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Today I think I found a buyer for the clinic. One that will be able to make certain it survives here in Kansas regardless of the regulations, and one that will keep it as a Poca clinic. This to me is not only a huge relief, it is a blessing.



Still makes me very sad though. Lots of tears shed today.

That moment when your life insurance agrees you are dying and approves your critical care claim.



No words

KMFDM tonight! I'm so excited, although I'm going to have to take extra pain mess for it.



I'm just so very tired of all of this.



Trader Joes has a lasagna I really like, I think I'll be stocking up on it more.

That time when it takes three hours for you to finally get up for pain rx because the pain was so bad you didn't want to move.



*sigh*

Bad news.



The cancer is in my lungs. It is starting on my liver and spleen and the tumor in my abdominal is already the size of a lemon/lime. I have a feeling that I will be going palliative and packing up to move to Seattle in Nov.



Not certain how I feel about all of this. Still will do a trial if one comes up that I qualify for- but right here and now our only hope is that this new chemo helps slow the cancer growth.

There are no words for the pain I'm in. I'm having a hard time thinking long term, and not thinking less pain.



I just don't know how I'm going to make it through this.

I thought I'd be ok without nausea meds, I was wrong.

I can't describe how much pain I'm in. I just don't want to even breathe. I'm hoping tomorrow is less

Everything hurts today. I just hope it is the new regime working and not the cancer spreading.



Time will tell.

99.9



Safe. Now to eat and go to bed for real.

100.8

101.0

101.6



Now to keep going down

Positivity request, please.



I have a dangerous fever of 102.1 (I'm supposed to go to ER with anything over 100.5). I took rx that helps lower fever, and am rehydrating because I had 3.5 hour nap during heat of day and that's when it hits (every time). I have an hour and half to control this myself or I have no choice but to go to the ER.



Thank you.