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"And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they cant ever be fixed, and this is something nobody tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older as you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it's already happened. " -Douglas Coupland. Life after God.



"Sometimes you can't realize you're in a bad mood until another person enters your orbit.

" - Douglas Coupland. Life after God.



"The world is filled with stories of these beautiful little creatures who were all supposed to have been part of a fairytale, but who got lost along the way." - Douglas Coupland. Life after God.



"Some day you cross this thin line and you really realize that we need to protect ourselves from ourselves." - Douglas Coupland. Life after God.



"This darkness troubles me. I yearn for the light. This silence is so deep, I long for voices, the drumming of rain, the whistle of wind, music. Whay are you being so cruel to me? Let me see, let me hear, let me live! I beg of you. I am so lonely in this bottomless darkness. So lonely. Lost. You think I have no heart. But if I have no heart what is this ache? What is this anguish? If I have no heart what is it that threatens to break inside me? This darkness is haunted. I am afraid here. I am lost and afraid here. Have you no compassion? I only wanted to be like you. To walk in the sunshine. To swim in the sea. To feel the winter cold against my skin. The summer heat. To smell a rose, newmown grass. To taste an orange, a pear, chocolate cinnamon, peppermint. To feel the texture of a womans skin. I only wanted to share your joys and sorrows, your pleasure and your pain. This darkness extends to infinity in all directions, yet it is as confining as a coffin. You have closed me in a coffin! I have been buried alive. I will go mad here. Have you no compassion?" - Dean Koontz. Demon seed.

Done in therapy, all the way. enjoying life, mostly, we all have things that bug us and periodic drama now dont we? lmao!



umm.. dumped the mr. not dating, cant seem to find anyone remotely interesting so.. thats kinda boring, but hey, it'll work itself out. Making new friends, getting back together with old ones. family? me and mom are shaky as always, dad and I still dont talk, but we make it work-ish, everyone seems happy atleast.



ummmh not really much new.. OH yeah Ive had the week from hell with skin infection, eye infection and a muscle infection and aparently I now have psoriasis lmao! and to top the thing off my birthday is on sunday so ya.. that was a bit of a slap in the face, but fuck it, Ive been through worse than rashes and a few infections.. but how random that all this happened over the span of 5 days huh? lmao!



have a nice weekend