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So heres my last update before I go MIA for the next 3-4 months. I have been accepted into the Army and will going to basic training April 26th. Im leaving my current job a week early so that I have time to get all my paperwork in order, study and train to be an E2 and spend time with family before I leave. Im getting to that point that Im starting to become nervous and anxious. Sleep isnt a time of rest lol... more a time to toss and turn and have bags under my eyes the next day.



Im really going to miss Ronnie and April. Not to mention all my friends from work and family that I hold so dear. I dont think Im really going to miss my mom much lol but I will miss my grandparents and Ronnies mom tons. Im also going to miss talking to Ron and Christin all the time :P



Im really not scared at all about being there and doing any of the excercises, I know that I will do just fine on that. I have plenty of determination and brains... the part that is going to be awful is being away from home. Its going to be the worrying if Ronnie is ok and that April will remember me when I come back. I know that the Army is going to be hard on me during basic but the worst part is going to be exactly how hard Im going to be on myself.



I know that at times I am going to want to quit and things are going to seem so far out of reach that Im going to wonder how I ever talked myself into going in the first place but I know that this is worth it. Otherwise I will never go to college or be able to have a real wedding. I would never be able to have a child and be able to support them or buy a new car. There are many things that would be completely out of reach without doing this and I know without a doubt that its the right decision.



I just worry about home. I know that Im going to miss home and Kilo. That its going to unbelievably hard to sleep alone for the first time in a year and a half. I know that Im going to cry and be homesick. But I will come out a better and stronger person. I just need to breathe. I need support from those who mean the most to me.



And I wanted to say thanks for everything and please stay in touch. :)

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cadrewolf
19:41 Apr 15 2009

Best wishes and keep safe

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