. He was able to search for me and simply message me. I didn't think he would have computer access honestly. :(
I don't need advice on how to handle this. I have a restraining order against him and I will be forwarding a copy of that message to the people at the facility where he is and to the facility where he is going. I have the information for both places. I am notified of any changes to his case and I knew he was going to be transferred soon.
As far as my safety is concerned. I don't think he knows that I'm not in Florida anymore. That works really well in my favor. I'm just worried for my family since he is a violent person.
The message scared me and put me a bit on edge. I won't lie and say it didn't stress me out. It did. It was something I wanted to handle on my own but I couldn't. I guess I'm not as strong as I think I am sometimes.
I told Sean that I feel less of a person because I couldn't be strong enough to hide that and deal with it alone. Sean told me that facing the issue the way I am is being strong. Instead of completely breaking down, I'm being smart about this.
I just needed to get this out of my head.
Those that want to comment, go for it. But please understand, I'm not going to deal with any shitfuckery about this.
hu, never speaking of this and trying to live day to day with that is being Strong and know that letting someone help you sometimes doesn't say your weak by far it states that your not only strong but smart people like that should be put under the jail. be Safe and don't ever Feel bad about needing someone who loves you and taking there help.
and you are strong just remember that and also remember this those who are a victim of being raped deal it differently from each other we deal it in a way that makes us strong and not fearful of what has happened to us
Ever need to talk here for you was raped myself from a ex step father for 6 years 12 to 18
02:40 Mar 21 2011 Times Read: 826
I've been quiet lately. I know this. It's not something I wanted to be, but I have a lot on my mind.
I'm starting to feel the side effects of my meds. My doctor upped the dosage again this week. Something I should have been a bit wary about since I knew the side effects were getting worse.
Both my medications can cause memory issues. At first they weren't too bad. Something I could handle. I'm at the point where it's impacting my life and people are noticing it.
If people that I actually know message me for rerates/adding to friends lists and don't tell me who they are...I'm gonna totally ignore it.
o.o
I wish we could get like a little message at the bottom of a page that states "This person was known as 'so-so'" before when we look at the profile of name changes.
I get so confused. @_@
On another note, I'm so excited for this week. So much awesome will be happening.
My guild in Dofus will be hitting 100 at some fucking point.
I have more creative juices then I know what to do with.
Note my boyfriend left me this morning. "Don't forget to take all your pills like you are supposed to so you can feel better sooner."
-.-
The doctor didn't give me the same dosing on my cough meds so there is no way I'm following what she put. I'm going by what my doctor puts when I get those same exact meds.
Bleh.
My boyfriend thinks I'm weird. I wouldn't take my new meds last night because I wanted to do research on them before I put them in my mouth. I like to know what I'm putting in my body and what it could do to me. :(
Five years ago we tore ourselves apart somehow. The tragic loss of our best friend caused us to break apart and now we are coming back together.
Tonight I talked to Andrew for a few hours. It was nice. He said I should have hated him, yet I never did.
He admitted that I have grown into what he thought I always would. And he wants to stay around to be my friend and that he thinks that my boyfriend is probably the luckiest man on this earth to have me.
There were words that passed between us that needed to be said. Things that we both knew and we won't ever get over.
I think it was great. I needed it after this week with what has been on my mind.
His name came up a few times. We weren't sad about it, we just moved on. I think it was because we knew he would have wanted this. And Joey was there too.
It was almost the same. It won't ever be exactly the same, but we can try.
Rewatching Nurse Jackie since Sean has never seen it. Halfway through the first season.
We should really go pick up the stuff for dinner soon. xD
Later tonight we are probably going to watch Megamind. I was really wanting to see that when it first came out and all the kids kept telling me to watch it, so we got it.
They also keep telling me to go see Gnomeo and Juliet. Which is actually something I wanted to see. It looked adorable.
Slowly working out of my blah mood. VR seems very meh for me. The drama lately is petty and even though I don't particularly like either side involved, I can see where one group is being a bit retarded about it. Just my opinion on the whole situation though. As it is my journal, it is my place to put it here.
I think that over the past few weeks I have been focusing on the problems that have been going on at work more then the problems here, which have been a good thing. My work is a LOT more important then some bullshit drama on a website That is how it should be, and that is how it will be.
I need to refocus my energies on something better though. I've been gaming, but there are issues there that I want to avoid. An upcoming game change that affects me and I'm unsure how to take it. Nothing that I can really go into here, but stuff that just bugs me for no real reason.
I have a busy month ahead of me I think. A lot of doctors appointments happening, that has me worried/excited at the same time. I should focus on those more then the bad.
Ugh. Not quite sure where I am going with this. Just needed to get a lot of space made in my head I guess.
I ♥ Nurse Jackie. It's one of my favorite shows. Totally worth watching from Season 1. And I don't mind rewatching it since it gets me ready for Season 3 that starts this month.
I blame my mother for me spending money this morning.
She im'd me asking me where I like getting my makeup since she was looking to overhaul her collection and had a lot of money to spend on it (she got income taxes back)
So I linked her to the mac website....
Right on the main page. Viva Glam. New lipglass.
New Lady Gaga color.
It was gorgeous. Before I knew it, I was adding it to my cart and spending cash. :(
And then she was like "Help me pick out some good foundation."
So I went to find the one I use. I figured I have plenty of it left so I won't spend more money.
Then I saw the powder/foundation combo. Shit. That is one of those things that can go in my purse for a quick touch up.
Yeah. I'm almost broke. I almost cried when I saw the total. My mother kindly reminded me that all my bills are paid and I even paid extra on one of them. That eased the pain.
I'm debating telling my boyfriend...He might shoot me.
You can never go wrong with makeup! It makes even the worst days better! :D
19:12 Mar 01 2011 Times Read: 977
I got beat up.
By a 5 year old. -.-
The other aides at the school...they suck sometimes.
"I can't handle him. He keeps tearing up the classroom and hitting me."
Then restrain him and take him to the office like you are supposed to.
OR
CALL THE BEHAVIOR AIDES.
Don't wait for one of us to be leaving for the day and see him run through the school hitting people to have to restrain him. In our job description it states that if there is an emergency issue (like that) we are able to leave our assigned kids to go restrain the child that is acting up and take him to an area of the building where there is no one else and attempt to calm him down.
I literally dropped my purse and took my jacket off and took off at a dead run through the school as I was about to walk outside.
He scratched me up pretty bad. I was bleeding a bit, nothing a bit of soap, water, and a band aide can't fix though.
Just wish the other aides would have had the teacher call us...
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