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Figured I would post this here too... since I have chronicled my health crap in this journal:

My diagnosis has been officially updated- *not* Bipolar 1 - but “Major Depressive Disorder” Only mentioning it because I was so open about the diagnosis before. What a previous provider used as an example of a manic episode is not a qualifier… no need to get into that.

On this front, I am fine. Wellbutrin works great for me, for this. Haven’t had an issue with depression since the VA took over my care. Anxiety is another issue- but a couple new things are being introduced for that.

What’s good about this update, is that you can’t help but wonder if a switch may flip inside you one day where you have a manic episode. I’d never really had one before, and I questioned what the person honed in on as evidence of it. That’s a worry my anxiety issue didn’t need.

I love my new provider- she listens and she really looks into her patients’ records. Things I didn’t bother to bring up, she asked- someone was not only listening to me, but balancing that with what is on file. Instead of feeling like I was in a “move it in and move it out” factory line of an appointment - she came with a mission.

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This was a gradual move. In 2022, the VA prescribed Wellbutrin (not a Bipolar med, although can be used off-label)- and I became level.

Being wrongly diagnosed in 2021 led to me completely flipping out. If a person who is not Bipolar is given Bipolar meds… the outcome isn’t good. People who don’t have psychosis should NOT take anti-psychotics! Take my advice and don’t ever try it. I lost a whole year of my life in bed. Yep, a YEAR in bed. I don’t want to dwell on the anger about that. It does me no favors. There is a small handful of people who were talking to me during that time who know how messed up I got on those meds.

Anyway. YAY! I have better healthcare.

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CuRsEdToDaRkNeSs
18:35 Nov 26 2025

Yay for better healthcare! You deserve only the best! I am so glad you were able to pull through that bad year and that you are such a strong person, even on the days you may not feel so strong.

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Seeing that 20 year bat on my profile really makes me think. Yes, time does fly… But never in a million years did I think certain things would happen. Didn’t think people would die so young, didn’t think I would even be here at certain moments. I have a complex concoction of sadness, gratitude, and wonder… Wonder of the possibilities ahead.

In the meantime, I just continue to work hard, ensuring that I am better every day. Another 20 years ahead – more events to shock my world in both directions, no doubt.

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Morrigon
13:12 Nov 19 2025

Life is wild and intense. "Hold on loosely" makes more and more sense as time goes on!

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