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Thank you so much for calling me tonight, and giving us both the opportunity to share our personal burdens with one another... you are a wonderfully thoughtful, kind and caring, beautiful person. When you wanna be. ;)

::hugs::



Seriously... you are a better friend to me than I have been to you. I want you to know that I have NEVER regretted the day we met on here, oh so long ago - not even when we had our "falling out". I am very glad that we got the chance to meet in person... thanks to lown, who was my co-pilot on the freeways.



My life was forever changed - for the better - after the 3 of us hung out together. You made an amazing impression on me, and I am a much stronger person today, thanks to having spent time with you. YOU are one of the strongest women I have ever met in my life. For someone so young, you are very wise, and you don't take shit from anyone. Those are some of the things I greatly admire about you... especially that last one. After seeing you in action a few times, with people you felt were not giving you the respect you deserved or were simply being asses, I decided to adopt that same attitude... at least, to give it a try. And, believe me when I say, it helped me to get through a lot of hardships and awkward situations since then. But, more importantly, I began feeling a lot better about myself in general... definitely improved my self esteem - of which you know I have very little of most of the time.



Anyway, I don't know that I ever shared any of that with you before... and now here I am sharing it with all of VR. Well, with whomever ends up reading this entry, anyway. But, I do thank you and appreciate you... for all that you are and are not, for all that you've done and continue to do, and mostly for being the kind of friend anyone would be lucky to have in their life. You're a force to be reckoned with, and I am proud and feel blessed to be considered your friend. ::hugs::



Take care, and always remember... you are loved, by more people than you may ever truly realize. :)

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nobodysfallenangel
08:46 Sep 26 2009

Thank you for making me cry you bad apple!



I love you to, and am always here for you. I am very sorry things just keep smacking you in the head, and ass. I know you are strong just as much as I am, and I know that I am glad I have had a friend in you, and that even though we may touch & go every now, and again. When we talk it is like we never stopped talking. I hurt with you, and when you cry I cry too. I am here, and never forget that! That and don't internalize it babes.. call the 1800 NFA line. I am here, and I got you girl!



I love you, and I am glad that I could be in your life. Cos life would suck not having you and lown in it! I MISS HIM TOO!

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nobodysfallenangel
08:47 Sep 26 2009

Thank you for the entry truly I am so moved, and it brightened up my not so great day. This is something I will always carry with me in remembrance I do have you on my side. It means that much to me I LVOE LOVER LOVING YOU MY FRIEND!*hugS*

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After the news I got today, I was just kind of numb. No crying. No anger. No fear. Just a lot of soul searching.



Unfortunately, I came up with nothing.



My soul, it seems, is empty right now.

I don't know if I can find the strength to continue to fight for what I want... what I need... in my life. I can barely be strong enough to keep myself focused and holding on to that little shred of hope, so how the hell am I supposed to help keep him strong enough, focused and hopeful, so he can get through this?? So WE can get through this.

And I may never see him again.



I can't take any more bad in my life.

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birra
01:15 Sep 26 2009

:(



Bad stuff happens in everyone's life.



You just can't forget about all the good stuff that is there too.

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CAJOME
06:22 Sep 26 2009

With every bad thing that comes along, the good things - which seem few and far between - become less and less significant.

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Again with these feelings...



I don't want to be where I am. I don't want to be anywhere.



I need to figure out how to shake this... whatever it is.



I am really struggling. :(

... that people keep crossing.



I hate the feelings I've been having lately... I can't seem to escape them. I try to ignore certain annoying people and irritating situations that keep coming up, but it's getting more and more difficult to remain silent.



Something's gotta give... and that scares me.

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IronHeart
10:25 Sep 21 2009

Stay strong, sister, we all feel like that at times. Just remember to breath.

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I don't know if I can make it for as long as you need me to... for as long as I'd hoped to.



So many things are bombarding my mind today... so many bad things... painful emotions. I don't know what to think, and I'm struggling to hold on to what little hope I feel right now.



This is very difficult for me. I know what you're going through is difficult, too... but, you're stronger than me.



I hope work will take my mind off some of this for awhile.

Sometimes I seriously wonder what it would be like to "turn off the lights".



I don't know... I just don't know.

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LadyKrystalynDarkstar
09:25 Sep 13 2009

It would be very dark and lonely. No hopes left.



STOP IT.

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But, I'm even more thankful for this scrumptious ambrosia salad that I'm eating to take my mind off the fact that none of my friends here are on right now... WTF?!?! Well... except for TLDG, she just signed on... ::waves @ Marie::



lol



I'm sadly missing certain friends more than others. ::whispers:: "You know who you are." :)

Hopefully I'll get to chat with them over the weekend.



But just in case, I'm going to go buy more ambrosia salad later this morning. :)

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Trikki
16:08 Sep 12 2009

ambrosia salad is so awesome....oh...friends are too :)

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Right now... I hate myself.

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LadyKrystalynDarkstar
06:15 Sep 11 2009

It's not your fault.

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MinxyMoon
10:13 Sep 11 2009

Hope you feel at least a little better now?



:(

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nobodysfallenangel
14:13 Sep 11 2009

Believe me I hate myself too. We can be in our boat of mope together*hugs*

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Klown
21:48 Sep 11 2009

hey, stop that, u should never hate urself, u know ill alawys care for ya and i dont want to hurt urself, so stop it! u crazy lady!=P

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vines
08:21 Sep 12 2009

*brings you a cup of tea* Now snap out of it! You are a strong woman!!

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CAJOME
09:07 Sep 12 2009

You are all so wonderfully thoughtful and caring... I'm very lucky to have such amazing friends... I love you all very dearly. ::GROUP HUG!!!:: lol



P.S. I'm not hating myself... right now.

Thank you! :)

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