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I have suffered these on an off or years and Saturday I got laid out with one - such back pain! By last night, after, flooding myself with water, the pain was better in my lower back and had moved to my right side. No sleep, misery. To the clinic this morning and have meds now. Hopefully I can rest.

Anyone who reads this blog is going to get sick of hearing about my breasts I'm sure - I'm in the process of inducing lactation again and so I'm pretty breast-centered right now. Today the fenugreek is definately kicking in because they feel so full and tender and achey. I LOVE that achey feeling. Such a rush and release of endorphins when they are suckled and that let-down happens. I can't wait for my subbie's lips today.

My lover is married - I am his Mistress.

I am a Domme, and thus, a Mistress.

My submissive boy is also married - so I'm his Mistress twofold.



I don't fit the historical definition because I am not "kept" - at least not financially. I am bound in infinite ways though. This is wonderful and painful and complicated.



I spent the evening with my lover last night. He makes me feel in ways I have never experienced. As I open my body and heart of him I know that I am his to use and enjoy. My breasts, my sex, all of me, belong to him. It's only when I am alone again after that I realize I am bankrupt; I own nothing.