My husband dumped me and I feel like dying
I feel like shit, my husband wishes i never woke up from my april coma, I love my kids to death, but I cant cope anymore.
All he has to do, is spend some time with me, treat me and speak to me like a live person that he loves, compliment me once in a while, but he is killing me.
He smashed my head into the bathroom tiles and he is not sorry, he said he'll do it a thousand times over if I say the wrong thing again.
What the fuck more can I do. I can do my best, but I can't make him try, not even if I tell him what he can do to fix things.
i had an operation less than a week ago and I was staying at my parents' recovering. It was peaceful, but i missed my kids, so i came back yesterday.
Now I'm back to the same old problems, feeling stressed and lonely, even though I am married.
I love my kids, and i love the time i spend with them, though they are in creche while I am recovering. But now my operation site is hurting because my heart is hurting.
No matter what I suggest or want to do to fix things, I can't get real love back and I feel like I am just here, alone. I can't be with anyone else, because I am married, but where is my partner, friend and lover? I am bleeding
I'm trying to find real, actually serious people to talk to and in all the silly chats I get slandered if I ask about vampires. People say they do not exist, but I know there is more out there and I have a passion to learn and feel.
So here I am, introducing me.....
COMMENTS
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xRobin3x
17:54 Sep 30 2009
hun... i know it feels like hell right now. but in the end your better off with out him. I know this is not what you want to hear, but if you want to talk ever, i am here for you. Let me be a shoulder ever you need one. A ear thats open. always.