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So! After about five more minutes of shit from a certain someone, I... well I still don't know what I'm doing. But I signed out. And. Now I'm going to go shower away the HATRED. :)



Ugh, what a bitch of a guy... *sigh* How in the world I got myself mixed into such a shitty situation, I'll never understand. Never! I never even thought I'd date in high school. Figured I'd be the stereotypical nerd, who never even talked to a guy, or noticed guys, or got noticed by guys, and I'm really wishing I hadn't right now. Grr... He's such a useless BITCH and I'm all screwed up now...



I care. Too much. About ... people who ... probably don't care back. WTF. That's stupid. I just wanted to help him... But he doesn't want to be helped. He resists, and he's so stupid and stubborn, and it will be the end of him. It's already the end of him. How someone thinks they can go through life completely alone, I'll never comprehend! I'd die without the people in my life. Literally just stop living. I don't know how he's done it this far, and thinks he can do it forever.



He can't. No one can.



The loneliness... Must drive one insane. That alone would be enough. But really... To have no one?



At this point, it's not even the fact that he's kicking me out of his life... But the fact that he wants no one in it at all. It rips me up. I can't stand to see him do this to himself. He doesn't realize what he could have. The worst part is, he's given himself a taste of it, but knew he was going to end it all along. He couldn't even enjoy it properly knowing that...



And to deceive us all like that....



I really wonder wtf's wrong with him, but...

I should really stop ignoring this place. I like it here. It's not too bright. :) Myspace is blinding... And slow. And stupid. And SUCKS. Heh.



Plus, I'm more anonymous here than anywhere else. No one even knows I'm here. No one that knows me, at least. I like that.



*pauses to IM some random freak*



Mmm sarcasm. Love it. Great way to handle strangers... and people who you HATE. Dude. Make him stop talking to me... lol.



I have too many "stalkers" at school. :| Really. And I'm too nice to deal with them... Hm... One day I will learn how to tell everyone to fuck off and go away.



And... I have no structure to this entry. I was hoping for some, but it seems impossible. Freakin annoying distraction going on at the moment, too.



Hahah I feel insanity coming on. *sigh*